“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” --Maya Angelou

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

This Part Of The South Is Enjoyable...Though Possibly Full Of Shit As Anywhere Else

Aside from my experience that was the usual at that shelter I have to say that the regular people there were nice. Staff seemed nice. The women, white and black seemed nice enough.


The only thing that was weird is the locals have a habit of looking at u aggressively with a quickness. Like u can't turn around in the lunch room.


The males are the worst, usually the white ones. Couldnt even walk out into a room or hallway.


I mean i get it that the south is as dangerous as anywhere else and they probably  sugar coat it.


But I surely did enjoy my stay. Felt comfortable for a few days. Even experienced some healing and gaining answers.


So what  if the gentle smiles of people in street  or in cars was the same exact perp handling Ive experienced around the nation?


Listen, AMERICA KNOWS WHAT ITS DONE..to its own people and to the world. All I need to do is know the truth about my own story. Who CARES what the public thinks much less Americans?


Lol in a convenience store near North Eastern university in Boston I had Middle Eastern types winking at me and being friendly to me, it seemed due to my work.


Dont u think I know it was to push me further into being obnoxious and rebellious, sounding like some crazed terrorist or schizo??


Lmao....i understand fully the purpose of all this over time is to get rid of me one way or another so that the people who betrayed me never have to deal with consequences or me for the rest of their  lives.


None of that matters. All that matters is the truth, not greedy, murderous humans who mob anyone who threatens to get in the way of them satisfying their base needs-and their greed.


As if any of that population (most of the USA and  consumerism addicted western society) here or abroad s worth considering at all in my life.


Soooooo f*ck all those people.


I experienced a place down south where it seems religion actually works to make human animals at least superficially, seem to coexist somewhat peacefully.


Ok. I get it. The guy i am with is a jerk whos trying to hurt me. I wont let him...i will not depend on him emotionally. Sheesh..ok i get it.


The two pastors that run this shelter are African American.


I saw one of them come out of his office door when I arrived and, talking to another black man, looked at me quickly then smiled, amused all while talking to the obviously less powerful black male.


Ive seen this a million times in my experience as a Targeted Individual.


There is an  African American conspiracy in the United States.


Its either independent which is doubtful or its allowed to continue and conquer as independent due to its existence somehow serving greater powers.


It could also be that its been set up by said powers in the US from the beginning to serve its agenda.


The folk or EuroAmericans from non slave owning classes or traditional ruling families of Europe also, are very naive about the age old relationship between the slave owning classes and their African slaves.


African Americans have expressed their motives for voting for Obama as being that life will b easier for them.


African peoples have probably been kept down if you will, so that they can be utilized by greater powers to opress their own peoples as well as everyone else.


The Boulé is an example of a group of high status and wealth for this purpose.


The African Americans we meet who are nice, decent and maybe victimized themselves are opressed by the blacks in on this as well as may be easily used as tools against non African-Americans due to their ignorance and naivety.


Ive seen way too many blacks in the USA in on gang stalking as well as the much more sophisticated black ops to doubt what I am claiming.


Either African peoples actually rule the world in some covert way through covert means or they are a  people most used in covert activities to do so by whoever does hold the most power in America at least.


It would be interesting one day perhaps in a foriegn land to find out exactly what I experienced here and if other nations are as disgusting as.to use blacks against their own people-no matter what class they are.


The EuroFolk can never be free so long as other peoples are used against us to oppress us while being told they are our allies.


Peoples who are different from the Target  are always going to have added motives when gang stalking.


I can deal alot better with organized crime types, Jews, rich people, sexists and jealous white women being in on my gang stalking campaign than even  one individual of African descent.


To most of my DNA blacks are totally foreign and unknown. To my Italian ancestry, using Africans against me is the highest insult. Italians are so.close geographically to African peoples that long ago we made clear to them as well as other neighbors historically, exactly who's land that was. Not theirs. The Italian sentiment is:you can move into the neighborhood next door, but come into ours and you're screwed. Italy may well be a modern sell out-even to Muslim extremists I hear. But I am talking about instinct from whats coded into humans-not some NWO agenda. Also.there are still news stories of Southern Italians having zero tolerance for Africa's nonsense.


