“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” --Maya Angelou

Friday, June 26, 2015

GS Has Reached Circus Like Levels/My Protection And Allies May Be Gone Might Be Factor

I'm @ a truck stop in Oakwood Ill. Gang stalking being done by of course McDonalds employees (who have a disgusting ragged American flag I asked them to replace.. Its a grandparents were US Marines thing. I may hate what the US has become and want to flee but I still want the flag respected. If u own a business here YOU SHOULD DO THE SAME. Its a statement on thd state of the country-who cares about the flag when u have a corporate monolith makjng money with the employees controlling dissidents East Germany Stasi style? F*ck the flag right? We live in a Bush reality now: the Constitution is JUST a piece of paper and the flag is JUST a piece of clothe I guess).

Locals who insisted on sitting right next to me and amusingly, a state policeman was arresting a motorcyclist with local cop and he was actuakly attempting to perform the side tapping while talking into his shoulder radio and approach this guy to cuff him.

As police were out here some white Latino looking idiot looked over gl see if I was watching becuz of course this was done right outside my window to the left, as the locals mobbed my space to the right. I was giggling actually and Mr Latino asshole didnt get whst he was expecting but since when has that ever effected or deterred these obsessive psychopaths with no lives like him?

Oh and I looked up and saw African American males dressed in military fatigues as they were hauling some jeavy equipment. That could be random but the big thing here is tk couple authority along with African American males probably becuz their power positioning on their own here isn't very strong or present.

So i assume this is supposed to deter me further from getting out of here.

Its been the worst trip of my entire traveling experiences. (Local male perps next to me are rubbing their pocket areas or tapping/hitting their legs while conversing. Its become a total perp sh*t show out here and its everywhere. The males seem desperate to some how get the taps to represent male sexual authority over me.
Needless to say the perps seem to be completely freaking out becuz I now refuse to deal with being comprimised at all by anyone.)

Its rained for a month in Austin now it rains EVERY EVENING here in the midwest and that means winds and heavy rain.

Rides are near impossible to get. They seem to want to delay me by keeping me in these small midwestern towns and Im also being bullied alot by the idea I should have stayed in Austin TX and that I should go back there.

Quincy was a constant gang stalking nightmare yet they were nice when interacted with and generous with money to eat.

Truckers are even doing tactics sometimes. I have NEVER seen that before. Ive never seen anything like this in all these years.

These small town perps like the old men can be really creepy. Like Uber Pedo creepy.
Probably retired vetran, uber pedos who think they are continuing to serve the country, while covering their sex crimes (their right as Americans prob their perception) and crush a female becuz isnt that what the Bible says and isnt that what helps make America great..

I grew up with twisted minds like these..in the foster home and my mother's family. Actually, my uncle's mob friends might be LESS twisted than the good American citizens who harass Targets-at least they knew what they were...and that they led criminal lives.

If anyone knows why the harassment has become incredibly ridiculous let me know.

It might be also that along with the change in administrstions of.Boston and Cambridge, former mayor Thomas Menino died recently as well as my grandmother. Its likr the Godfather movie where they wait til the matriarch is dead to kill her son Fredo.

But I never crossed anyone-they started this with me first. And I'm not stupid.

And my family keep thinking they are Italians...without the DNA.

Good luck with that.

That new city manager Rossi might be a pain jn my ass also. He lives in Watertown. Watertown and Newton are pissed at me and burn with hatred for various shit. Too bad.

Its just a bunch of power mongering assholes who will use anyone as a scape goat or destroy easy prey to prove how badass they are-all the while people involved in this system take pay offs from the puppeteers.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Trying To Re enslave Me As A Sex Worker-Recent Isolation, Harassments and Isolation Breaking Down Personality

Its very dangerous out there now. Its worse total war than it ever was and the bad guys with their cronies and minions in the streets and public spaces have all the advantages-the toys, the chemicals and the man power.

Its worse than it ever was. I have NEVER seen gang stalking networks this closely interwoven. Ive also never experienced tech this subtle, insidious and effective.

