“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” --Maya Angelou

Wednesday, December 13, 2023

Why Would Anyone Subject Themselves to 'Reactions To.. ' Vids?

When i see stuff like this:



It makes me want to rewatch this:

SLAYER-METAL GRAMYS PERFORMANCE from Metal Grammys   



.... and this:

SLAYER LIVE with Yoko Ono-Metal Grammy Performance from The Metal Awards Show



Repeatedly. 

It's more about the group or crowd or mob. It's about them not actually experiencing something new. It's all about the group listening to whatever it is instead of that content. Why can't people just exist and live their lives without this constant peep show? It's so obviously an extension of the surveillance state. Having to look in on everyone all the time. Since Covid it's now normal to be seen in some dinky room in your home or an amateur podcast setup. It's ultimately depressing all in all.

It's no wonder most of them didn't like it because everything nowadays is such a junk food type time waster instead of content.

Check out the other vids on those channels and share. 
Just one of those gems you run across occasionally that makes life fun for like 5 min nowadays. 

I can't write freely on my other blog because the poor thing has been used in court as part of the attempted frame up for threatening emails back in 2016 so I have to keep it dour, serious and very grown up, responsible etc. 
So I'll start messing around on this one again 


Thursday, August 18, 2022

Uber creeps

 Partner switched personal payment method from my PayPal to his accounts. After update it finally worked. We started getting NORMAL NICE drivers who were genuinely DIVERSE as you'd expect with a  supposedly random way of choosing whoever is in the area to pick you up. 

Then a few days later-another update of the app. After that update my partner starts getting creeps again just like before. 

The difference in service and driver behavior is so clear now that we've had what seems like normal decent everyday ride services as opposed to a black listed type level of service. 

I'm sick of getting young hot shot foreign males who all have Tesla's and other models of cars THEY COULDN'T POSSIBLY AFFORD and they all have a creepiness about them as if they are criminals. Opposed to years ago when I would get interrogated using my account, we usually get creepy vibes and dead silence and the ride is very anxiety inducing as if SOMETHING ISNT RIGHT about the environment in the vehicle. 

Stop sending hot shot young arrogant drug dealers or whatever is going on, that like to speed constantly in cars they couldn't possibly afford AT THEIR AGE, WITH THEIR STATUS BY HONEST MEANS. 

It's that or assholes with DIRTY CARS who LIE ABOUT HAVING NUTS OR OTHER STUFF that triggers my anaphylactic reactions just so the asshole (always shitty and foreign) can get paid.

If someone has a dashcam and I have to stick my head out the window the entire ride with my mask down under my nose in order to alleviate the feeling of my throat closing up even ever so slightly to mild reaction, it makes me think that it might just be on purpose so somebody can get the entertainment of looking at me suffer.

We already give every single driver a free written message and text it to them asking them if they had any heavy colognes or air fresheners like that ridiculous thing that people stick in the damn heater because most young hot shot guys have stinky acts type spray in their car and then I would not be able to stick my head out the window I wouldn't be able to ride in the vehicle so to avoid that a free written message is sent to them and if it's bad enough we cancel which is always worked out fine but if you're an a****** and you lie about it just so you can get the ride how do I handle that because Uber doesn't seem to give a s*** about the rider it's all about the driver. 

There's no place on Uber you can tell the driver officially in your profile when he's picking you up or she is picking you up that you have a disability or something that makes it dangerous for certain conditions to be present in the car such as peanuts nuts fish or heavy heavy cologne type air fresheners that you have environmental health conditions or allergies or chemical sensitivity she have to go through all this crap and if somebody lies and they show up you can't cancel it that point and if they have a dash cam you have to wonder why didn't they just cancel why didn't they just be honest about it or I have to wonder if somebody is trying to see if I actually do have an anaphylactic condition because for some weird reason the system seems really obsessed with denying that I have this issue everything from a few allergists to when I was being framed in New Hampshire they were obsessed with denying that I had allergies to peanuts when they didn't even test me which I'm going to file and sue them for at some point.