Its truly been the absolute worst part of this experience looking back in retrospect.


Being a Targeted person a much larger demographic of people shud heed my warnings about the threat of such a great deception regarding peoples of African descent, in the USA and elsewhere.


No matter how oppressed and downtrodden they may be that reality does not mean they arent being used as legions to oppress the rest of us also.


Re Assessing Yesterday's Posts On Possible Harassment

Allright. Yesterday was just paranoia on my part. It was just some bs between male groups. The chowda comment was probably random...perhaps from the Simpsons. Its been an ongoing gag years ago.

(Mayor Quimby is obviously supposed to be a Kennedy).


Yet this is totally normal for a Targeted Individual.  Gang Stalking induces clinical paranoia.


Its one way to make yet another self fulfilling prophecy-that the Target is and always has been  mentally ill.


If you were MILABed and subjected to psychological warfare to keep black/classified projects quiet you too would begin to show signs of mental wear and tear.


Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Everything's quiet so far....its ok.


Ok..one Native looking lady looks traumatized and the other has siezures supposedly. Potential for sleep disruption or GS: Pedo frame up with kids here. Seizure lady has seizures and EMT's need to come or other 'First Resonders' (Homeland's Gang Stalking Whores) and disrupt, make noise and possibly mess with Targets. Boston is especially nasty for really brutal, evil destructive EMTs towards Targets ...Colorado also. The medical people where I went were total scum. And really mean to me to. Ahh, medical records-names, dates all the fun info I plan to focus on as a hobby in my old age. U see this scum thought that unofficial discreditation wud stop someone like me from getting justice. They still think that martial law perhaps during a financial collapse or whatever sick shit Romney is going to do to the poor and homeless to control us is going to keep them from consequences. Yeah, whatever.) Last possible scenerio wud b some chaos I haven't thought of. Too bad really...everyone's been so nice thus far. Sigh...
A skinny spanish white looking guy with a ponytail who seems to work here said "Hope u sleep well tonight ladies" as we went towards kitchen to go to dorms. As if we would or might NOT sleep well tonight. We better..or i might have to hang around after the first and make sure certain people dont sleep well at night. It really was threatening.  Worst malecentric psych warfare Ive seen in a while. Lets hope it was just his odd manner. A woman or two arent here that usually are and there are two new woman as well as a black lady with two female children. Lets hope theres no nosense tonight and even if there is ive become used to running sleep deprived so no  prob. My liver hurts with the same sensation of something pulling on it, which i have only experienced in MA and I wonder if its just my condition or if its something i was hit with today.

Only A Bit Of Adversity This Location And Time

At shelter for one more night. Certainly felt targeted by something before dinner tonight. Also there was an unusual scenerio of all black guys grouping on the left and white obnoxious dudes on the right of chapel, who were all facing the crowd sitting in the pews waiting to go in to eat. They made it like it was a prison yard scene like there was gonna b a fight.


One particularly dumb little shit, a white young punk in...u guessed it -black white and red, gave away the whole thing by calling one of his buddies Mr Chowder and then making fun of the way Bostonians say "chowder" by saying "chowdah".


Ive encountered flirtation and obnoxious forward behavior by a few black males and ignored them completey. It seems the males are the ones in on this ad thats predominantly who is responsible in my experience of dealing with GS 'house slaves'. Lol.


The women have been nothing but polite and pleasant and a good majority of black males have been respectful and polite.


Yet recall that instance yesterday-obviously this place os not free of some harassment.


Another young white jerk off yesterday stood behind me in food line and tried to gain my attention by saying  he was raised on pasta becuz he was raised by Sicilians.  It was really dumb and of course got ignored.


The trouble with the black males who are obnoxious here is that they speak aloud whst they are thinking or gossiping about a person or female, then are dumb enuf to expect their next axtion to be interpreted as innocent socialization.


I loathe arrogant black males and expect at least a portion of every African Whatever population, anywhere on the globe to have at least a percetage of this stereotype.


