“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” --Maya Angelou

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Being Hit With Nonsense In Breezewood PA in a McDonald's-Place Is Targeted As Hell

Getting this idea, advice almost that if I leave the country like I am planning to do in near future that Hillary Clinton would really get off on that. That the Clintons are very much behind gs campaigns especially becuz Bill Clinton was president when the President's Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments (which included insane, outrageous and totally inhumane MK Ultra mind control experiments but of course the title hides all that).

That she would really get off on that, if I was driven out of the country.
Yet at.times I get these ideations that Bill Clinton wants Survivors to follow through- to beat the system.
As usual I take none of this as truth or fact. But it.is intriguing to.consider.

Why would Hillary want to see someone like me fail?
Well IF lets say these pieces of advice are realistic, then firstly for political reasons obviously. They really screwed up MK Ultra survivors didnt they? Experimentees like my mother were harassed and intimidated into not showing up to testify or be part of class action lawsuit. As if the presiding President of the United States didn't know about these actions taken against survivors and experimentees trying to come forward?

Secondly in the case of my personal downfall, maybe she's a sadistic power loving b*tch who enjoys destroying lives and watching people fail.

Also subconsciously her motive may include the fact I.am a very 'thick', shapely female who's tall and brunette which seems to be the type of female her husband prefers to have affairs with. Unlike Lewinski however, I don't look as fatty which I know pisses off most horribly average American women anyway. My natural European grace makes them hate me. Good
Any bitches who spend their time paying attention to what other women have as opposed to minding the damned store and ensuring males don't destroy the country or the world for that matter (with the assistance of their pathetic house slave females and women who wanna be like the big boys and...ugh:
daddy's girls) deserve to lose and be jealous and pissed off to no end. They deserve punishment for avoiding their true responsibility in society and allowing the world to become such a mess.

They obviously aren't worthy women anyway. They deserve any kind of torment they get.or suffer in their own minds for caretaking males and living under them as opposed to stepping in and meaning it when things get as ridiculous as they have.

F*ck her and any other women who have to hide behind men or work through men. And the USA won't allow anything else anyway.

Another reason I want to leave. Jewish overeducated feminists should be the extent of the female voice of reason in America. I am sick of it.

So what should I do stay and sue the Clintons for ditching during MK Ultra committee in 95, becuz its obvious it shoulder have been military tribunals and international war crimes trials not petty committees on catering tables stuck into one room.

I bet Jay-Z and those bastard celebrities get better more posh treatment when being hosted by the US government and the president.

If I in all reality am too powerless to really do anything.about any of this then why should I stay in the USA?

This is how they make lone nut shooters. I could easily get frustrated after being tormented so much and figure its easier to just kill Hillary Clinton as a last gesture of my ordeal than to stay sensible.

But of course this seems like another Neocon sect trick to rid themselves of yet another political opponent from the opposing party. I also would NEVER harm another female in such a manner.

IHow about I turn a weapon on the current or former CIA head instead? Or Hayden? Or senior Bush...or any Bush for that matter?

Or look up who was in positions of power when.I got targeted in Boston? Police chiefs all of them? Detectives in Brookline etc. How easy would.it be to stay quiet.over the years and stalk and harm.they or their generations of family for decades until I am an old woman and.die?

These always have been options and always will be. However due to the fact I am highly intelligent, creative and was attractive and multitalented, superior through DNA.and programming- I don't take part in petty amusements and power games like mere mortals do. Let the ants and these spiritual peasants live their lives as is fated to them.

I, being above all of this sort of way of behaving, am focused on taking down the biggest prize game in the hunt. I want to tackle the largest world wide threat to humanity since the plague or Christian terrorism in the Middle Ages.

Becuz thatz how truly big I am. That is my right size on this planet. Not this small, nobody person they have made me into.

I'm bigger than all the people who collectively took me down in petty Boston or even the United States nationwide.

Hillary Clinton is...negotiable. Insignificant. Only her actions and her husband's in relation to justice for survivors of MK Ultra and radiation experiments matters.

In fact, the only thing that matters at all is my work.

Everyone else can go to hell. They don't matter.

This is also how they ensure a Target can't get justice in any measure. I can't exactly be angry at or gain justice from an entire community (Boston) or even a nation? So with constant behavior modification its planned for me to.drop it altogether and at some point be at peace with what was done to me and what was taken from me as far as health, looks, future etc and that I will go quietly.

I am going.to get my health checked. And even.if I.am.too sick to travel I am going.to leave the US anyway. And I am GOING to make formal complaint against Bush and the whole thing with countries like Switzerland who seem to know he's guilty of war crimes.

I will NOT be told no or given this life I am left with now as just the way it.is or this is what I have to live with now for the rest of my life.

I am.sick of being given the only option is that I get a job go.to school and move on as if nothing happened or to forget about what happened and accept it as part of my fate.

Somebody with a lot.of power, peoples and resources played fuckin games with me....and continues to do so. I want their asses. And if I can't have them.or even recognition.for.what happened then FUCK THE USA and even Europe if they want to play cute as well.

Being Hit With Nonsense In Breezewood PA in a McDonald's-Place Is Targeted As Hell

Getting this idea, advice almost that if I leave the country like I am planning to do in near future that Hillary Clinton would really get off on that. That the Clintons are very much behind gs campaigns especially becuz Bill Clinton was president when the President's Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments (which included insane, outrageous and totally inhumane MK Ultra mind control experiments but of course the title hides all that).

That she would really get off on that, if I was driven out of the country.
Yet at.times I get these ideations that Bill Clinton wants Survivors to follow through- to beat the system.
As usual I take none of this as truth or fact. But it.is intriguing to.consider.

Why would Hillary want to see someone like me fail?
Well IF lets say these pieces of advice are realistic, then firstly for political reasons obviously. They really screwed up MK Ultra survivors didnt they? Experimentees like my mother were harassed and intimidated into not showing up to testify or be part of class action lawsuit. As if the presiding President of the United States didn't know about these actions taken against survivors and experimentees trying to come forward?

Secondly in the case of my personal downfall, maybe she's a sadistic power loving b*tch who enjoys destroying lives and watching people fail.

Also subconsciously her motive may include the fact I.am a very 'thick', shapely female who's tall and brunette which seems to be the type of female her husband prefers to have affairs with. Unlike Lewinski however, I don't look as fatty which I know pisses off most horribly average American women anyway. My natural European grace makes them hate me. Good
Any bitches who spend their time paying attention to what other women have as opposed to minding the damned store and ensuring males don't destroy the country or the world for that matter (with the assistance of their pathetic house slave females and women who wanna be like the big boys and...ugh:
daddy's girls) deserve to lose and be jealous and pissed off to no end. They deserve punishment for avoiding their true responsibility in society and allowing the world to become such a mess.

They obviously aren't worthy women anyway. They deserve any kind of torment they get.or suffer in their own minds for caretaking males and living under them as opposed to stepping in and meaning it when things get as ridiculous as they have.

F*ck her and any other women who have to hide behind men or work through men. And the USA won't allow anything else anyway.

Another reason I want to leave. Jewish overeducated feminists should be the extent of the female voice of reason in America. I am sick of it.

So what should I do stay and sue the Clintons for ditching during MK Ultra committee in 95, becuz its obvious it shoulder have been military tribunals and international war crimes trials not petty committees on catering tables stuck into one room.

I bet Jay-Z and those bastard celebrities get better more posh treatment when being hosted by the US government and the president.

If I in all reality am too powerless to really do anything.about any of this then why should I stay in the USA?

This is how they make lone nut shooters. I could easily get frustrated after being tormented so much and figure its easier to just kill Hillary Clinton as a last gesture of my ordeal than to stay sensible.

But of course this seems like another Neocon sect trick to rid themselves of yet another political opponent from the opposing party. I also would NEVER harm another female in such a manner.

IHow about I turn a weapon on the current or former CIA head instead? Or Hayden? Or senior Bush...or any Bush for that matter?

Or look up who was in positions of power when.I got targeted in Boston? Police chiefs all of them? Detectives in Brookline etc. How easy would.it be to stay quiet.over the years and stalk and harm.they or their generations of family for decades until I am an old woman and.die?

These always have been options and always will be. However due to the fact I am highly intelligent, creative and was attractive and multitalented, superior through DNA.and programming- I don't take part in petty amusements and power games like mere mortals do. Let the ants and these spiritual peasants live their lives as is fated to them.

I, being above all of this sort of way of behaving, am focused on taking down the biggest prize game in the hunt. I want to tackle the largest world wide threat to humanity since the plague or Christian terrorism in the Middle Ages.

Becuz thatz how truly big I am. That is my right size on this planet. Not this small, nobody person they have made me into.

I'm bigger than all the people who collectively took me down in petty Boston or even the United States nationwide.

Hillary Clinton is...negotiable. Insignificant. Only her actions and her husband's in relation to justice for survivors of MK Ultra and radiation experiments matters.

In fact, the only thing that matters at all is my work.

Everyone else can go to hell. They don't matter.

This is also how they ensure a Target can't get justice in any measure. I can't exactly be angry at or gain justice from an entire community (Boston) or even a nation? So with constant behavior modification its planned for me to.drop it altogether and at some point be at peace with what was done to me and what was taken from me as far as health, looks, future etc and that I will go quietly.

I am going.to get my health checked. And even.if I.am.too sick to travel I am going.to leave the US anyway. And I am GOING to make formal complaint against Bush and the whole thing with countries like Switzerland who seem to know he's guilty of war crimes.

I will NOT be told no or given this life I am left with now as just the way it.is or this is what I have to live with now for the rest of my life.