One has to question if somebody is a human experimentee and what they're doing is illegal to the person it might just be super illegal and it might even make it so the person is no longer even allowed to be in some weird human experiment if they have anaphylactic reactions because it can kill me just the other day there was a dog attack of another dog in the park and as I was screaming at the dogs to get them separated and the owner was being a jerk of the dogs that attacked the other dog I almost got choked up and couldn't breathe which is one of the reasons I can't get into physical fights and people make fun of me because the adrenaline causes anaphylactic reaction another words if I got into a physical fight with somebody and the adrenaline was too fast surging through my body I could have anaphylaxis in the middle of having a fight and it could kill me cuz the person fighting me wouldn't know that that's what's wrong with me and I would die. 

So after having a shower and cleaning up and having my haircut by my aunt I come to meet my mom to help her out of course I'm doing everything for everyone and nobody can give me any courtesy at all because they're complete f****** selfish assholes and this system sucks more than it did before covid they're taking total advantage of everyone's selfishness and auntie homelessness and everything else during covid now post covid and they're being complete jerks the rides I got before covid even theoretically being a targeted individual people were nice and to be honest with you when I use my personal account the drivers are nice cuz I complained a lot about assholes but there were a lot more nicer drivers before covid during covid you couldn't get a ride around here and now it's like this systematic f*** you sister especially when I use my partners account which we use for financial reasons. I don't appreciate coming to where I'm going to get my stuff ready for tomorrow and now I have to change my brand new clean dress that I got out of the laundry and wash my hair on skin all over again because of whatever was in that person's car there should be a law against Uber drivers lying to people that have severe allergies and cannot be around certain substances. I shouldn't be sitting in somebody's car and my throat starts to close up and I feel sick like I have a cold with a sore throat and a sore nose. And the f***** has seat covers but they're put on half ass and his car is dirty what do I have to do start asking people if they have a clean car or not the problem is is that with Uber you have no recourse they don't even have a direct line to call them. My partner couldn't use his account for one month and he was denied service for one month simply because of a glitch in their system and you can't contact them by phone to get it fixed quickly when you need service Ride service especially if you're a vulnerable population and that's how you need to get around sometimes because you have to do it through email that is absolutely ridiculous why are we letting these companies take over they've destroyed public transportation by the way because and they also only service a very small demographic of people the only benefit a small demographic of people gladly my partners one of them but did you know that college students are actually taking rideshare services lift and Uber from one end of the campus to another because they're too lazy to walk? And we've ruined multiple people's lives that drove taxis and cabs and destroyed the public transportation system when we're bitching about the environment all the time these companies need to be more responsible and whatever dirty tricks b******* is getting pulled through this crap they need to not be able to do it which means there needs to be more oversight and more ability to reach customer service years ago you used to be able to tell exactly what was wrong with the driver and that was a little bit more effective now they're blocking communication again and controlling what you say now you can only complain with not so many stars and then they ask you what's wrong and you have to pick up what they offer you you can't even write down what exactly is wrong. I have to hand it to them though they have returned some cancellation fees for him when the ride wasn't what he wanted so he had to cancel because of something to do with his disability or accommodation of the person that has to be with him. But in the beginning we got some real beaut and they were outright abusive before covid and I also got some really awful people. Before Uber had the 911 service to report crime we were totally unsafe using these right services.