At least here, theres some controls on just how bad they can act out or power trip compared to areas where they are OUT OF CONTROL or coddled by Liberal Elitist white scum.


Needless to say, i now feel free of whatever influence i experienced with that crowd present before dinner.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Stranded For A Few Days Bible Belt

Stranded in shelter for a few days.  I think one of the blacks who works here it seems is already getting piois about the situation. 


I already heard what I think was something about selling one's body then something about if u stay outside or in the snow long enough, then "you stop strayin" or some such Christian bs. These people are either dumb enough to believe cover stories or they use such self righteous, pious bullshit to cover up for black ops, black projects, covert activity etc.


Either way I now try to stay in areas where people are...lets say 'racially aware' or conscious of possible dynamics that could form in our modern western environment the way society is now from having certain kinds of people out of control or favored/coddled by the Liberal elite in an area. They are very dangerous house slaves and will do anything to anyone to get their place in the NWO secured.


I've learned that its just not practical to travel through certain areas.


Lets see what these people try to pull in three days. Unfortunately many areas of the US still insist on leaving resources that deal with poverty in the care of African Americans whom I have experieced as racist, corrupt, lying and dont follow rules that dont suit them.

And I as well as numerous other EuroAmericans and others are totally sick of it. People think they can trust them becuz they are oppressed or discriminated against.


Wouldnt that make a group of people who are MORE desperate and vulnerable to being manipulated by wealth and power? Duh. And thats exactly what the reality is. Its not the 60s or 70s anymore...wake up.


At times they can actually be more useful or trustworthy than other peoples but it depends on the circumstances. If u want to survive gang stalking you have to be realistic.


There was mold in a house I was staying in here and it made me sick enough to leave finally. Sad really. This is why I dont go inside. Anywhere except the southwest is too humid, moldy and polluted.


Sunday, October 28, 2012

Peter Criss Artfully Handles A Little Aerosmith Bitchiness

http://www.hennemusic.com/2012/10/kiss-peter-criss-responds-to-comments.html?m=1


Nicely done Peter Criss. Nicely done.


Bandwagon? Yeah, when the hellhounds come calling and its time to pay the piper, people will do anything to stay in business, keep feeding the machine, stay famous and most of all-keep all the skeletons in their closet.


Especially in a bad economy-we've now come to a time where humans have become cannibals to survive.


As for Aerosmith's project 'music from another dimension'..I am not sure which one but they may find themselves quite out of their comfort zone in such a place. With no one to back them up, fight their battles for them, destroy their enemies or kiss their asses. One wonders just how such individuals would react being faced with having to face themselves so deeply or the sensation of having their souls ripped apart-in a place where money cant save you, nor your family or connections.


They are artists. For those of us where that was denied and we are forced to experiece such things in earnest-its not just a title for a project to be used once and disgarded into time behind us. 


They wont quit until they establish themselves as the ultimate in their field.  Something akin to magicians or alchemists who's legends live on in history.


Unfortunately they are largely a product of the Zionist media's smoke and mirrors. And will forever be tethered to their ongoing agenda.


Freedom is more important. Golden chains are not what some humans desire-for others it seems they will do anything to attain them.


Thursday, October 25, 2012

I've Finally Had Enough Of Being Disappointed And Driven Nuts By My Travel Companion

The kid i am with...his family are in on it.


He is nothing but a lazy piece of shit who's probably only with me to get out of trouble with the cops. I can face that now.


I have to get away from him and out of the USA asap.


Ive had enough of being so harassed that I keep having to settle for people who are simply part of the harassment.


I get alot of gang stalking with this guy around. Which is a red flag.


I shouldnt even b with him.


I constantly have to take care of him and its way  to stressful. I see now that his purpose is to further that stress and help cause it.


I CANNOT believe I fell for this. I need to learn to stay away from anyone who is in trouble with the law, has shitty morals i dont agree with or seems selfish and uncaring about me.


He being around me has made me more tired, fat, stressed and sicker.


His very presence around me has a silent but definite negative effect on me.


Ive been targeted too long and am now stuck in this world of shitty people who keep on becoming handlers, becuz I am not allowed to get out to be around decent people.