I am.sick of being given the only option is that I get a job go.to school and move on as if nothing happened or to forget about what happened and accept it as part of my fate.

Somebody with a lot.of power, peoples and resources played fuckin games with me....and continues to do so. I want their asses. And if I can't have them.or even recognition.for.what happened then FUCK THE USA and even Europe if they want to play cute as well.

Being Hit With Nonsense In Breezewood PA in a McDonald's-Place Is Targeted As Hell

Getting this idea, advice almost that if I leave the country like I am planning to do in near future that Hillary Clinton would really get off on that. That the Clintons are very much behind gs campaigns especially becuz Bill Clinton was president when the President's Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments (which included insane, outrageous and totally inhumane MK Ultra mind control experiments but of course the title hides all that).

That she would really get off on that, if I was driven out of the country.
Yet at.times I get these ideations that Bill Clinton wants Survivors to follow through- to beat the system.
As usual I take none of this as truth or fact. But it.is intriguing to.consider.

Why would Hillary want to see someone like me fail?
Well IF lets say these pieces of advice are realistic, then firstly for political reasons obviously. They really screwed up MK Ultra survivors didnt they? Experimentees like my mother were harassed and intimidated into not showing up to testify or be part of class action lawsuit. As if the presiding President of the United States didn't know about these actions taken against survivors and experimentees trying to come forward?

Secondly in the case of my personal downfall, maybe she's a sadistic power loving b*tch who enjoys destroying lives and watching people fail.

Also subconsciously her motive may include the fact I.am a very 'thick', shapely female who's tall and brunette which seems to be the type of female her husband prefers to have affairs with. Unlike Lewinski however, I don't look as fatty which I know pisses off most horribly average American women anyway. My natural European grace makes them hate me. Good
Any bitches who spend their time paying attention to what other women have as opposed to minding the damned store and ensuring males don't destroy the country or the world for that matter (with the assistance of their pathetic house slave females and women who wanna be like the big boys and...ugh:
daddy's girls) deserve to lose and be jealous and pissed off to no end. They deserve punishment for avoiding their true responsibility in society and allowing the world to become such a mess.

They obviously aren't worthy women anyway. They deserve any kind of torment they get.or suffer in their own minds for caretaking males and living under them as opposed to stepping in and meaning it when things get as ridiculous as they have.

F*ck her and any other women who have to hide behind men or work through men. And the USA won't allow anything else anyway.

Another reason I want to leave. Jewish overeducated feminists should be the extent of the female voice of reason in America. I am sick of it.

So what should I do stay and sue the Clintons for ditching during MK Ultra committee in 95, becuz its obvious it shoulder have been military tribunals and international war crimes trials not petty committees on catering tables stuck into one room.

I bet Jay-Z and those bastard celebrities get better more posh treatment when being hosted by the US government and the president.

If I in all reality am too powerless to really do anything.about any of this then why should I stay in the USA?

This is how they make lone nut shooters. I could easily get frustrated after being tormented so much and figure its easier to just kill Hillary Clinton as a last gesture of my ordeal than to stay sensible.

But of course this seems like another Neocon sect trick to rid themselves of yet another political opponent from the opposing party. I also would NEVER harm another female in such a manner.

IHow about I turn a weapon on the current or former CIA head instead? Or Hayden? Or senior Bush...or any Bush for that matter?

Or look up who was in positions of power when.I got targeted in Boston? Police chiefs all of them? Detectives in Brookline etc. How easy would.it be to stay quiet.over the years and stalk and harm.they or their generations of family for decades until I am an old woman and.die?

These always have been options and always will be. However due to the fact I am highly intelligent, creative and was attractive and multitalented, superior through DNA.and programming- I don't take part in petty amusements and power games like mere mortals do. Let the ants and these spiritual peasants live their lives as is fated to them.

I, being above all of this sort of way of behaving, am focused on taking down the biggest prize game in the hunt. I want to tackle the largest world wide threat to humanity since the plague or Christian terrorism in the Middle Ages.

Becuz thatz how truly big I am. That is my right size on this planet. Not this small, nobody person they have made me into.

I'm bigger than all the people who collectively took me down in petty Boston or even the United States nationwide.

Hillary Clinton is...negotiable. Insignificant. Only her actions and her husband's in relation to justice for survivors of MK Ultra and radiation experiments matters.

In fact, the only thing that matters at all is my work.

Everyone else can go to hell. They don't matter.

This is also how they ensure a Target can't get justice in any measure. I can't exactly be angry at or gain justice from an entire community (Boston) or even a nation? So with constant behavior modification its planned for me to.drop it altogether and at some point be at peace with what was done to me and what was taken from me as far as health, looks, future etc and that I will go quietly.

I am going.to get my health checked. And even.if I.am.too sick to travel I am going.to leave the US anyway. And I am GOING to make formal complaint against Bush and the whole thing with countries like Switzerland who seem to know he's guilty of war crimes.

I will NOT be told no or given this life I am left with now as just the way it.is or this is what I have to live with now for the rest of my life.

I am.sick of being given the only option is that I get a job go.to school and move on as if nothing happened or to forget about what happened and accept it as part of my fate.

Somebody with a lot.of power, peoples and resources played fuckin games with me....and continues to do so. I want their asses. And if I can't have them.or even recognition.for.what happened then FUCK THE USA and even Europe if they want to play cute as well.

Being Hit With Ni

Getting this idea, advice almost that if I leave the country like I am planning to do in near future that Hillary Clinton would really get off on that. That the Clintons are very much behind gs campaigns especially becuz Bill Clinton was president when the President's Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments (which included insane, outrageous and totally inhumane MK Ultra mind control experiments but of course the title hides all that).

That she would really get off on that, if I was driven out of the country.
Yet at.times I get these ideations that Bill Clinton wants Survivors to follow through- to beat the system.
As usual I take none of this as truth or fact. But it.is intriguing to.consider.

Why would Hillary want to see someone like me fail?
Well IF lets say these pieces of advice are realistic, then firstly for political reasons obviously. They really screwed up MK Ultra survivors didnt they? Experimentees like my mother were harassed and intimidated into not showing up to testify or be part of class action lawsuit. As if the presiding President of the United States didn't know about these actions taken against survivors and experimentees trying to come forward?

Secondly in the case of my personal downfall, maybe she's a sadistic power loving b*tch who enjoys destroying lives and watching people fail.

Also subconsciously her motive may include the fact I.am a very 'thick', shapely female who's tall and brunette which seems to be the type of female her husband prefers to have affairs with. Unlike Lewinski however, I don't look as fatty which I know pisses off most horribly average American women anyway. My natural European grace makes them hate me. Good
Any bitches who spend their time paying attention to what other women have as opposed to minding the damned store and ensuring males don't destroy the country or the world for that matter (with the assistance of their pathetic house slave females and women who wanna be like the big boys and...ugh:
daddy's girls) deserve to lose and be jealous and pissed off to no end. They deserve punishment for avoiding their true responsibility in society and allowing the world to become such a mess.

They obviously aren't worthy women anyway. They deserve any kind of torment they get.or suffer in their own minds for caretaking males and living under them as opposed to stepping in and meaning it when things get as ridiculous as they have.

F*ck her and any other women who have to hide behind men or work through men. And the USA won't allow anything else anyway.

Another reason I want to leave. Jewish overeducated feminists should be the extent of the female voice of reason in America. I am sick of it.

So what should I do stay and sue the Clintons for ditching during MK Ultra committee in 95, becuz its obvious it shoulder have been military tribunals and international war crimes trials not petty committees on catering tables stuck into one room.

I bet Jay-Z and those bastard celebrities get better more posh treatment when being hosted by the US government and the president.

If I in all reality am too powerless to really do anything.about any of this then why should I stay in the USA?

This is how they make lone nut shooters. I could easily get frustrated after being tormented so much and figure its easier to just kill Hillary Clinton as a last gesture of my ordeal than to stay sensible.

But of course this seems like another Neocon sect trick to rid themselves of yet another political opponent from the opposing party. I also would NEVER harm another female in such a manner.

IHow about I turn a weapon on the current or former CIA head instead? Or Hayden? Or senior Bush...or any Bush for that matter?

Or look up who was in positions of power when.I got targeted in Boston? Police chiefs all of them? Detectives in Brookline etc. How easy would.it be to stay quiet.over the years and stalk and harm.they or their generations of family for decades until I am an old woman and.die?

These always have been options and always will be. However due to the fact I am highly intelligent, creative and was attractive and multitalented, superior through DNA.and programming- I don't take part in petty amusements and power games like mere mortals do. Let the ants and these spiritual peasants live their lives as is fated to them.

I, being above all of this sort of way of behaving, am focused on taking down the biggest prize game in the hunt. I want to tackle the largest world wide threat to humanity since the plague or Christian terrorism in the Middle Ages.

Becuz thatz how truly big I am. That is my right size on this planet. Not this small, nobody person they have made me into.

I'm bigger than all the people who collectively took me down in petty Boston or even the United States nationwide.

Hillary Clinton is...negotiable. Insignificant. Only her actions and her husband's in relation to justice for survivors of MK Ultra and radiation experiments matters.

In fact, the only thing that matters at all is my work.

Everyone else can go to hell. They don't matter.

This is also how they ensure a Target can't get justice in any measure. I can't exactly be angry at or gain justice from an entire community (Boston) or even a nation? So with constant behavior modification its planned for me to.drop it altogether and at some point be at peace with what was done to me and what was taken from me as far as health, looks, future etc and that I will go quietly.

