Found out something disturbing about the new person Ive been hanging out with. At this point MA only holds for me a oven hot, polluted inner city for summer's hottest months and contant reminders of how I was betrayed here.
MA obviously prefers the bad guys over me. Its a totally lost place. The city limits of Boston and Cambridge are so polluted and eletromagnetically polluted especially that its simply just misery trying to live here at all.
I guess I have to take care of my health elsewhere...or come back in the cooler weather.
This area is unmanageable every single time I come back here. I simply have to admit that even though I wasn't allowed to outgrow and leave MA according to a natural process, I have grown beyond it. And I'd outgrown America decades ago and now its not just stifling to me but outright destructive. Every city I go to in the US is the same and they've all been gentrified and look the same.
I guess some things can't be conquered and some wars never won no mqtter how many battles you go back into repeatedly.