Its like I am forever doomed to b around headgamers.


I saw on his family's wall pics that frightened me. People wearing black and red, posing intimidatingly with dark glasses on and even a little devilish looking grandchild giving the sign of the horns in one pic.


Thats enuf for me, now I understand where this guy comes from. If he's not conshus of it then these forces are going to be working through him just the same.


I need people who are going to think about ME first and foremost and protect me from my situation, not assist the system in making me look crazy.


Yet Another Reason The US Isnt Suited To Me-Obsession With Nuclear Family And Marriage As Status And Image

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,2032116,00.html


"This article makes it clear: North Americans are obsessed with the nuclear family as the foundation of civilization."


Unlike other cultures like Mexican or Italian where Ive experienced family to be a GENUINE concern or way of life Americans seem to be concerned with family as image, for security, economic gain.   Theres something puritanical about their concern for family. Almost with a taste of melodrama. 


I believe that's becuz they sense somehow that they dont have the genuine true dedication that say a Mex or Italian culture does.


Lets put it this way: the cultures I just mentioned seem to deal with family in daily life with joy and as if it comes very naturally.


Atypical Americans seem either concerned with family as an extension of being Capitalist-an isolated unit that owns their own property etc without a greater sense of connectedness to humanity-outside of their immediate environment or work related etc.  Though often these types seem content with their families as central to their lives.


Other types I run into frequently are people who live their lives anchored to family with a begrudged sense of duty or as if thats  just what one does in life that comes across as downright depressing to me.


Often in American culture family life is a way of getting out of self improvement or evolution. It holds the individual back and people seem to use this as a way of staying stagnant....for what reasons I dont know. Only they know.


Also women becoming mothers is revered and rewarded way too much in the US as opposed to quality of life-once again.


Women use motherhood to avoid the scorn and rule of the patriarchy-who of course have built a culture where its rewarded heavily.


Conversely in much of this culture women are ostracized for being stay at home moms to actually provide that quality of life I just spoke about.


America is a very self abusive culture, with lots of abuse coming from the comsumerist driven media also, that condtions people to actually avoid what is genuinely good for them, in smaller amounts and doses, most likely so Americans will seek to compensate with larger consumption.


The obsession with children, holidays and Disney are all examples of this.


Whereas the Mexican culture has a joey de vive whilst living in poverty-and will also give to others they come into contact with, with a sense of extended family. Though they often are most concerned with other Mexicans this  is forgivable due to.their openess to people who arent necessarily immediate family or they identify as living the same lifestyle as they do.


I hate to say it but marriage and chldren sicken me-unless its done right with enough resources and by people who have a strong sense of individuals self.


I guess my urges are more towards creating a Family like an Italian would or founding a town or city...or other collective.  Something much bigger...that isnt so stingy and myopic.


Marriage is kind of used by people here wrongly in a smug way to believe themselves of a higher value in humanity.  Its also the stuff of high school conformity.


Here perps perps perps...HEEERRE perps perps perps.


Theyve been baited. Now lets see what they do.


(Im already getting an uneasy feeling as well as the horrible anxiety thing where it feels like ive got electrical current running through my muscles [similar to kicking opiates] that I know by now is from tech.  I have also experienced a noticeable shift in my consciousness.


Things seem more sterile, controlled. I.am no longer at peace but I no longer feel lost and deadened  by my experiences either.


Yep...we can now b sure that this blog gives them location info.


Getting A Bit Of Harassment In Greyhound Charlotte NC-It Really Is Getting Old-The Greyhound Thing

Staying in Charlotte nc greyhound station. Tell  the local housen*ggers who think they're gangstas or whatever and their white trash couterparts to keep it movin and dont bother.


And thank u locally for the tip off before we even arrived here tonight-u know who u r.


Unless that too is part of the conditioning then its just annoying.


Either way  i try not to pay  much attnton  to any of it.


I like the south alot ive found while traveling. I am beginning to realize just how much the north sucks.


Sunday, October 21, 2012

I hate the people of the USA for being in on destroying my life as it was many citizens who are responsible by and laege to the damages Ive suffered.  America is scum.