I am going.to get my health checked. And even.if I.am.too sick to travel I am going.to leave the US anyway. And I am GOING to make formal complaint against Bush and the whole thing with countries like Switzerland who seem to know he's guilty of war crimes.

I will NOT be told no or given this life I am left with now as just the way it.is or this is what I have to live with now for the rest of my life.

I am.sick of being given the only option is that I get a job go.to school and move on as if nothing happened or to forget about what happened and accept it as part of my fate.

Somebody with a lot.of power, peoples and resources played fuckin games with me....and continues to do so. I want their asses. And if I can't have them.or even recognition.for.what happened then FUCK THE USA and even Europe if they want to play cute as well.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Its The Switch That Digs The Ditch

How bad is that title? Sorry I cpuldnt resist.

Those three boring.negative energy suckers left, saying goodnight to the.room as if anyone gave a shit.

All the.civil normal people remain and The Fast And The Furious just came on. Energy is normal again in room. Pretty good movie. Got Michelle Rodruquiez who I love.
Van Diesal is tolerable. He.doesn't try like Stallone to demand respect he doesn't deserve. Van Diesel just acts.his part and allows me to watch a movie- a story being told. Its not a vehicle just to watch him.

Its the greatest thing in the world when perps leave a room and.allow the humans to exist without their presence sucking so much energy out.of the room that they warp the very dimension we all coexist in.

Its a horrible thing to experience, psychological warfare based on feel intel fellow human beings should not know about each other.

It really shatters normal healthy reality. It creates this warped version of time and space one exists in.

Over time.having to switch ffrom being perped back tto normal life without being able to tell anybody about the abuse as well as having.to stay in control all the time is what destroys TIs.

The Goof Seems Very Self Satisfied

The goof just looked back at me from his chair hes hanging out of practically. I saw him in my paripheral vision but I pretended not to see.

He thinks I am sooo wounded obviously.
But I just let an undertermined number of humane beings world wide know what is going on here...and ANYONE could read what I just wrote and show up here. Whether for good or ill.

The point.is to use.this bloc to take control away from the gang stalkers. It ensures I am not isolated as well as screws up whatever control they have over the situation by allowing the public to be aware of a theatre in progress.

It would be great if TIs had flash mobs to respond to groups of perps ganging up on us, isolating us them baiting us.

Revenge finally.

The Goof Mispronouces Israeli Intelligence Title....To My Delight

LOL.

He just pronounced Mossád as Mozzaad.

So much for heavy involvement in worldly affairs. They are all in love with the Spaniard actress on NCSI who plays an Israeli who's father heads Mozzâd....I mean Mossad.

Yeah they could just be rude hicks but the harassment has been so subtle yet consistent and aware in Illinois that I doubt if this isn't a set up.

Everywhere I've gone today in south eastern Illinois people who appear civilian seem to have been aware.of who I am and my being targeted. The clerk in the gas station in last town I was in is perfect example.

Being Gang Stalked In Morris Illinois

I am in a truck stop. There are some extremely rude people in here watching CSI. They are one assumes truck drivers. However much of their conversation consists of discussing their past experience in the US military. One older man, a goofy guy with glasses made a point to brag about being "a military policeman at a nuclear...facility".

Before that he commented about a truck stop on tv that there's going to always be someone "begging a ride" and I am in here with my backpack. I have.do what I always do, bother no one and be quiet in the dark tv room.

Its very unusual to have very rude people like this at a truck stop who gang up on a hitchhiker. Truckers mind their own business.

THESE ARE PERPS or some citizens.who are aware of my identity and think they know whats going on.

I was driven here by a couple in a car from the last truck stop so it could be a set up from arrival.

There is a couple sitting near the goof with the glasses. Cowboy hat and boots. Aging blonde with him. I felt they were both focusing on me down in the store area like making sure I knew they were making fun of me.
I ignored this. However as the goof made fun of hitchers as I just mentioned, I distinclty heard her cattily talking to her uptight cowboy hatted boyfriend about a girl looking for a ride with "a bad haircut".

In the beginning they were watching and the cowboy commented of NCIS agents "they're all good".

This is a set up as far as I can tell. Perps are usually goofs and losers who seek power by gang stalking victims and frequently are obsessed with mililitary or law enforcement or make claims to having prior experience in military/ law enforcement or intelligence.
None of.this can be proven.

For all I know in this situation the guy is just a pedophile and is being a perp and pretending to have military experience in order to serve the system so he can avoid exposure etc.

Maybe they're getting paid the lot of them.

IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT THEIR MOTIVES ARE.

This situation is highly unusual. Usually ONE TRUCKER is an asshole but not a couple and a goofy old guy. As well as the whole room acting like its a party or a movie theatre.

Wait!! I remember an older guy was looking at me downstairs and as I started to apporiach the stairs to go to the truckers lounge he moved ahead of me. Like 'places everyone'. Yeah it wasn't normal.

And this young.kid was waking by me downstairs snapping his fingers.

Yeah its a set.up meant to get me pissed off and act out OR to further keep me depressed and brainwashed by feeling persecuted by The Public and legit authority figures.

GOTCHA! This time anyway.

Love's in Morris Illinois.

Rochelle Illinois

The truck stops in Rochelle Ill are totally fine at night. The cops and plain clothes security are understanding.

An old blonde bitch at the Petro told me no.hitchhikers (yes yet another aging jealous bitch) and the local and state.cops are all over the place daytime ready to tell u not to fly a sign.

The state cops just stopped at a store ans didn't go in just kind of waited expecting I would go to the Pilot.
They left just now.

This town.is fine by night everyone is an adult but by day they are typical Midwestern uptight morons.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Just Went Through St Louis

Just went through St Louis. Thought about how much of my life was destroyed there. The intensity of the torture.

It broke the current stage of brainwashing, my state of mind recently.

I realize.I.can.never be free until I.disclose what happened. It doesn't matter who believes me.
—------------—---
I looked.for the land protest sign near Soulard one can see from the highway. Didn't catch it.

The ghosts in the.light fog are there however. Dwelling.among those old moist and green trees.
The dead slaves who used to comfort me.

East St Louis seems a bit more peaceful nowadays.

I can hardly comprehend that I actually saw the system that exists on this earth that causes violence, death, murder and havoc.
I'll never allow any amount of brain damage, weakeness or repeated intimidation to make me forget those years.

The Perfect Landlocked Hell Hole To Cover For Crimes

The purpose of all of this is for me to eventually realize that this corrupt power structure runs the country, even the world and I personally have no power. Eventually they want me to accept that.

If I am harassed enough into confessing and tell evsrything I know and STILL there is no results or justice for me and I am ignored, they expect me to be crushed and lay down and die. To finally 'accept my situation'.

I'll just leave the US and find somewhere that either doesn't follow the agenda or at least get harassed by a better class of people.

I just went back in there to use the bathroom before we drove out. Two fat pig nosed birches were behind the counter looking in some boring catalogue...one gave me a bit of a look as I walked past. The other one.didn't dare.

I guess if I looked like that I'd be dying to find something to be part of to make myself feel better.

This is a large part of the problem with the USA.
These horrid places should be their own damned countries, then these types could run their place however they wanted to.

All of these stalking and harassment episodes are usually under the guise of something else. Taking whatever dirt on the TI they can market to the public.

However usually its the people who are doing GS who are at risk for being exposed for crimes: child molestation, kiddie porn rings, drug running, rape rings or groups, whatever it is.

For instance that sober house in San Antonio was full of Christian women. Most of them were leaning towards being lesbians but couldn't admit it due to that culture.
Also the guy running the place on paper had slums and was putting young girls up in his properties so he.could have sex with them. The women there would make Jones about it but mostly speak of it in frustration. I wondered why they let a male of the species get to them or have any control over their lives at all. Foolishly many of them went to him for assistance or depended on him for house cleaning jobs etc (where of course he overworked them.for minimal pay).

This is another major reason I am targeted. I have seen the powerful men this society fears and worships in vulnerable moments.
This society post Bush and especially the extremist sexist factions believe that depending on male power makes this country strong- especially in the face of terrorists who are so horribly sexist.

(Its either the veil and male domination or heels and a.skirt and plastic surgery and u r all washed-out at 40 male domination. These jerks behind this aren't fooling anyone who recognizes that America's sexism is simply different. But its just the same. BOTH demand slavery to their ideals. Neither allows for true female prowess and warriorhood to even exist. Well at least ancient Iraq had fearsome female Generals. Abrahamic religions destroy these historical images and ideals. BOTH enslave females. All three I should say.)

Trying to break women who won't go.along with the agenda now is very prevalent. And The Proles in places like this are the perfect type of loser to help the oppressors accomish that: jealous enough to want to help destroy the female Target and stupid enough to believe whatever they are told.

out of texas

Texas was rough. Too.hot.depressing and.very mind.controlled. Sand Antonio was all stalking and harassment.and.Austin is.heavy tech or chem trails..

All I.know.is.it.was insanely to go there.


Have no idea what.I was thinking. I guess I.had to try it. To go into the dragons den. Yet tx isn't as bad.as.the northeast. America in general is totally covered in every area with cell reception..  its a horrible life. I hate.it..


I don't know why I.am being.forced to live through this....it isn't living. Its.just suffering. Especially when.u know the truth about whats going on


Priorities Forcibly Changed

What's become of me?


Years ago all I cared about was writing my story. Now I've become concerned about my future. My destroyed looks and vanishing youth. My health getting worse.


Focusing on people hating or rejecting me. Focused on what they think.


I was always prepared to die.for this cause.


This is due to brainwashing over long-term gang stalking campaign. The system is working very hard on getting me to focus on some kind of future. Instead of rectifying the past which is what I am supposed to be doing.