Its all the worst people doing the harassment people totally beneath the TI and of course all the perverts are involved and try to become handlers.
Years ago it didn't seem important for me to have a handler. Now there's a guy around every corner trying to get with me. They also keep pushing the baby thing, as a way of making a female activist lose focus.

Ive had at least one wallet tapping pervert truck driver giving me a ride who was sexually harassing me who mentioned something about women being in their peak sexually after 40 and it was really intimidating and creepy.

Ive seen this before in the adult entertainment world. Girls become 'old' for the business about 26 unless theres something really special about them or they are really professional hustlers who can keep the public interested.

Then, the same women seemed to become desirable again at 40 yrs old and guys would be calling for them almost the way they called for the young college aged girls.

I never understood it other than the woman must have more life experience so shes interesting.

Now I realize as usual these pricks are just thinking about their sexual pleasure.

So THATS why Im being handled the way I am past few years. They know the sex drive pumps up so they've been handling me in a way thats going to make me super submissive and that along with my sex drive overpowering me, i would easily turned into a victim of my own drives in my 40s.

That explains why in Austin that idiot said no one cares about sex slaves here and people just seemed focused on my past in adult entertainment which was a reputation that seemed to proceed me...moreso than years before.

THEY ARE TRYING TO RE ENSLAVE ME FOR SEX WORK or at least to serve males in some way through this capacity.

I wouldnt even be doing things in an alter ego, disassociated the way I did in my 20s, so my real Self and other parts of my mind were preserved. They basically have been breaking me down at least lately so that there IS no Self left. So that I can be completely enslaved as a sexually submissive servant but this time without anything else inside. Just a subugated person without any kind of hope or future like when I was younger.
This also explains why Ive been being surrounded more by perverts past year or two.

This would also explain why now it seems they want to destroy my Traveler identity and all Ive built for myself over these years.

What ever happened to me in OR during that abortion its contributed to this and my lack of Will, having trouble being unable to mentally fight or resist or define myself as who I really am.
Before I could effectively resist all sexual abuse with my Will and spirit.

It seems them destroying Boston and Cambridge not just for me but for everyone has been a large part of my losing my power.

Cambridge and Boston have alot of Luciferian energies and Templar symbols, structures that help the light Luciferians battle the dark which is why Boston and other areas have been destroyed.

I noticed that all ststues of Mother Mary were taken down in Boston during Meninos sickening sell out of the city to become 'world class' in the globalist NWO.

I figured it out later: it symbolized Isis, the only god Seth feared. (The recent terrorist cell naming itself ISIS is either based on this idea or its  a CIA backlash/slap in the face based on my and other people's writings.

I can still run to the feds and tell anything and everything. Then we can see just how discredited I am. And I will make sure I sue the FBI for harasing me instead of a subpoena. And there is some oversight to the arrogant all powerful fuckin feds. There is oversight and theres a world out there beyond the United States with legal powers. My MK Ultra and harassment case are unique in that my mother has a documented connection to MK Ultra and also a well known federal investigation was used as a cover to harass me. Askng me what I think of GW Bush is not a legit investigation. My sanity only becoming questionable during a fed investigation of people around me is far to convenient.

Im warning you that this will blow up in your faces. You want me to snap and become one of the pathetic lone shooters or people acting out in anger that you are using for diversion lately.
Not going to happen, my programming wont allow it.

You are too fuckin stupid to know that becuz you are pathetic losers who are totally beneath all that programming is and are only capable of focusing on the sexual programs in a person. Like in Austin when that fucktard mentioned 'sex slaves'. "No one here cares about sex slaves". Okay what about spies or assassins or any other part of programming?

If im nothing more than a sex slave then what about Theta programming, used in psychic killing? What about being used as a human recording machine taking in pictures, video, graphs, schematics or documents mentally?

What about actual assasination programming? Or childhood SRA?

I will not be reduced to the level of a doll by peasants or some toy for perverts. Perhaps they do this knowing that these other things exist in the programmed person and if the Targeted Survivor cant defend themselves with the violent parts of their programming for fear of snapping or going postal or acting out and getting jailed, then they think the person will just take being dominated and be shaped in anyway they want to shape the Target, becuz the person is denied any recourse so will just submit out of fear of getting into trouble for defending themselves the only way we know how.