I know there are individials and even cults in other countries who want me dead like in Norway etc. But its better to leave and at least TRY to find a better quality of life or place where I can b left alone than to stay in America and conrinue to suffer and be kept down way below my potential.


The people in my hometown area seem to want me to give in to quitting and to take on this white trash level sort of life, one they seem to believe is where I truly belong instead of my being able to use what remains of my multi talents and intelligence.


They want me to settle for less and live as if nothing happened.


No way.


Destroying TIs With Potential Is A Great Waste Of Talent And Other Assets

Its so very sad that many of us are clearly being chased out of the United States by gang stalking.


Probably only to be harassed in the next place we go anyway. This system is determined to create a world wide enslavement culture, so of course nowhere in the world is going to be safe.


Its such a sad ending for so many Targets.  And so little of the population listens or even understands whats going on.


Such a waste.


Galleria Mall Owned By New England Development-Another False Environment Created By A Faceless Large Real Estate Gluton

http://www.nedevelopment.com/portfolio/cambridge/index.html


"Highly educated"? Most Of me going to this mall And experiencing gangstalking Consisted largely of young African Americans high school age who dont seem like they dont fit into those household income brackets nor do they seem highly educated lol.


being from Cambridge however they probably were spoiled rotten . Cambridge take very good care of this House Slaves.

You know, the blacks that I've experienced in the United States who traditionally go along with elite to do their dirty work and comply with their agenda.


I've also been harassed by the people who sweep the floors in the food court years ago. I also saw that creepy pedophile who owns Pearl Street laundry getting her nails done on the second floor a month ago.


You can't be all that highly intelligent if you're going to the mall.


I come here at like twice a year when I am in this area go to Sears to get a pair of earphones as I need special ones because of my latex allergies I aquired from that Bactrim induced anaphylaxis.


the mall sucks. All malls suck. any true New Englander has wud have a natural aversion to malls. Becuz malls are a creation of California culture and lifestyle and the strongly corporate culture in the south west and west coast. I been to frequently and that part of their culture is truly soulless and disusting. 

But with that much space and mountainous backdrops those locations can afford the folly of mall culture.


But Cambridge wasnt some suburban waste land with nothing for kids to do.


New England was just fine I'm with its shoppes, boutiques and outdoor shopping.


Malls dont belong in a very European-like environment  with highly edcated people.. of course I want to help transform that environment and its people into being dumb down and shopping in a completely indoor false environment.


Because corporate sameness nationwide create nation wide conformity. 


Its not my fault that Sears cant be found  anywhere anymore other than the zoo's known as malls.


I go, I get my 1 item, and I leave.


I believe malls like this are nothing more than behavior modification for populations of highly educated, high income household as listed in the demographics who populated area.


Fuck u Galleria and all your plastic people within.

Booorrrriiinnngg.


This company is probably 1 of the assholes Who conned lied to and fooled the local people into getting rid of rent controlled apartments.


the homeless should start occupying space is like this owned by  real estate gluttons like this.


maybe we can come sleep at the fucking mall then.  keep fucking with me and I'll start huge occupy movement  houseless and poor people to start messing with corporate culture.  keep it up you pieces of shit.


And due to my experience and high intelligence my people don't be stupid enough to fall for infiltrators and saboteurs like Occupy was. Also we wont  be vague about our cause. Which  of course will gain more support and less media outlets labeling us mere rhetoric.


They are all just biding time until November election. because whoever gets in is going to support this plan to go even further for many years to come. America is going to be come more and more unrecognizable as a true democracy and defender of Human Rights.. and will look more and more and more of what it has been in last 10 years.


think about it the only reason I can write something this articulate it is because it's Sunday in a major role in it use to be liberal for highly educated people from rich households.


Always harassment gqlleria mall Cambridge Sears can blow me

Getting harassed in  galleria mall Cambridge  as usual.  Sales people in electronics are total male centric tools.


Old guy salesman in electronics is possible perp. 


Saturday, October 20, 2012

All I Want Is To Write My Book, Thats All

Seriously. I just want to write my book. All I want is to write an account of  what happened and tell people about my life.