For me to get sick and die was always a potential ending within this. I never blinked a programmed eye before over the possibility.


Its the system's latest method of yet again stalling my getting the truth out. They DESPERATELY want Rommey in office.


I used to be a hell of an activist but now I am being forced to focus on vanity and personal loss or accomplishment.


This is worse by far than any prior torture I've experienced. Becuz they know I've been seriously robbed of all my best potential. Youth and beauty. So getting me concerned about something that I can't ace or don't have a lot of wealth remaining in is a.way of making me like average people.  I'm supposed to be like everyone else. Nervous unsure and without anything that sets me above the herd.


Go f*ck yourselves. My last chance at success via my superior assets was destrroyed long ago. I refuse to give in to yet another attempt to socialize me into society-a society I never should have had to be exposed to or deal with. I was gifted and had led alternative lifestyles. I was going to have a happy future being a councelor and an artist on the side.


There was no reason why I was driven nuts then.focused on instead of the real criminals including my own mother.


I am sick of being pushed to think about success. All it.is is another way to make me feel nervous and insecure.


All I want go do is rat out everyone who destroyed my life and tell what happened year by year. To leave a record of.these war crimes for the public as well as for other TIs.


My work will be discredited and stolen by industry types anyways becuz that's the way America operates. So why should I care about success?


Its just another way.to get me herded. To make me give a shit.


And its not going to work.


They know I am weakening and my failing health makes me more vulnerable to people making fun of me.


I need to.keep.focused on my original goal. For me.to lose focus on that this system must be very powerful now. The tech is just ridiculous now.


I never cared about what people said. I knew that the public would be convinced that I am just mentally ill and that as the campaign slowly destroys me they would be told I am simply getting sicker and sicker.


Its not my job to care what the public thinks or be hurt by the enormity of human cruelty towards me. Its MY JOB to deliver this information and not pay any mind to what other humans think or feel.


I must stay true to that. But the system has become very powerful and I am considerably weakened.


My only job now should be to get some version of.the info out before my internal bleeding in my intestines issue lands me on an operating table where I think we all know I won't wake up from. Or if I do I will be so weakened or damaged or something done to me while under that I won't be able to finish my project.


That and ensuring when I do.die that murderous, conniving BITCH my mother doesn't control the manner of my body disposal. She always got off on intimating I would die before her and she would bury me against my wishes, just so she could have a place to.visit me after death. Believe me that woman is a dangerous child abuser and a murderer.


If I really was as horrible and criminal as I've been made out.to be I would have had the sense by now.to get rid of her before she can get rid of me or.control me any longer. Shes very lucky that I actually understand her family and this system.have made her the monster she is and its not her fault.


Extremely lucky. A few people invlvrd genuinely deserve to die. I simply don't feel its just however becuz this system is so powerful that lesser people can't fight as hard as I can.  So tuck them then.


Id rather be free than living serving this system. Let those.idiots think they aced or won.


Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Leaving US Only Option Now

The guy Im getting a.ride.from.is.a.piece of.shit.

He keeps learing at my body all the time as.if.this.is what i.owe him.for.the ride. I can get truck rides way better than this. He alsl drives tired which is messed up. Hes a slob too. Hes old so and wants attention from a female but I wont do anythjng with him. why should i? i can get much safer more pleasant rides than this from truckers who dont want anything from me and dont make me feel uncomfortable.

It just makes me realize why i have to leave the country before the next election.
Im sick of the culture here. Sick of the fat people sick of the men tired men thinking

they can get.something off me easily just becuz of the way I am built. Sick of the blacks in any city north of Texas or the south. Tired of the Mexicans who seem to be in on GS in very high numbers or at least know about it.
This country is a shithole, culturally and spiritually. I know the NWO is world wide and I will never find a place that will let me be but you never know.

Charles Schlund said the tech is less intense outside the US.

Its so bad now that I cant think straight long enough to get medical care. I keep getting harassed to go home to my family and attend UMass and move on, accept my situation and forget about what happened.

Yet when I try to put forth my Will to get a.lawyer even thinking of it I immediately become weakened and the thought ends up leaving my mind.

I was in Laredo this morning. As usual down near the border I felt calm and happy. Coming up into Texas northbound I once again have become focused on sex mentally by feeling a low level of constant arousal as well as I percieve myself as disgusting due to being overweight and I generally feel bad about myself, of course this driver isnt helping.

He thinks if he lears enough and continues to buy me food and put out this controlling vibe he can finally get what he wants.

If I cant get medical care or seek.legal.council to see if I can sue for any part of what happened throughout this campaign then why would I stay in America.

All I will look forward to is a life of becoming obese like my mother and sickly.

Whoever is behind this in America has made it clear that they hate me and the amount of.citizens involved makes me realize that Americans generally dislike me and I will never get respect nor will the cause of TIs everywhere be taken seriously.

People keep telling me all the USA cares about is the "bottom line". Even phrasing it.this.way seems to validate the corporate culture who doesn't value human.life and who are not accountable.
War crimes are described as ' the bottom line'?

No one here can hold Bush and co. accountable for what theyve done...yet he isnt allowed in Switzerland due to warcrimes.

That means that outside the US I.may have legal footing.

As long as I stay in the United States I have nothing to.look forward to but homelessness, failing health and comtinued efforts to ensure I cannot write my book.
Theres nothing for me here. The Native population are the only thing worth staying for...and Im not Native.

It looks like I will never be allowed to seek legal justice here in the US.

Many people just want to keep me down, treat me like a joke or a sex worker, as if.thats all this is about. No one in the US wants to deal with the.issue of war crimes. And its.obvious.that anyone.associated with MK Ultra has been.smoked out during the Pres Advisory Committee On Human Radiation Experimentees then.after being.intimidated into silence, targeted for life.

I refuse to keep stsying somewhere that my assets as a person are being destroyed to.make me 'average' and.appear normal.then to force me.to attend UMass. All in order to.cover.up for programming and.other horrors connected to MK Ultra.

I keep being.held.down to the point where I become.vulnerable.then I being desperate for human companionship fall easily into the clutches of handlers.
These people ALWAYS have either statutory rape.charges they explain away as something else or. turn.out to.just.want to have.sex.with me.

It alwahs seems to.be to control me or as if its a performance.

I.am being continued to be reconditioned.to go.back.to adult entertainment.
I can tell thats what they are doing. They figure.if I am beat down enough kept down and.continually handled.by.people.who bring me.back.to a state of being used only for sex.it will destroy any.and all progress I.have.made or.any growth.as a.human being. They also seek.to.get an opposite reaction possibly where I get tired of being treated this way and become a.Christian and.forget about what happened.and.simply.attemd.college and go on quietly with some sort of.life.

I have been.told by handlers that I am going.to have to start all over agsin. The last guy i travelled with, a handler, said that the government was.trying.to provide some.kind of.normal life for Survivors...which of.course is more bullshit.

Its.amazing the amount.of people in on this who are.child molesters.or rapists or Johns. Its astounding.

None.of.these people, male or female, wants the truth told of.how adult entertainment is.run or how America works.

Leaving is the only option. I cant get medical care or legal council. I cant survive like that.

If Obama wins we.get more of the same. If Romney wins its.going to become like under Bush again. He already won Illinois.
The situation is hopeless here in the US. Why not leave and see if at least life is more enjoyable.and.being targeted is easier.

(new phone same model but.dicferent keyboard. horrible isnt.it?)

Monday, March 19, 2012

Great now I might be being stalked by a guy who claims to be an Iraq vet. This place os getting too complicated
Listening to "Shipping Up To Boston". I think that one day this will all end like bad dream and I will wake up and it will be normal again, like it was. That I will be able to go 'home' without incident and everything will be as it was before 2003.

I have to realize that nothing will ever be the same. That Boston and the entire northeast can never be as it once was.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

The Last Post? Its An Everyday Occurence

And this goes on every single day. Its only becuz its a Sunday that I am clear minded enough to notice it as something that shouldn't be a part of my reality or my experience of reality, especially when it happens only specifically in a certain building or location.

I won't even be able to distinguish this experience or experiences from whats normal and whats not (or shouldn't be) by tomorrow and the rest of the week certainly.

Anyone who thinks simply that I should just stay out of places like this, then where exactly am I supposed to go??

I can't live on the side of a mountain in some place with no cell reception or in a train tunnel underground or two levels down in a hospital building now can I?

And remember the GS rule of thumb: Where There's Heavy Tech, There's Not Alot Of Human Forces (GangStalkers). Wherever There Are Alot Of Human Forces Used To Control A Target, There Will Be Minimal Tech.

So, I should then go to a location outside of a major city where the perps will start pissing me off and stressing me out further?

This system is now omnipresent. Only special places in the US are free of remote influence totally. Usually places that are impractical to reside in for shelter and food.

It was obviously all planned out this way years ago and now you either live in The Prison willingly, are oblivious to its true nature or as TIs do- live marginalized from population.

Thats pretty much it.

Fast Food Restaurants And Many Corporate Chains Seem To Harbor GS Tech, Mostly For Behavior Modification

In Jack In The Box here in Austin near the park I always get the Truman Show effect. I sense I am being watched constantly and not only monitored but interfaced with. Usually it all focuses on behavior modification and shaping or molding my mind and personality.

This evening however the content has consisted of feeling like a bunch of different people ars watching, the typical Truman Show effect where one gets the idea from interface that one is on a sort of reality show. The focus is still on behaviour modification as well as neutralizing the Target.

Whoever is behind this still insists on convincing the Target that all of this.is for the creations of a better world.