People were so abusive. One time we were in downtown Boston of course with all those cameras around everybody can watch the show and Uber was in South Boston and we all know what that means God knows where this is coming from right it's just outright harassment if you know anything about Boston you know what I'm talking about God knows where the hell this crap was coming from South Boston and downtown Boston with a bunch of cameras I'll be just entertained for that, we actually had a foreigner it was so backwards and f***** up that he didn't wear shoes got out of the car without shoes on to open the trunk and then we put one of our things in the trunk and he got freaked out for some reason downtown at night and didn't like us and profiled us even though just 10 to 20 years ago he's the one that would have been profiled anywhere in Boston by the way but that's how power works there's no such thing as a quality all they're going to do is take the discrimination and pass it on to another group it doesn't mean as much to the money people that's all they're doing there is no such thing as a discrimination free society or equality all they're doing is passing the buck to someone else that isn't going to make them as much money and taking discrimination and making it so your prohibited to discriminate against people that they want to start making them money remember this is all about shareholders and money nobody really gives a s*** about anyone's lives mattering it's a game and it always has been a game and these are the games that these assholes play who are in power if you can benefit from it great but I want you to know it's a damn game nobody gives a f*** about your life mattering or not and by the way years from now you're going to be useful to them no longer just like we are now our demographic poor and white and probably houseless at this point in the city and the Northeast anyway and they're going to jump you like a hot potato and turn on you as well because it's a f****** money game since when do they give a s*** about anyone's life. And in this part of the country I'm out people like me are out if I was in the west coast in California that's a different story I'd be considered the artistic class and in places like Oakland where they're trying to gentrify because the people that live there don't really work for the city the way that the people live here in Black areas work to the city and do the buses and the security and everything in the hospitals so they want to get them out of there and so there's a lot of racism in getting people out of Oakland and gentrifying see it doesn't really matter. Nobody cares about you or me or any demographic it's whatever suits them in the environment that they're gentrifying and unfortunately in my home area I am now an undesirable because I'm not going to make anybody money on top of the fact that I'm up against the system in a genuine way not the approved of corporate activism and so getting rid of me is become like number one priority here it seems like. 

So the crazy guy downtown who profiled Us and got scared he actually tried to drive off without possessions in his trunk and I had to chase after him and there was no phone number there was nothing back then and there was no Uber safety or any of this crap now this is before Uber got exposed for all the sexual assaults and all this crap which I don't understand because if any Uber driver tried to sexually assault me it'll be like having Eileen when your nose in your f****** car only one of us is getting out alive and it's not going to be you so it's a good thing that they do the two pot testing for safety or whatever it is because I don't think you guys want dead Uber drivers on your hands which I can't believe women would even put up with that at all. I don't even understand how something like that happens because every woman in this country should be carrying at least a knife and always remember they can take it away from you because they're stronger than you so you got to be quick or mace or pepper spray or something. 

I don't be afraid to pick up a lamp or any object in the room or anything you can find you just shove it right in their eyes you got to be vicious men a vicious why not be vicious in return so I'm very glad that I don't have to murder an Uber driver today I don't think anyone with sexual assault me anyway because I'm too damn big and I don't think that's going to happen in Boston because the women here are feisty as you can tell. But this is the kind of thing I'm talking about with these services they've been getting away with this s*** and now what are they paying the rent on all this crap with the dirty tricks department? Let me tell you what we're going to do if you keep sending my partner and his caregiver that has to ride with him a lot of times if you keep sending us Hot shot young guys that look like drug dealers because nobody can afford that kind of car when they just came to this country can't even speak English and they're 20 years old I'm going to run the plates and I'm going to accuse them of being illegal I'll call ice and I'll f****** report them for suspected drug dealing and I'll be a complete b**** and come up with everything that you can think of and imagine. And don't even try to call this racism because I saw the difference in the service I get and the service that he gets. I've also seen the difference in the service that he's getting my partner which is me of course right messing with me, I see the difference between when it changed from my personal payment the personal payment method would change from my PayPal to his cards and his whatever it is personal payment method in his name for a week or two before the next update we got Asians women white men nice cars clean cars normal people people that conversated they didn't ask strange questions it sounded bizarre like an interrogation they weren't quiet and creepy and I wasn't anxiety with the whole ride they were f****** normal life was f****** normal. Then after the update it went s***** again with every single driver is a foreigner from a s***** place and he's a s***** person and he's either the two demographics I described older selfish dirty car lies about the allergy inducing triggers in his car to get the money and he's a complete a****** with a s***** attitude and he also has to get out of the car to watch us get our stuff in and out of his trunk when there's nothing in his trunk as a form of intimidation which I'm also sick of unless you're going to help me with my s*** out of the trunk don't m************ come back there that pisses me off, or it's the 20-year-old drug dealer hotshot who cannot possibly afford those cars when he just got here can't speak English and he's like 20 years old or 19. There is no possible way that every single ride you get every week is going to be the same exact kind of person with the same exact car of those two descriptions in real life things are more random so this isn't about people from foreign countries and it's not about people being foreign or whatever it is it's the fact that I'm getting aggressive males who are s***** who make me personally feel very uncomfortable the whole f****** ride and every ride I don't know what it is ever since that update now we're getting all these s*** heads consistently I feel like there's something wrong in the car like I'm being watched or targeted or something's wrong with the vehicle I am so anxiety ridden it is the most uncomfortable f****** ride what the hell is wrong with the car? What is it full of cocaine or something and the a****** is on his way to a chop shop to have it f****** removed what are these people running drugs in the cars? If you keep f****** doing this and giving me and all my partner s***** service I'm going to m************ bust your balls.