This is probably why I was baited then arrested. This is why police are being used frequently, marked police cars and a police presence.
Im being bullied and intimidated to start fucking people. In Austin TX a perp drove by and screamed "Get laid!". People seemed to act as if getting me to have sex with them was going to be easy. Where the hell did this all come from?

Im not having sex with people I dont find worthy or arent attracted to. And I will not have other parts of my programming used against me to intimidate me.

This is why I want to try to leave the US again. The shadow system here, these stupid fucking disgusting lowly people will NOT quit and stop. Its gotten worse over the past five years and it seems like more common ignorant morons from American society are in on harassment.

The NWO is destroying Europe making sure no place is safe or a haven for dissenting people with brains who see through the NWO  deception but theres GOT to be someplace out side the US where people are resisting.

The entire country is becoming one big YUPpie/Hipster/gangland anyway and there's no room for normal human beings.

 Its one big plantation out here and it sucks. All field slaves will be captured and harassed into compliance.

Theres got to be something going on outside the US where theyve made sure there is no real resistance or true dissenters left. Everything is infiltrated.

I was harassed at a certain  truck stop chain in Dallas and the manager turned out to be a responsible man who said he would fire the guy. An empliyee actually grabbed me around my waste. All these black male truckers and employees were laughing about it as I walked to get the manager. He wasnt on the floor so I took pics and had someone put them on my social network site. Other travelers and non Gangstalking people saw it as well as my friends who were in contact with me throughout. I wisely waited until I finished my laundry then told the manager this black kid grabbed me by my waste with both hands.
He said he would look at the cameras and fire him.
I told him I wouldnt sue the company becuz theyd been good to Travelers over the years. (Needless to say the Dallas TX truck stop has degenerated into a black shithole over past few years. Drivers and local homeless actually complain about the gang members, locals, drivers and security guards being in on corruption.
Another place militarized and armed against the public).

But notice the content of the harassment. Two creepy guys who look like cop/criminal types doing intimidation and then some n*gger acting predictably by attacking me physically.
The harassmemt from black males has been an ongoing problem lately and it seems to be part of the police harassment.
No matter how hard you assholes try, I refuse to go with males of any African descent. I like Nordic/German/Celt blondes and Italian men. Thats what I prefer and no one is going to bullly or attack me into finding other males sexually attractive.

I assume the plan is to push me until I either give in or snap and become a lone shooter who offs some black men or a black area then they csn use it for their recent camapign of racial terror used as the latest diversion. Complete with Obama putting his face on newspapers and complaining about it as a black man INSTEAD OF ACTING AS COMMANDER IN CHIEF AND RISING ABOVE THAT TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

That asshole has manipulated the presidency as well as African Americans (hes a Halfrican not African American) like no other president before him. Its disgusting.

WAKE THE FUCK UP TO THE FACT THAT THE BLACK COMMUNITY WAS INFILTRATED LONG AGO BY COINTELPRO. How many African Americans do you actually believe you can trust against the NWO deception or for 9-11 truth? Ive seen so many house slaves throughout this campaign Ive lost faith in black people all together.
It seems they work for The Man now. None of this surprises me..it just saddens me.

Since the US is sinking into depths not even reached or possible during Bush I think fleeing for one's life might be a good idea.

Im going to go listen to Hendrix's Third Stone From The Sun and re experience what a genuine black man is capable of expressing..not houseniggas tryin to keep us all down.

"All though your world wonderously
With your majestic, and superior cackling hen
Your people I do not understand
So to you I shall put an end..
And you'll never... hear....
(Rap) music again"


(Though I can understand wanting to destroy the Beach Boys with spaceship lasers or something.)

Take us away from this awful planet Jimmy. Take us back home. This place sucks and humans are stupid.

"Station to station, please state your position, over"...