And when all else fails, sexual arousal is used to block any and all independent thought.

Treated just like monkeys in a lab.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Stalked By Black Males Since SxSW Came To Austin

There seems to be a very creepy group of African American stalkers that are present due to SxSW. I had. alot of weird shit happen tonight and if it werent for a person I know walking with me after randomly showing.up in my path it would have gotten worse.

Houston is nearby and remember that all the black criminals from Louisiana have gone to f*ck up Houston now. What they are doing is very southern Very 'spook' like.

Ive been being messed with off and on by blacks since South By Southwest arrived and they always stare at me and do obvious shit in public.

On guy tonight wearing a "No Fat Chicken" t shirt with a bullhorn looked long and hard at me in front of a hotel i was using the bathroom way down on congress and riverside.

Now he shows up on this side of town just now. he was just standing there in the lot of this fast food restarount staring at me as i passed. i got sick of this black bullshit so i went back to photograph him and he was gone. gee, gone just like that huh?

I posted a thread today i found on the internet on my social network where black men were claiming they were hunting white women to impregnate them and take over the world.
it was of course a goof in part on those arrogant stupid kinds of males. But it was also to show the frustration we poor whites have to deal with.

The GS system.is of course hooked up by intelligence.
They see that post and think it would be great to use black males as obviously it pisses me off.

And to make me start going off.even morsel about a conspiracy as such.

Sorry morons- I am not Gibson.

I know who's behind this ans its money grubbing scum in the military industrial complex who make money off of mass human deaths. So to them whats a single woman's death? They already are basically practicing a death cult mentality anyway.

DARPA, GE, Raytheon, Cisco- the whole disgusting overpaid lot of them. Thieves.

And they think its ok to use psy ops and thier toys go silence people.

Fuck you...and your house slaves.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Austin-Rough Town For This TI

Austin is a rough town. Not becuz its crime ridden or its gangsta but becuz it seems extremely judgemental. Its supposed to be.liberal and one senses that but theres something to Texas thats very draining on me. It might be the tech or whatever it is here thats so heavy handed but one does get the impression that conformity matters. There is a lack of personal power here. A strong sense of disapproval. Its like they try real hard to politely be liberal but they arent truly comfortable with it, like Berkeley or Cambridge or NYC. Its not a place one feels a comfortable sense of isolation from other people so one can just be oneself.

Only after two weeks here I am haggard and completely drained. I can't even think about working on my project becuz I am too preoccupied with social anxiety as well as being constantly hit with obsessions about what people will think kf me if I do this or that.

And there is a constant directive in TX to settle down. Get a place get a job. Which I was going to gladly do except I started to just lose it.

I absolutely cannot function here. Its very sad I really liked this place. I thought K could be happy here.

It really does feel like something environmental is affecting me not just the tech.

It seems as of now being on the road, like literally on highways outside of settled areas is the only safe place left in the USA. That and wherever there isnt cell receiption.

White Civil Rights: A Great Idea, Another FAIL Pt 2

I was also fortunate enough in MA to always somehow end up being around someone part Native. When that was not the case my life was unbalanced, chaotic etc unless I found other people of close European ancestry to cohabitate with.

Many people are sensitive to the people around them and others are not. This should also be respected. Forcing a cookie cutter mentality concerning human relations onto everyone in a population is extremely unfair and potentially very distructive.

In my life Ive been exposed to many ethnic groups early on.
To be quite honest when I arrived from the foster home at the age of six to live with my mother and I first attended a mostly all black elementary school, I was sick for a week or so from the smell of African Americans. Back then they used this grease in thier hair they carried in tin foil and that might have also been a cause as well.

This by my recollection was TOTALLY NORMAL. A natural human reaction. Yet as I lived among 'blacks' I became used to them and their ways. I even adopted many of their energies if you will. To again be honest, this energy I experienced, this part of me is one of the things thats made it so hard for this system to destroy me. I have relied on this at times when most likely my European DNA alone couldn't have supported me.

Blacks have much to teach Whites. We've been beaten down so severely by the Dark Ages, the burning times, the Black Death. Whites harbor much fear and death. A fear of our Pagan past. Well except Italians who experience our pagan past as the Roman empire.

However blacks or any other race should not DESTROY European descendants or dominate us or rule over us especially simply to satisfy the agenda of a class war.

Poor Whites need empowerment and to be associated with their past both modern and ancient. Not to be subjegated and beaten down as the sacrificial lambs of the real oppressors.

Its curious as to why something along these lines is never found. Its always negative and focused on politics which have little to do with ongoing racial tensions where we live.

If people want to combat being manipulated and used for political agendas then they must know who they are. Not accept perceptions of identity from outside sources with questionable agendas.

And birching about Jews is about as productive as banging one's head against a wall. They've been around a long time and they have their little ways of doing things-yes sometimes annoying. But they aren't going away anytime soon nor going to change their methods. So just be realistic and focus on strengthening your own peoples and communities.

Then you've got no one to blame but yourselves.

If its true that Rothschild funded Hitler etc then we've got more of a class problem than a strictly ethnic one.
Personally I am sick of conspiracy theories and theories, like tunnels that go nowhere.

Defend yourself and know who you are, focus on what you do know is real, then no one can fool you.

Its been proven that even though we are animals we can create civilizations and con exist like HUMAN BEINGS.
First one has to accept the animal realities then maybe being human is possible.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

White Civil Rights: A Great Idea, Another FAIL

http://www.whitecivilrights.com/

The title is great but again it focuses on politics not really empowering poor whites or folk. It also concerns itself with Israel far too much for the purpose of white empowerment.
Part of being totally honest and facing racial realities is eventually going to have to include 'Jews' admitting that Creationism is their own personal fairy tale, which they are entitled to, but they much DNA from various Eastern, Western and Northern European countries.

Part of my ideas for White Empowerment is to stop this idea that any one race is superior. Its obvious that every culture thats developed in each area of this earth has their own special qualities and talents. We've now gone from Whites being percieved as the pinnacle of civilization to only Whites of a certain class being respected, more likely respected out of fear and other races being touted as desirable and superior over say, poor Whites or middle to upper middle class Whites.

Each of these arrangements of racial superiority are ridiculous and completely unfair.
I notice that our society merely rearranges who is on top according to race and class with each new era but never seeks to truly get rid of racial injustice or ignorance. Just becuz certain factions are constantly whining to get rid of racism doesnt mean they are doing so. All they are doing is disregarding the scientific realities of 'race' and also ignoring Nature's beauty by differing designs. They also basically want to see poor Whites disregarded and certain classes but never piss off the rich.

Hopefully society will see that denying what Nature tells us to be true is lying. And merely rearranging who suffers depending on the decade is merely social engineering and it always serves the highest classes' agendas.

There are Jews who share my Eastern European DNA. Why would there not be a kinship? They choose, according to their culture, religion and politics to deny that connection. African Americans can be 'black' all they want. The instances of their having European DNA is very high.

One day we are going to have to admit to what many of us have discovered to be true by living like primitives: much of the time, we simply 'like' people or gravitate towards them because WE ARE RELATED TO THEM. Somewhere far back or even a recent ancestor in America (recent in genetics probably means like since Europeans settled in America in earnest), you are most likely family. Perhaps from a neighboring tribe back in the old land.

I've even noted that certain other Europeans can really piss me off. Like some old ancient fued left over from the old country. As if I sense their very ancestry was not friendly to mine.
This might explain why I accept certain blacks as kin easily and then percieve other blacks as threats upon contact.
Most scientists disregard ancestral memory. Science denies the existence of many things we know exist but they cannot prove. Science also has hidden much of what it has discovered from the public so I dont depend on them to be honest with the public about what truly makes up our world.
As a person with two talented visual artists as ancestors I did not need scientists to prove that Pollock's work was legit mathematically therefore had merit. I can tell by looking at it.
Science serves society often enough but it denies things that we as humans are told by our intuition or instinct-things that Nature armed us with to Survive.

If science was allowed by the powers that be honest with humans they would be telling us psych meds are not the only alternative and that various kinds of pollutions are definitely bad for human survival and should cease immediately.

Since scientists are controlled by big business, govt and special interests its not a particularly good idea to believe everything they say or publish as ultimate reality. Even science would have to admit that new information changes theories. Changes the 'answers' they give us.

We know gravity is pretty much agreed on by all of us on earth. Issues of race and how we feel or react about that are alot more complicated.

Ive even experienced academics outright being totally irresponsible. A special on PBS on Native Americans had one older professor, with a dreamy eyed look, claiming that White settlers, due to being originally out of Africa, we are essentially a desert people so our urge is to deforest land wherever we go.
It was the most insane thing Ive ever heard from a learned person's mouth. I think these people become bored with facts and start playing with reality. Do you see now the danger in denying our artistic sides? You can become victim to these urges.

His 'theory' totally disregards recent discovery that everyone world wide EXCEPT Africans has Neanderthal DNA. It also doesnt address the scientificly accepted theory that Native Americans are from Asia coming over from Russia through Alaska. This would make them also out of Africa like Europeans. So why, then did they not have the urge to deforest land wherever they went? Like their long time North American homeland?

These same kind of Liberal insane types will claim there is no scientific evidence of 'race'.
Ok whatever you want to call the similarities and differences between humans. Whatever these are, we must stop allowing the powers that be to manipulate them for political purposes and begin understanding ourselves as citizens of an entire world of people.

You have a right to respect and acknowledge feelings of disliking others. You also have the privilege of accepting certain people regardless of modern dictated racial or class lines.