You're not bus stop whatever little money laundering or drug running or illegals working or whatever game you're playing Herbert's whatever they are driving girls around I will find out what you're up to.

Well I highly suggest that you send normal f****** people who are nice with clean cars that it seems like it's normal life and they're a mix of different people that seems like a normal randomization of diversity. Not having a bunch of drugs we deal is that a 20 years old speed at 80 miles an hour to scare the s*** out of me and intimidate me for people with dirty cars that are old pervert old guys who are s***** foreigners from s***** s*** holes that again seem like they're up to no good and the ride is very uncomfortable. 

That's why they play the game this way so they can say oh she's racist and that's the end of it well it's not that simple sending me two kinds of intimidating males on a consistent basis and even one or two females it seem like there's something really f****** wrong with them it seems like the kind of people I would be in jail with I don't want to deal with that s***, we have gotten the most screwed up people you can imagine and it's consistently assholes a nice car doesn't do anything for me if it's a hot shot kid who's obnoxious who if you ask him to turn the rap music down or turn it off he looks at you like he's packing and he's going to f****** slice your throw to kill you cuz he's a criminal basically is what we're dealing with, by the way another thing when we were using my account every single car had music that was s***** f****** rap and it was nothing but perverted lyrics what the hell is going on with that that's another form of intimidation after we switched to his accounts under his name I noticed that the rap obsession stops so you can see how these are tactics these aren't normal life things this isn't racism this isn't whatever it is this is when I'm using my accounts this is the kind of drivers we get we switch we get a week of normality then somehow the next update must send information to the dirty tricks department of exactly who this is and they go oh now we have to make sure we give them the business which is now we have a s***** new kind of demographic of which there's two of them at least the perverted rap music has stopped.

So I highly suggest that you randomize because there is no f****** way that this is normal that I'm getting just two kinds of people with the occasional female like twice a year. Like when I use my personal account it has my name on it I get normal people nowadays cuz I complained about s***** drivers so much I don't get assholes anymore why doesn't my partner get that kind of service if I have to be with him for his disability I am not going to put up with this crap. Especially the 20-year-old Hot shot who drives a Tesla I'm getting really sick of that s*** I'm getting sick of people driving at 80 miles an hour with stinky s*** in their car or the creepy old guy who obviously has had peanuts or fish in his car and now I have to waste my evening washing up changing my clothes all because somebody's greedy and there's no way to report these f****** assholes.

If you look at the history of these ride services you can see that they've screwed up really bad and they're probably paying off the dirty tricks department and I've posted stories before about these services and how there was some kind of convention in Las Vegas and people experience very strange behavior from their Uber drivers at the convention because the convention had some kind of security clearance involved just some weird thing with computers a technology where it was connected to some kind of security thing and the author of the article that I posted was saying the Uber drivers like a f****** agent and of course it's Vegas so that is going to be a little more security there because of what can happen and the way the place is built and the way it's designed and who runs it and who founded it and all this other stuff I get it and it's a little too close to California I understand the security issues but this is Boston we all know that there's layers and layers of Intel here and if you didn't know that you're a complete moron as well as the old Mafia system is still in place where believe me they know who the f*** is out here at all times but actually to be honest with you route 9 and route 1 I used to feel safe walking and traveling up those roots and I don't feel safe anymore because of the defunding of the police programs and defunding of the police so it makes you wonder who's really behind all this is it some entity that wants to privatize the police some private corporation or something that's driving this the private sector? 