I am not even taking care of my health. The medical people just tell me nothng is wrong all the time probably becuz i am no longer important so its desirable  to let me get sick.


I  know whst everyone is doing. They are humoring me at the same time continuing to go along woth the blacklisting and shunning me so that I simply slowly fade into homelessness, illness and old age so no one ever knows I existed.


I dont want that to happen. I want to go somewhere where I will be heard and my  story paid attention to.


Okay so America is a horrible place now. Its become very selfish, evil and has basically become militarized and run by whoever is behind putting MINDWAR-mass mind control from theory into practice.


I obviously am never going to be able to live in MA or be welcome in Cambridge.


This is of course part of completing the ritual meant to steal my life energy before i die.

If i leave the USA or start a new  life anywhere for that matter, whoever was involved in doing this to me over the past years GETS AWAY WITH STEALING MY SOUL AND LIFE ENERGY FOR ALL OF ETERNITY.


Especially if I give into their convincing me to start again and become a quiet private silent person about what happened.


One alternative is writing a book and telling th whole world about what happened. This is a way of my securing a line or tie to that reality, what really happened -the truth, so I can feel confident in genuinely moving on.


But I mustn't seek success based on my talents now, before the accounts of what happened to me are published becuz success will be gained from the demonic energies that have touched my life due to whats happened to me, not my own true genuine inner strength as it wud have been had I been allowed to heal properly during the early 2000s.


This is wby its most important for whoever is behind this to keep me from writing my book qnd go over my documentation and instead push for getting a job, a lawyer, moving on and forgetting or else pushing for my focusing only on my natural talents being fueled now by my having dealt with evil so closely  for past ten years.


Neither is right nor appropriate. To tell about what has made me who I am today is only what will bring satisfaction.


Heart palpitations seem to have been from chemicals released from wet cardboard

Last night i slept on cardboard that got wet. First time putting cardboard on top of tarp and under blanket.


This resulted in my getting those heart palpitations again.


So.whatever was in that house in Seabrook it was the same chemicals released when cardboard got wet last night.


Friday, October 19, 2012

The Kids Are People Too School In Kenmore Are Not Only Reverse Racist Gang Stalker Scum They Are Also Cause Stalking Church Freaks

Someone told me that that school Kids Are People Too in Kenmore has church people in it that manipulated them into going into this church in Medford. (Medford, where I get harassed mercelessly by in person gang stalkers and where the manager of UHaul, Jerry Oulette took awa my friend's after hour privileges supposedly becuz i washed out an article of clothing in the bathroom months ago, which he told my friends dad who pays for the storage but refused to tell us.

In reality i had forgotten that Medford is where my former friend/career criminal in the sex industry was telling me for years NOT TO SEND ANY GIRLS THERE and it never made sense why. Then a working girl was murdered there. As usual it seems that my 'friend' had special and prior knowledge in order to avoid difficulties. So this explains why Medford is so unhappy about me setting foot in that area most likely and why that tool at UHaul had to make me look bad to my friend's dad...whos also a bit creepy also.)


Anyway, this guy was spare changing outside the McDonald's in Kenmore just as many of us do. This black lady (the whole school revolves around an Afican American focus. Lincoln is just one 'hero' figured prominently on their windows. As we shall now see they are obviously connected to Cause Stalkers from a church group which explains Mother Teresa being the other figure displayed next to Lincoln.)


She came out and he was upset with his head hanging. She said his name three times (magical three-the Trinity etc) and then he pulled his head up to see her crying which in his perception was this magical moment.  She then of course got him to start going to church in Medford.


I told him how viscous and nasty the people from that disabled kids school have been to me especially during Bush and early Obama. If they give me any crap now or try to manipulate I use racism as a way of hammering them down to make them realize I take no advice or power games from blacks seriously. IF U R MEAN AND VISCOUS TO PEOPLE U WILL GET THE SAME IN RETURN.


He said that the school was always nice to him and everyone there as well as the church loves him.


Thats becuz he's a piece of White trash with average intelligence who's from this very religious area and has never travelled and they know hes going to be easy to manipulate into religion as an answer to his problems and to fix his situation.