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Weird Advice About Feminism In Head After Posting Metal Song On Social Networking Site

Yes i turned my social network back on. I need a way to keep in touch with other Travelers I actually like. What I advise if like me u just cant get rid of it is to be disciplined and just cut off anyone and everyone whos ever shown any signs of being in on gang stalking or messed with you or used u to get in good with the system or u think might be working for the cops feds etc. No matter how much u THINK u need them or depend on them or have become desperate for friends or acquaintances.  Be real strict with yourself as these people are only perpetuating the mind control u r under anyway.

As I posted this foriegn metal I found on internet radio, a strange run down came into my head about how women NEED feminsm, and that even though I like male things and sometimes think im a male.or dont consider my female body im in an issue, Im NOT a man and (the white man) men are faster than me and better at certain things and their nature is to naturally band together and crush women.
So women need feminism and black males fused into that becuz its the only thing that allows women like me to have a chance at anything or even freedom and counters against 'the white males'.

Personally Im sick of the countering being about black males or other races. Gang Stalking has proven that theres no perfect race or balancing of power through social engineering becuz there's always a play the cheaters aren't showing everyone else at the table-like covert activities and programs.

I notice that in order to have f*cked me up as badly as they have over these years, it was black males, African Americans of both sexes and other races and cultures responsible but mostly black males and African Americans generally.
Yes Mexican men in TX or the occassional perp whos Asian or from India etc.

It might have been different if my gang stalking/experimentee horror had been with just white males. (And women being against me has really been damaging. All women.)

So what line of bullshit is this?  Why are these powers so afraid of white females responding to challenges from the white male?

And what about the Semetic, Arab or Chinese male? What about Native males?

It was a very pathetic piece of advice. Perhaps white males living under strict religious controls are dangerous as all humans are but European males showing their compositional prowess evolved over thousands of years of musical history combined with human primitive energies??

It was like this advertising for why the great dumb down of the NWO is a great idea. That special people who excel create competitiveness and that's not 'peaceful for everyone'.

What is this bullsh*t?

Pure F*cking Armeggedon just came on. Should I turn it off and listen to adult pop? Or Beyonce? O some sh*t??

No. No, I dont think so.

I dont like being oppressed...but I like what white boys do for me. Im a white female..isnt this how its supposed to work? Uh....hello?

(Orleans 'Dance With Me' just came on. Sometimes white boys do very nice things as well. I used to have a male who could privately sing pretty songs..like white men do. I dont think these awful people are getting the white male in all his completeness.)

Their world view sucks, their future for us is bleak and i am sick of this crappy, false time line...that sucks.

Leaving Austins Prison

Still in TX but away from Austin. Tech and other Austin area specific components of gang stalking program have ceased with leaving the area..as always is the case.

Mexicans are still heavily involved in harassment now but Im in an area thats dedicated to commerce outside a major city so thats expected. Anything corporate or college etc.

Generally though the in person harassment from perps has stopped. I'm sure it will begin again in next major city.

Austin has a system of using sexual abuse based on forced arousal to control Targets and I suspect the entire population.

Unlike the sexual abuse control or trauma to cause behavior modification in other cities Ive posted in the past the process in Austin was different.

It was a non stop low to mid level arousal but it was constant and release did nothing in a short span of time. Release in Boston area would be part of a cycle of aggression as part of a complex brainwashing program, utilizing abuse of human sexuality.
However release would provide a day's worth of relief and if done a certain way could gain the Target power even as the system was attempting to take it from or use it against the person.

Austin simply made it so one would be rendered submissive. It was a constant distraction and helped cause problems with impulse control or lack of control.
It also somehow fueled an appetite for eating and buying things.

Ive learned that in TX in the game of mobbing Mexicans are dangerous becuz they do it like they are the level of children. They arent like Mex in Cali or even NV.  It's very 'nah-nah-nah, nah, nah-nah'

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Austin-Aside From Some Christian Resistance, Its NWO Bought And Sold

Out of all the places Ive been miserable, this is the most miserable place I've been.

Austin has changed from what it was, its now a completely NWO ruled city.

Whatever was here in 2011 is gone. Locals says its been happening over many years.

Don't come here.

There's absolutely no resistance to the system thats obvious though there must be something becuz I was able to get some important things done.

They perhaps have more decency than the northeast.