I think they want to get rid of the police because the police are local remember this is all about globalization. The police are from your neighborhood they live where you live they actually provide a local layer of protection and in the past there's been instances where police have called shots on a situation where the feds don't necessarily like it in order to protect someone that's local what to do things their own way well they want to make sure they take that away. I certainly don't feel safe in my home area anymore because I can sense that there's policing that was going on that we didn't see that isn't there anymore you get a creepy vibe when you're in certain places that used to feel safe I felt like I was in Massachusetts which is my home which is fairly safe if you go to areas you know we're safe I don't feel safe anymore. and by the way how insane is it to have a taxi service where they have your personal accounts your destination your place of origin your GPS location the whole ride and they have your name and your picture? Are you understanding how ridiculous this whole entire thing is? It gives the system so much control over your life that it shouldn't even exist actually taxi should have just been knocked down in price I admit that the ride services are much cheaper but there's a bigger price that you pay again no privacy potential abusive power from the system.

Try this one day if you genuinely believe in gang stalking theory all the way down to the use of technologies that are classified and you are a sensitive or mediumistic person and you can just tell different kinds of environments and changing conditions and environments that are subtle compared to others who don't sense anything and you're very observant if you're that kind of person and you feel as if you might be targeted don't take the bus don't take an Uber try taking a taxi one day now I don't know if this is changed ever since 5G and it's now satellite instead of cables on the ground the old internet I don't know if it's changed but years ago if you got in a taxi you could literally outrun the gang stalking system whatever it was you could literally outrun it by getting in an anonymous taxi handing them cash and going somewhere you literally would buy yourself at least an hour to 5 hours worth of peace you had privacy and anonymity try it today and see if it works even a short ride across town I don't know if that still works but it used to and that tells you something right there maybe there's an ulterior motive to ride services maybe it isn't all about convenience and safety maybe it's about control ultimate control and if I don't see some improvement and some real diversity notification and randomization of the kind of people I'm getting rides from being my caretaker having to ride with him there's going to be issues. 

Friday, August 5, 2022

Planet Fitness downtown Boston (corporate 24/7) has assholes working there again on the overnight

 Honestly they usually had people who were polite working overnight. And there's reasons for that. 

(NO EMAILS WILL BE SENT BY ME TO THIS LOCATION OR COMPANY. IF ANY ARE SENT USING MY NAME AND ANY CONTENT FROM THIS BLOG POST a full investigation will follow as well as the max civil suite files for damages against anyone involved and criminal charges as well. this post is for public awareness as well as an act of self defense taken by me before I proceed with going through proper channels to fix the issue. )

Again theres douchey kids working the overnight downtown Boston. Very Light skinned black kid skinny. Rude, intimidating and controlling. Tries to bait and trigger constantly. Odd use of language almost as if obsessed with military culture. Potential violent maybe in future. Mayne ticking time bomb. Vulnerable populations especially females need to protect themselves. Possible domestic abuser. 

If the help at night isn't more respectful and doesnt stop acting like they are officers in a prison or jail to certain people (because THEY are a certain democraphic they think no one will call them on their own shit) then I am not only going to get corporate involved which I am really good at,

I'm going to expose everything I've seen in this place over many years time. I've got photos. And I know exactly why they had to install those video screens to keep an eye on who's going into the ladies locker rooms and I will MeToo the shit out of this company by starting a legal case....and they know why.

Do not fuck with me. I've been going here for years and everyone has always been nice because they are decent or because it's in their best interest.  

The behavior of this new staff is beyond unacceptable and won't be tolerated.