That black dude might be related to a common ancestor from some village somewhere. The next black dude you encounter might posess the DNA of the most obnoxious Scandinavian slave owner who's ancestors invaded Ireland and that DNA still scares the sh*t out of you on some primitive level. You immediatley percieve this large framed lighter skinned muscular fatty black male as somehow aggressive and a threat. You note that he seems to suffer the heat moreso than his 'brothers'. It seems silly or racist but theres got to be something to it.

Women of Swedish descent piss me off. Always. Perhaps its only some certain family or tribe. But whatever it is they are aggressive, annoying and combative and even being in their presence has made me nervous. Other Scandinavian countries of ancestry dont offend me as such.

Much of who we are according to DNA is dictated by history.
Until we are realistic about that we will keep on reacting the same ways to things from mysterious causes from within us. Science cant explain away everything and the social order just wants us all to behave and get along, not truly for a peaceful world but for reasons of orderliness and the ability to easily control populations through deceptions like PC, Equality, Diversity etc.

Being from Boston but moreso my great grandmother from Cork, recalling her mother shutting the shades on Queen Victoria if she road through the streets (an action taken to implicate a dead person is being driven through the street), I am from the Irish Catholics that did not bow easily to British occupation nor appreciate things like the potatoe famines.
We were passed down the truth about those circunstances yet history books probably carefully dance around the truths.
The Irish share a remembrance of such things it seems through some ancestral collective memory of injustice.

I find that in areas with English flags like behind Harvard SQ Cambridge I begin to feel VERY uneasy.
In San Diego there's this sign for Little Italy. Being from the northeast I was thrilled to go into this area. Their idea of a Little Italy wasnt very authentic. As I turned corners and down new streets I started to see British flags hanging from houses. I immediately sensed enemy territory and got the he'll out of there.

Now what would cause a third generation American citizen of mixed western and Eastern European ancestry to react this way?
Its either passed down from Ireland or the Revolutionary forefathers posess all New Englanders strongly. Growing up in metro Boston it does seem that way.

Irish-English relations can improve in modern times all they want. Its always going to be a reality of our past..some even consider it still an issue. Comprimises arent good enough.
This is because when a people inhabit a small island for thousands of years they tend to form a bond with the land. As all peoples do.

Americans are simply guests on Native land. I know this. Most Americans dont. They wonder why they feel insecure. I visit Native strong areas every year like New Mexico and I feel much more connected to this land than I ever could by myself as a European. Natives are our land's diplomats.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

TX Impossible To Navigate

ok so becoming a TX resixent WASNT such a great idea. Its horrid actually.

The entire way i am targeted has chamges as I suspected it would.

Its a horrible combo of obsession with conformity to now having almost no.drive to.complete my work or project. I cant use the state's insurance to get my health ossues lookes at if I simply cannot think straight for 5 min.

Yeah this is bad. Probably fumss from.oil drilling are part of this dumbed downental state. I cant stand this.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Blaming The Jews-Still Attractive In Its Simplicity

http://jewishracism.blogspot.com/2011/02/brown-mans-burden-jewish-war-on-whites.html?m=1

Sounds insane doesnt it? Yet its so attractive in its simllicity.

As with all hatreds politocally and sliritually motivated or rather, religiously motivated, its never ALL of one group. Not all Jews are into this agenda. Just as not all Jews ageee with eaxh other on anything. There are so many different factions so many different kinds of Jewishness. From Orthodkx to merely cultural without any religious belief.

Oh but the hatred is real. Ive experienced it. Every Jew takes pleasuee in desteoying a gentile like me just as every black does enjoy desteoying a white woman just as each whining sexist asshole makes ezcuses foe his behavior within a gang stalking campaign that has nothing to do with their own personal agendas or hatreds.

GS allows these more personal agendas to be fullfilled even though a person is targeted for 'reasons of national security'.
And the situation I was in from Boston certainly included plenty of Jews, one sensed it was a stereotypical hatred based on something very destructive they simply did by nature and had always done.

Yet I always seek to stay balanced and consider my mother worked for an Armenian Jew who helped out. That the rich kids who tried to frame me were not Jews at all just insufferable brats from Watertown and Newton. Jake and his mother are genetic Jews but no one knew that..or perhaps maybe someone did. I just think he was a wimp, a greedy spoiled fat kid and of use to the system to destroy a programmed weapon they didn't want running around anymore...one who eventually would start recalling faces and places from childhood.

Others involved are Arab or connected to Irish mob or Italians.

But when people see there is indeed a socially engineered genocide going on..and Hollywood is so arrogant, so absolutely Jewish against the damned world and even to the exclusion of it, with so many feminists and activists being Jews...people who almost force racial integration when Israel and their own religion shuns it, the Folk can not help but be suspect.

We must remember always these actions are political and only due to greed and pleasing whomever so people can get what they want for themselves.

I may call the Jews who participated in my downfall from Watertown, Newton and especially Brookline Kikes at any time with full confidence in my conviction- becuz they deserve it. They all deserve to be destroyed as well. Not becuz of their Jewelry but becuz they joined in with Gentiles and every other possible kind of person imaginable to destroy someone who was vulnerable and innocent of wrong doing compared to whom they were protecting.

Good Jews and bad Jews. Good blacks and bad blacks. Its the niggers, the kikes, the white trash who sell us out for the child molesters, drug runners and ultimate bad guys on earth. They deserve worse than these mere words for name calling, labels of hate. These are not even enough. Words that actually burn into flesh and scorch their insides, their souls should be created for them.

Blaming the Jews is always so tempting becuz their own childishness, arrogance and cockiness brings it upon themselves. However its very obvious they have many partners in crime. Many different kinds of people are involved in organized stalking and harassment. Some like to torment people, some have much to hide and can't afford exposure and some simply want money or opportunity that bad. Their excuse generally is they don't know the Target which of course is a total denial of any and all mind control involved in these things, either programming from infancy or mass mind control.

ANYONE INVOLVED IN ORGANIZED STALKING AND HARASSMENT IS CONTROLLED BY SOME METHOD OF MANIPULATION or outright mind control. These people just aren't smart enough to admit it to themselves. The only respectable people in GS are the worst sadists or Satanists becuz they don't make excuses for themselves do they? I imagine its not really an issue. Such people are certainly hiding who they really are but they don't experience guilt.

I believe there probably are Jews religious and obsessed enough to destroy anyone who's a gentile who seems 'specisl' enough to be a threat. Yet its always been laughably obvious how programmed and mind controlled many Jews are to begin with. Especially Israelis with being programmed from birth. That along with the sick conditioning that this Abrahamic religion provides is quite enough to register many Jews as far from reality as one can imagine.

However somehow good does come from Jews. When they have conscience. Then they seem human like the rest of us.

Its hard to not fall into these traps. The perps are so ridiculously nasty and treat TIs so badly that we want to believe anything. An answer. Something to identify the enemy so we can fight back.

I have no doubt in my mind now that the GS system and other covert warfare is responsible for creating terrorists and possibly even the likes of Hitler himself.

One has to then ponder exactly who is behind such engineering, such actions? To want to turn human beings into fanatical haters?

People bring it upon themselves by not rooting out corruption where it is. For the system to be capable of what I have experienced and able to use technologies to control human beings and the public to have no understanding of this gives the corrupt side all the leverage and power leaving everyone else at a great disadvantage.

I think that this crime and corruption runs the world. Absolutely. Jews are involved as we can see from testimonials concerning Israel being involved in drug running but who isn't?

Fuck the Jews and everyone else involved in organized stalking and harassment. Just don't forget the good Jews who have gone by their conscience and if not their Jewish conscience, their human one.

Trying To Sue Or Seeking Refugee or Amnesty Is The Only Way To Survive Now

Something told me to leave during this festival and now I know why. Also for some reason my identity or my personal energy seems very tied into this kid I was with for a few days. Like Ive lost all face somehow by being with him and getting disappointed. I don't understand how only a few days with someone can effect one's entire sense of Self. I think the GS system is working off this, using it to target me with along with stalking and harassment.

This place is ruined now like all the rest and I don't want to stay here.

I will try to see on Monday if I can find a lawyer who may be able to handle what happened in Boston, the Bacttrim case and maybe trying to sue the FBI if thats possible. If I was being harassed during a legit federal investigation instead of given a subpeona maybe there's something I can do with that. WITHOUT ratting like they want which of course is really part of continued MK Ultra experimentation and NOT legit criminal justice. My 'confessing' would prove MK Ultra works on programmed people most namely suicide bombers and spies. No f*ckin way am I giving them that. If that is what legit law enforcement really wanted they would have subpeonaed me like a normal person with respect to laws and my rights.

Instead I had jerks like that guy working at that church food charity in Freemont CA asking stupid questions to intimidate me like " So what are you doing in Freemont Rachael? RUNNING FROM THE FBI?" And those little shits in Mesa AZ doing a harassment/ stalking scene then sitting down next to me stating " You know Rachael, I can make it stop" then offering me a 'job' where I travel, a new location every month and get paid every three weeks. I got somethin for each of them if I ever see either of them again. And I photo memoried their faces, voices, where they were sitting and what they were wearing. Even if destroying a Survivor's mind slowly blurs the details of these recorded memories the basics are there.
I remember most of all arrogance on their part. And all the n*ggers they sent after me, my having to be subjegated by the likes of the worst blacks in the USA. Me. A highly intelligent, attractive white woman. Multi talented. And the whites in on this don't care. Alot of people don't care.

Becuz they are greedy disgusting humans who only care which ever country they are in works for THEM and anyone who is in the way of their love affair with the obscene, totally f*cked up power structure is worth losing.