The gang stalking reflects the herd mentality here and is probabky so heavy due to there not being as much tech as the north east.

The mind reading or scanning thing downtown is really irritating and annoying.

This state traditionally supports military and govt so theres alot of gs from everyone, everywhere.

U will find no allies in the streets here. All homeless people seem tl be in on the gang stalking or easily recruited.

Monday, June 15, 2015

Austin American Statesman-Traffic Deaths Are 'Random' and Defy Explanation... Shadow System Not Factored In

Austin American Statesman-
Traffic deaths puzzle officials

Organized Stalking and psy ops and electromagnetic tech/weapons aren't being factored into the 'calculations'.

Perhaps then they wont defy logic.

Also his 'calculations' werent like MIT quality with game theory or algorithms or whatever.

More people more cars and the Gremlins plus their tech/chem making humans act all....out of whack.

Who needs math? Its called humans are sinister if they can get away with it.

Austin Harassment Based Too Much On Sexism/Im Being Marketed As Dangerous (Only Since Finishing Probation)

The latest harassment seems to be all about framing me up as a horrible person. Also to try to bait me so I reat as was done last summer that resulted in my arrest.

The day I finished community service people began gang stalking ms differently. Cop cars are around alot or are parked on my routine routes I take

Strange how its suddenly important to do so whereas for years I was obviously standing up well under pressure as I was the one being victimized.

These people seem to have everyone fooled or supporting their deceptions by being just as criminal or twisted as them.

I love how African Americans in the US are a large group who partake in these war crimes yet now its being engineered to appear as if Im some rampant racist who mindlessly victimizes African Americans.

One thing is sure about Austin-sexist sick bastards, woman beaters and sex offenders certainly work well together here. And they are the most arrogant, confident male perpetrators of violence against a woman or women I've experienced anywhere in the nation.
They dont seem to have any fear at all.

Im also being framed up or my image is being shaped as a dangerous person. Its in line with all the police shootings and lone shooters.

This is the most frightening becuz im wondering if it's to prime a frame up of me if i do leave the US for a foriegn country.

Its not hard to get a double on a surveillance tape to do something and frame a person.

I also now realize that most people simply believe Im making up the things I post or they CHOOSE to agree with that due to having a vested interest in supporting the system.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Spinzone Laundry, A Gang Stalking Hotspot For Years In Austin Finally Gets Rid Of Me

The Mexican gangland tattoed prison-fag who of course has covered his ass in old age (30) by converting to Christianity  used sneaky prison mentality and tactics to have to owner tell him that he can't have me in there anymore after his being sexist to.me and profiling me as homeless.

Of course its becuz, like in the heirchy in prison and his innate sexism and racism i asked him to clarify something, thus making it evident I a white female was smarter than him which was not my intent.

Hey its their neighborhood. They run the drugs from Mexico. They can have their laundromat.

They love their blacks here on Oltorf though. Thats how they want to be anyway, what they want to emulate and act like.

So let them rot down here.

Of course the push over yuppies need desperatly to block out any oppressed poor white people.

As long as theres no conflict they can ignore the genocide of the white race. As long as they can get by and live in denial.

I cannot wait to go back to civilization up north. And try to leave this disgusting country.

In TX the Mexicans are just house slaves like the blacks up north. Its not like Cali.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Two Perps Identified In South Congress Area Businesses Austin TX

Two perps found in South Congress area of Austin.

Blonde kid droopy eyes works daytime in Homeslice Pizza which is generally creepy anyway. Its owned by some NYers I believe. They may be nice to the homeless but they are annoying to the targeted homeless. The Mexican vook staff are also rude to me. The night workers and a biyish female during the day are very nice people and polite.
Hes nice enough but he attempts to interrogate information in the old way perps used to. Where am I goijg next usually which is lame and he was very interested to hear I was leaving Austin soon and today asked how much longer id be here then tried to ask about where i was going.

I never tell people anymore and if i do I lie or misdirect.
My old friend in Boston used to do this and I never understood why she gave different people different info usually bullshit. Now i realize she was targeted probably life long due to her father having a side job with a certainvery nasty agency. Its a wise practice.

The second and much worse perp is a male working at Shell gas station and convenience store next to 7-11 on SoCo toward Oltorf st.

This guy im gonna take action against becuz he was sooo offensive and i can get him for legit harassment due to his actions.

He is from some part of India like everyone else who works there ive heard him speaking Hindi or some dialect ro other employees.
He has glasses and is youngish and has that assholedom thats very specific to the Millenials involved in doing harassment. However after hearing I was 44 he claimed he was 42.

He looks young and claims thats becuz "Black dont crack". Hes not African and for India hes pretty damn light

Let me be clear that the usual man I deal with is very nice and polite to me. He is older and has a healthy chubbuness to him and generally a much more happy, attractive person.

This kid Ive never dealt with and he started by asking where Im from and I don't look like im from TX. He said he lived in Boston which like his age I dont believe.
He then went on to say that my life must have wemt to shit for me to be traveling. He also further looked for info to make a judgement by asking me if i was " on the street" or if I "have a house".

I refused these questions. I told him I was an activist. He said "You dont look like an activist". Which is ridiculous,
what does one 'look like'.

He then said I looked like I came from a good home and something happened to cause this situation etc.

He's a psychopath the kind they use for gang stalking specifically. He's obviously reverse racist and delusional about being African American or is into the dangerous MultiCult racism created by believing in the concept of 'People of Color' (The Nazis would be proud. Laughabley in Boston and among white-Mexicans here, framing me uo as a Nazi is popular. I believe this was started in pathetic Cambridge or Boston.)

Hes also into harassing women he percieves as powerless due to being at a social and economic disadvantage. He was also very controlling and manipulative with the conversation and I believe hes a predator attempting to find a vulnerable female for victimization.

His response to my claiming activism is common in the US and among the homeless was that " i take care of my shit. If anyone messes with me, I take care of them."

Did I not say TOTAL PSYCHO?

this kid is angry and seeking power and having delusions of grandeur about how much power he has in life to control any interference.
His problem is that he must percieve me as someone who got in the way of his affairs becuz hes 'taking care' of a threat the way hes acting towards me.
Or he is part of the gang stalking system so if anyone "messes" with him, he can have them 'taken care of'.

This one in particular is an arrogant little punk who needs schooling. Hes f*cked and he got me off guard but hes going to get at least exposed for his disresoect.

I dont come from a good family actually thats one pf the rationales used by the perps. That i come from "the worst kind of backround" (black bitches in Boston and they can go f*ck themselves).

Its funny, i never have to 'take care' of anyone. Its done for me.
But that might be becuz as an MK Kid im US military property...it might be other connections.

Who cares?

The kids boss is gonna deal with it or we can do something else.

Austin is so arrogant Ive gotten used to reporting people to bosses and companies. I can tell the system doesnt such care becuz I dont put my name on the complaints.

This scum are only concerned about legal consequences. Like most Americans they only fear lawyers, guns and their wallets being hit.

SoCo has been flooded with stalking and harassment perps ever since May 1 just like Barton Springs which is most likely private black ops or other similar forces present for the tourist season. They do the same thing in Boston frok June 1 - end of August.

Austin TX Harassment Uses Peons And Bourgeoisie Rich...And I Owe Myself More Than Thus

I'll never move to Austin TX. Becuz I get harassment frok the biggest nobodies. The African Americans think they are clever. At least in Boston they have to depend on terror and mobbing and the element of surprise and being obnoxious becuz they KNOW im intelligent ans I have people in the community.

Im sick of being nice to the lowest level peoplejust to survive. Austin is waaay beneath my level, they keep me targeted by people who are arrogant and have absolutely jo class about the situation.

They treat you like shit in Austin and with total disregarf. As if you have no power at all.

In other places the harassment is meaner or more violent but there are SOME allies or people who are afraid or overpowered.

Its unbelievable to me here the total lack of respect and focus on status only.

Im sick of blacks trying to manipulate me. Ive been aware of their recent change in tactics yet they still act like they are smart or clever....they act like they are in control.

In Boston the blacks act like they are forever trying to gsin control but never quite can totallu.