The country is hopeless. There's too many citizens who want this country to be what it is. They don't want to answer for all that America does so they desire the country hides behind PC and gentrification and this bullshit about a New World Order which is just a system of sanitizing the worst crimes that make it all possible.

No matter where I go Ill be targeted. And have to deal with smug nothings who have cozies up to the power structure. But Charles Schlund said it wasnt as bad tech wise overseas. That may have changed by now.

All I know is I can't get healthcare I need and its harder to function under the tech now than it was early Obama. Its almost impossible.

If I am ignored or no one will take the case I will just work and handle being targeted until I get enough to leave.

I notice this thing with my intestines thats connected to internal bleeding seems worse when I stay too long in a major city and it subsides on Sundays or at night hours. It really hurts and tears during the week during the day. Its tech and I always suspected that.

So the system is trying to give me something fatal before air can get this book done or even started.

The system knows what its done to me is very serious. But I get treated like no one takes it seriously and I am supposed to internalize that.

When I was little in the foster home I tried to run away a few times. Just grabbed a loaf of bread and my little Huffy bike and peddled. I didn't know where to go just, GO.

I recall everyone at the front driveway to the small blue house gathered and basically making like it was a folly or not to be taken seriously as I zoomed by. Now the system watches mind control programmed slaves from birth. The targeting system knows how each of us has been treated. They know we've never been taken seriously, our power never respected, used and pushed into submission all our lives. This is the way old school Southern racist whites think of and speak about blacks. Ive read it on Chimpout.com and sometimes on Stormfront, though they try to stay more political and not simply ignorant racist abuse.

This is the way people think of and treat mind controlled slaves. And they market to the public to think of and treat us the same way.

Even though what I was running from those times I ran away from the foster home was very legit and I never should have been in that house, everyone treated it like it was a joke. As if my urge to run away wasnt legit. As if I was being attention seeking or silly or ridiculous.

The reason so many people mistreat Targeted Survivors is at least in my case word gets around, probably on purpose that we are submissive, raised that way and easily controlled. This is totally untrue but becuz these people are mere commoners and only understand in simple terms what a Survivor is made of internally and by judging the outside they serve the system's agenda very well.

Ive read people's private writings who are in on this pretending to be friends and they will talk to others saying that being treated as I am for example is all people like me understand. Slaves only understand being treated badly or whatever.

The large amount of people in the USA I have encountered who seem to also subscribe to this is astonishing.

There is no one advocating for people like us and only the designers telling the public its basically OK to tuck with us and keep taking advantage of us.

I now live a life where I meet nothing but people out to exploit my situation. I hardly ever meet anyone who wants to help me beat the oppressor. Even the truckers who help me, many of them you can tell are hoping later on a friendship will lead into a relationship.

Ive heard people talk to me right to my face seemingly about someone else but its my situation they are referring to, so and so was "raised very submissive" by their families and all kinds of this same behaviors from many many Americans.

This country refuses to deal with how many pedophile networks thier are who of course work with the cops and other power structures and to deal with human trafficking or even abuse of sex workers and chooses instead to keep up a media campaign of insults and villification of sex workers and anyone else who knows too much. Becuz alot of kiddie rings, arms dealing and drug dealing are hidden behind escort services etc. They don't want the public to know how it all works.

And it seems many Americans are more than happy to cooperate.

IF the feds had supeonaed me it would be a different story but all I have been through to then make it like its about revealing info about the federal investigation or something connected to that is just trying to make it like its about being a person of interest when they know damned well its about MK Ultra.

If I find a lawyer willing to sue every powerful entity involved in this including DARPA along with the FBI and really driving it home that its about covering for continued black projects then fine but to fall into brainwashing and make it about just the federal investigation is useless.

This all serves thier their forced deprogramming program they have many Survivors in. I refuse to give in to further decompartmentalization.

Its what they are working on with people like me every day. For me to merge all my work is a sign they are succeeding at integration. They have no right to force people like me to give up our privacy and our internal programming so we can be stupid average nobodies who fit into thier bullshit NWO society.


Fuck them and Fuck America. Fuck the cops and the military and the CIA. Bush can go Fuck himself and my entire family can drop dead if I had my way. Boston needs to be wiped off the face of the earth especially Cambridge and all the twats that live thier.

The ADL is full of S-H-I-T

http://www.adl.org/NR/exeres/ED737721-B6AF-4A0A-8D03-99A2C57B3EAA,DB7611A2-02CD-43AF-8147-649E26813571,frameless.htm

One word: Palestine. Also I recall seeing video of a Rabbi telling young men in their typical overzelous manner that their mother's would break their knee caps if they didnt marry Jewish girls.

This is why there can never be feminism without a focus on race or religion such as Judaism in the form of Jewish as simply cultural.

Its always "extremist" if people arenf bowing down to PC dictated social norms. Know whats extreme? Political Correctness, Equality, and Diversity.

To disregard totally the realities of sexism, racism and classism that effects everyone involved when a FAKE made up system of arranging humans in a society takes the place of free association is totally and completely irresponsible. Any form of brainwashing that forces humans to not speak out against any social injustice should be held in the highest suspension.

Also I notice there's never any movement thats NOT extreme or radical that deals with White's social issues.

Why not a moderate approach like White Empowerment NOT connected Supremacy or necessarily promoting bigotry or Seperatism?

This is how Western society silences the under class as well as all non ethnic minorities. It seems to serve the class war more than anything and specifically targets keeping poor White women silenced.

I havent found one White site that I would be part of. Many of them are sexist or Christian. Chimpout.Com is amusing and best used to blow off steam instead of go postal in areas where blacks are arrogant towards poor Whites like SoCal, Mid west or Boston the east coast generally. And being a TI alot of blacks seem to he aware of whats going on moreso than alot of other ethnic groups which illustrates the danger of PC movement right there: they are the opressor's house slaves- thier spies and handlers of runaway poor Whites who are giving The Man a problem. Blacks will help you becuz they understand whats going on when whites wouldnt believe it but blacks also serve the agenda via gangs allowed to exist via DEA CIA (Iran Contra) etc and lest we forget COINTELPRO. Many blacks are involved in working for the agenda as they view helping The Man as a way to make progress for their own people.
Diversity is extremely dangerous as it portrays ethnic minorities as.helpless and in need of authority to assist them in existing rightfully in society yet PC never takes into account ethnic groups crime rates, gang involvement or their involvement in working for the power structure TO HELP AUTHORITY OPPRESS people, either individually or en masse.

Imagine a women's feminist philosophy that embraced females without considering race and excluded all males. No Jewish power hold or black racial issues. Yet these women would be welcome as long as they kept the focus on WOMEN'S issues only and female empowerment. Why does this not exist?

Why must every movement against oppression have to connect to Leftist concepts and thinking as defined in America?
Often at Occupy I experienced that being used as a platform for people who indulge in Leftist Liberal griping as a pastime instead of actually fighting genuine oppression. Scene people. Useless types. Who never stayed throughout the cold nights to bare the difficulties but always went home.

Why is there no White Empowerment? Not White POWER but a focus on bringing Whites information about their history, ancestry and assisting them if they are being subjegated by other ethnic groups due to being in the lower classes.

Theres never a realistic report on how obnoxious black men are to poor White women nationwide. Not everywhere as in some locations they behave like human beings but in many places they posess an aggression and obsessiveness upon contact that is far from normal human behavior. Decades ago black men in the south would be lynched for "reckless eyeballing". It sounds ridiculous nowadays that a man cannot simply look at a woman. Yet as a poor White woman who has to deal with the animals blacks have been reinvented as with hip hop/gangsta culture and stunting their growth by validating and glorifying ghetto culture, we as females know this wreckless eyeballing is just a small part of the black male's constant and world wide campaign to intimidate the poor white female or any white female.

I now readily use this term when black males look a bit too hard trying to put their mojo out there as intimidation. I simply speak this term and perhaps add quickly that you used to get lynched for that.
It lets this male know I am not up for auction or sale by MY masters, which he percieves as White authority or male society.

Slaves think along slave culture. Blacks arent stupid just as Africans arent stupid. Slavery MAKES people stupid. Africa in its poor areas suffers from constant war or exploitation. This makes people unable to grow. Amistaad proves that native Africans can create civilized culture and even 'savage' tribes have thier own social order.

If Africa and its people were left alone and never exploited or treated and traded with as an equal culture we would most likely experience a very different African peoples.

If you support PC or any other social management systems especially post Fascist era (Bush) you are supporting the very systems that seek to keep ethnic peoples dependent on authority and the system, all the while encouraging these same people to remain enslaved, ignorant and self destructive via gang life, prison and ghetto culture. This 'double think' is a typical way of living in denial and tends to work well in Judeo-Christian societies where there is duality yet its presented as opposition.

A mind raised with the concept of good and evil existing dually and at the same time in the same world yet its taught we must choose or focus on only one or the other is going to be VERY easy to con with Double Think strategies. Its almost like compartmentalization in programming but not as severe. It does have citizens compartmentalize concepts and this is where they can then be manipulated and managed.

People have a right to defend themselves. Women as well as Whites struggling with today's complex racial, religous and class issues have a right to know who we are and where we stand.

Part of the con of the NWO is to make it beat people down so they simply give up and conform with whats dictated instead of think for themselves. Poor Whites are horibbly victimized by this nowadays. Unfortunatley, sad as it may be, a White instinct to survive without any healthy alternatives may just be to take on a total racist philosophy or join extremist groups. Its obvious the powers that be want this to occur so any and all opposition to thier goals of social engineering and an NWO are crushed, when of course they go after 'hateful bigots' or 'extremists'.