I will not be fucked with by people who are so beneath me this regularlu.

The herd mentality down here is deadly and im also shocked at the alliances between blacks and Mexicans. Im also very disappointed. In Cali theu are different and the alliances are different.

Im also getting alot of harassment from religious types. People who talk about Jesus and i overhear talking about church.
There are church people here where the church is obviousky a cult or using cult mind control.
That means there might be more Cause Stalkers here than I've ever dealt with before.

I can't wait to return to Boston for a short stint for business, and be harassed by a much better class of people.

I can accept that the children of the elite.or mafia kids or smart students are my betters.

I also understand and respect their motives. MIT, Harvard or being involved in any part of The Complex, having parents making money off of it, political connections.
That all makes sense. I dont like it but I get their motives. They are actually legit.

Getting harassed down here so mercilessly by THE most insecure, Bourgeoisie awful people (and their peons) whos motives cannot possibly merit the amount of pure snide, smug assholedom they put into the harassment has been an experience that shows me exactly what is wrong with most of the USA outside of special places like the north east and Cali.

There are losers there too but even the elitists who harass me think they are a joke also.

Its been awful to feel like Ive no leverage at all. Ive expended so much energy being amiable or acting stupid to get people off my ass....while Ive been working on fighting the most devistating kind of oppression a US citizen could know domestically.

My blogs and my work and my facing what I have should be all rights be respected. Its not the adversity it's the fact they lean so heavily on disregard and beefing up their own pathetic status or self as a form of psychologic warfare.

Whetr Im from, this is called making it personal just like in the movies.
Austin seems to rely heaviky on acting like you slapped them in the face personally and they are getting revenge on that level.

The harassment here is so petty i cant get any work done. Theres so many idiots who seem to not even know whats really going on but are viscous as if I crossed them personally.
This is unacceptable and like everythkng else here-its juvenile. I refuse to prove I have power to people like this. In Boston its about understated power. Here if its not shoved in peoples faces, no one gets it.

I cant take it anynore.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Austin is Oppressive And Unhealtgy. GS System Oppresses On Very Personal Levels

The ritualistic gesturing tactical harassment in Austin being so pervasive and constant is very hard on the ego and seems to be part of a very hard push to wear me down for behavior modification.

Ive never been anywhere that supressed my sense of self so powerfully, where I found myself hating who i was, my lifestyle even my clothes just based on the sheer power of the collective in the surrounding environment or community.

Theres alot of powerful tech here.

The daily interface is rough. Sort of a brutal Truman Show Effect but its definitely used to train the Targeted persons mind and emotions.

Its really annoying it now includes Alex Jones and has included Willie Nelson becuz of course these are local famous people.

Its just soooo annoying. The heavy handsd interfacing tech plus the constant gesturing is pretty oppressive.

This city isnt as bad as other places as I can get things done and im not being harassed into going to jail but is it worth it when your personal pride no longer exists or you dont get to have a sense of privacy at all.

That's the unusual results that differs from other cities and towns. Despite getting results or being safer or less harmed than other gang stalking locations, the feeling of being in a cycle of being punished or bullwhipped daily and penalized for just being your self, which isnt even possible here, isnt worth it.

Whats the point of any kind of success or advancement if the Self doesnt survive. If one doesnt have control anymore. No private space.

In other places, the harassment invades my private space. In Austin I have no such thing to begin with. Theres no personal dignity to destroy becuz its ddnied from the second you wake up to the moment you go to sleep.

I need to treat a medical issue over a long term and I was thinking Austin would work becuz it's fairly livable in the winter months. But if its this controlling and miserable I cant deal with that.

I wake up and all my woes attack me the second I become conscious. That is NOT the case in most other locations.

And other places treat me like sh*t but at least I have the illusion of hope and access to my personal power.

I also have discovered that it seems Austin is unhealthy environmentally.

Lots of Staph in the south. They don't understand Lysol down here. They dont have an ocean or winters to clean and kill things.

It effects peoples minds it seems. I think the environment encourages drinking and eating here. Even fears about not having money.

I guess New England has its positive qualities.