HUMANS DO NOT BECOME TERRORISTS WITHOUT JUST CAUSE. There is no way that many people would consider what amouts to suicide and extreme measures without feeling it was necessary to their survival.

Making all Whites who dont take to the now prescribed social norms out to be basically social terrorists is a way of yet again utilizing covert warfare or methods to shape events and socially engineer things to what the people in power want.

If I or anyone else started a White empowerment movement we would be framed up as somehow being connected to Supremacists eventually.

The Folk are what the people in power fear most. Making ethnic groups into their own specific cultures so they never merge with White Folk in class wars or other concerns is but one of the goals of promoting CONFLICTING concepts such as Equality and Diversity. Seperating people by race is what they have done. I dont need PC to tell me I should include a black Traveler in our social activities becuz that comes naturally through free association and the fact he is one of us to begin with.
I should not however include a local shelter rat homebum who stands around all day grabbing his crotch staring intently at every white woman he sees there.
PC Diversity Equality as pushed in the govt funded shelter system encourages me to overlook obvious danger that any street smart person would pay attention to in favor of submission. This of course in the case of White poor females results in race mixing..not by nature or by choice BUT BY DESIGN.

Many TIs are driven to homelessness becuz in a Capitalist society its easy to manage a peasant population with total disregard to human and civil rights due to the perception of such a population as deserving such treatment.
Thus TIs are managed by every single possible means available and its completely covered up.

elesso

In Central TX Become Targeted More

This place was ok until a local event started and it began to rain for three days as well. Obama showed up in Houston which isnt near here but maybe secret service or whoever just manages the entire state when Mr. Candy Coated comes to town. Especially in TX lol.

I hope it goes back to the chill way it was.

Ive been hit hard lately with alot of constant ideation that no one will believe me anyway, don't I want to be a normal part of society and everyone will think I am schizophrenic so don't bother.

I found another traveler who seemed cool and hes valuable to squat with but he's a dwarf and a little pervert. He's not too bad though and its manageable to have a squat partner in this weather.

I like meeting new people but being Targeted you always end up having to hang out with people you don't necessarily like anyway and really it just makes you feel bad and assists the system in 'managing' a TI
But, this is work. I am always working for the most part and that is part of it.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Sometimes The Pawns Were Once Kings..At Least Rebels

Was doing laundry and accidrntally was exposed to a total Agenda ass kissing tv show Jimmy Kimmel Live. Aerosmith's singer was on there and just the sound of that fucktard's voice infuriated me. Brought me right back to exactly how pissed I should be about all the assholes in Boston's part in this.

Of course I immediately ignored him becuz its obvious by now he's a total perp. I guess when you get revived from dying and then pretend to stay in recovery for years on end you can then graduate to being just as bad as the oppressors, aggressors and handlers.

The public don't realize that if these people actually healed and got better and graduated to human beings they wouldnt want to be near the business they are in. They would cease to function as they do now.

The public wouldn't have their little wind up toys, their celebrities.
People like him and the general public deserve each other.

I hate the fact so many Targets are just drained of life and barely existing yet magically people like him seem revitalized...as if somehow some new energy has been bestowed on him and many others like him. Energy that isnt their own.

Bathing like Bathory is totally what I would expect from a person like him and that brainwashed guitarist who gave my ex Jake a gig that gave him cred he needed.

That guitarist...he actually used to give interviews before the Recovery cult got a hold of all of them, before the Boomers started having to play Catch Up when AIDS came and Reagan too. Just before then he'd say things like the picture of the three battered Revolutionary soldiers from 1776 walking bandaged and playing instruments- that IS rock and roll. He'd be all wasted telling magazines the band was ripping off the public using timed formulas.
I use one of his songs as battle music- Listen To The Rock. It says to the listener, 'holy moly dont you know that you're a hero, you're a FREEDOM FIGHTER?"
"Anytime you think it just doesnt matter anyway?"

Its so professional, so clean yet with power at the key moments. And the singer sounds like Tyler but isnt which is great.

Its to me, what I remember, what Boston used to 'sound' like. That era. Before it got gutted then gentrified. The 80s sucked no.matter which way you put it, in America anyway. England had truly new things going on. But here it was like the beginning of the end.

But before that happened, before we watched the Boomers slowly wake up to their 40s and this fear we'd never seen in our confident young parents before then, a fear that never did go away and changed them forever...they had exposed us for years to rebellion in action and spirit. This is why Gen X had to be supressed and blocked, kept busy with diversions, made to feel unimportant when actually the opposite is true.

I am not going to wake up to my 40s whining I get treated badly in public so therefore give a shit enough to claw back up again, only to become a McCain or Romney supporter in my old age. At least he's not whoring it up on Idol.

Who the fuck knows what happens to professionals or business people that melts their brains and deflects them from youthful ideals.

Whats going on right now is a bit more important to humanity generally than any of that bullshit.

And I remember what was once important to my patents, what was instilled in me, especially from a city like Boston where the Revolutionary spirit lived on very strongly until very recently. (Much of the Colonial trappings around MA that kept the forefather's spirits alive has been usurped by corporate fare except for places like Lexington who can afford to keep their city's character but also make money off the tourist end of it). One
senses this is quite on purpose. Creations of false environments has been a part of the agenda as I posted much during early Obama. During Bush I gave extreme examples of doing so.

I think I overheard like one sentence of Tyler's, laughibly claiming that doctor's and lawyers have children like him or like his...he sounds just like a black pimp much of the time. I suppose thats appropriate for the music industry considering it works so closely with organized crime, drug rings and Israel of course.
Lovely.

I just ignore that and focus on anything positive against oppression and the agenda. And some of these people obviously had brains and a set of balls at one time. Its worth using in battle now.

And ignore the house slaves.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Another Opportunist?

The guy i last posted about. He did what most people do to me. He was different when we were alone together. Around others he was nice but privately he would be abusive so its better he left. He freaked out once becuz i didnt like something he liked, an audio book. He would always attach everything that happened between us to his childhood traumas. He keeps whining about how he never finds people who like what he likes in life.

He These tantrums were draining but it didnt matter. I tried to be very paient but when he then couldn't be patient with me in return I didnt want this to go on.

He kept whining he wantes to be have a death metal band (becuz he actually can play guitar Ive seen it and sing) but he's so wrapped up in being a loser and being fatalistic that he never got anywherr.

Maybe now he sucked my energy he can accomplish something or maybe now the system will reward him like it does everyone else who does anything to hurt me or drain me-make their job easier, as well as swell the detractors in the cover story who can vouch for me being all the things they want to make me out to be.

This kid was definitely in on it or he was just a predator who knew he could get something he wanted out of duping me.

Anything to ensure that book never gets written. I got truckers who, some of them not all but a few, are very interested in what i am up to with my progress of that book. Like construction they also have issue ls with ex wives and women that they take out on the Target or project onto. Cops firefighters construction small trades businesses and truckers Ive comsistently found men who are in on this and are absolutely determined to make it about the cover story instead of what its really about. Bus and train employees also and that includes Greyhound and Amtrak. I notice these types are all in very male centric jobs but also union.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Heart Has To Exist To Be Broken

The kid I was with actually broke my heart a little. The good thing about this is that it gave me ths opportunity to feel I had a human heart again...

Another Set Up Possibly

Met a guy out here in new city in Texas. Firstly I had to explain to him what gang stalking and being targeted was becuz he kept commenting on life long bad luck. Tonight however I mentioned that many inventors get targeted. He replied "I know" and elaborated on that.

He owes me like 80 bucks and we just had a disagreement and he left me alone out here on a foot bridge. He wanted to stay becuz he owed me money til he could pay me back. After an earlier drama with a place to stay we had for a few days I simply could not take anymore.

He had found a place to.crash- an apartment with this slightly eccenttic vetran and a 22 year old kid.

The apartment owner showed us his military ID. He turned out to be loopy from PTSD he claimed with a drinking problem. His other guest a 22 yesr old was fine until he drank at night. Tonight the situation got very out of hand and John he young kid is aggressive and likes to.fight..

It was over dramatic and loud. It was ok.for two days bit tonight it just blew up.

After we finally.left i looked our host up on the internet. Seems his only mikitary listin which was easy to find was being an MP in the in Las Vegas Nevada.

Also interestingly he's listed as having inventes siesmic reinfoecement systems with a.patent. He also came up under some acting company with a head shot.

His story may well be true, that he has ptsd and his crazy Asain x wife and dicorce (as well as drinking ) are whats made him the way he is.

The other theory is he may be targeted. TIs gravitats towardd eaxh other.

Then again how can I trust military experience plus being listed on a modeling/acting website and having invented somethijg that shows his mind is not average?

Tonight as he was drmam queening it up after John his young roommate got arrested, in the midst of conversation he mentiones,..."and Im not an actor...."
Why would he bother to mention that?

I also think the guy I was hanging out with was suspect. A few days ago at a park he was in the midst of conversation. Someone mentioned that something-a place or an object was "destroyed by a series of fires" . His reaction to that was this statement: "It couldnt be destroyed by just one...it was too strong" it had to be destroyed by a bunch or little ones, or he said 'series of fires'. Whatever his exact words the comment startled me. It is so exactly what has and is being done to me. Emphasis on the " it was too strong" part.

He also has a pagan designed inverted pentagram on his chest with claims of losing interest in Satanism due to it validating Christianity.

One time he expressed having a healthy respect for someone I forget who he was referring to, that was "evil and highly intelligent".

No place is safe for a Target. Either screwed up people seem to sense we are vulnerable or the system always has people keeping us occupied with such time wasting destructive nonsense.