Religious groups specitically Christians are often used in covert activities in my experience. Christian content has been a large part of FFCH's group (a TI advocacy group who's shown signs of being infiltrated and run by black intel operatives akin to COINTELPRO.) for years and since gang stalking is a legal and political issue it has no place in an advocacy group.


Some of the people claiming to be Christians in that group are also the people who threaten to do violent acts as a solution to being targeted. Dont trust it. Lots of talk about guns like Alex Jones. Hmph.


I know from experience two groups that are very active in gang stalking:African Americans and Christians.


Both very easily enslaved, kept under control and cult mind controlled or 'brainwashed' historically.  Very dangerous to anyone independent thinking, truly dissident or targeted.


Its probably that these kinds of outfits know I am not going to be easily controlled by such methods or manipulated during a state of vulnerability so its just easier to reject me, be cruel and harass me into being discredited and probably drive me into racism as a form of self defense. As far as African Americans are concerned you are either with them or against them.


Which i dont have time for becuz i am dealing with something of much greater importance than their ongoing situation. In fact as a citizen coming from Third Wave immigrants in the late 1800's, its really not a major issue for me to begin with. Being from Boston area I'd say reverse-racism is a concern more than anything.


Christians as well as the black populations of the USA must always be held in high suspicion due to their histories of corruption, lying, crime but most of all seeking to further their own interests by working for the crooked agenda of the United States-house slaves.  African Americans have been involved in spying for the Man for centuries in the US as well as guarding his property and catching/handling his unruly or runaway 'slaves'.


Any religious group can't be trusted in this becuz they arent focused mainly on the situation being one of a legal and political nature. Ive experienced people in Christian groups in on this to a large extent. Prob either front groyps for intel using cult methods or into the NWO Zionist end of it or just religious right wing idiots.


Thursday, October 18, 2012

Paul Solet Raised In Cambridge?

So the little shit rich kid who helped my ex during the early 2000s after he ditched me and tried to frame me, was raised in Cambridge. Hmmm, yeah but i am older and I was born here.


My parents MET here. My dad squatted houses here and back then you could wire everything up nice, plumbing etc.


Hmph...my parents arent psychiatrists mind u (thank.goodness becuz we all know how sleazy they are by now) but i do believe THIS IS MY FUCKIN CITY.


Other than Harvard having a shameful documented history in MK Ultra type projects I believe I might be harassed here due to other reasons, like this nit wit.


Fuck those rich kids, their paid off cop friends and fuck anyone who supports them.


I still hold a torch..not for love mind you but for revenge.


And I am going to get it someday. Even if I.have to go half way round the world or wait 30 years to get it.


Thats a motherfucking promise.


All in good time.


The MBTA In Part Sucks..And Davis Sq Sucks Donkeu D*ck

I am so sick of the mbta employees standing around not handling chaos especially in DAVIS Sq. 


Somerville is full of half ass YUPpies, wanna be hipsters and the ignorant scum white trash from Slumerville's old school, pre gentrification population.


Its one of the places, one of the only places that I agree with being gentrified. GET RID OF SLUMERVILLE WHITE TRASH.


Especially the old biddies.


Davis sucks. It always has and always will.


And MBTA employees are still union scum spoiled brats who get jobs by being minorities or having connections. 


Homeland Security's 'first line of defense' are only one of this area's typical spoilt rotten, coddled, over priveledged and corrupt populations.


Bloated on Homeland.funding as well as the old system locally they are, in large part insufferably lazy, arrogant jerks.


Another joke holding too much power in this area.


Once Again The Metro Newspaper Spreads Ignorance-Activists Being Spied On By Authorities..well duh

You should see what they do to people who have dirt on their connections to organized crime...or other TIs. Hmph.


Remember these bastards here have Homeland money and military toys. With Raytheon, MIT, Harvard etc here, the intelligence presence is very high.


What they are doing is standard practice nowadays. Imagine if you as simply an activist had to go through what I went through as a Target.


AS FAR AS AUTHORITY IS CONCERNED THERE ARE NO PEACEFUL ACTIVISTS. This country has always done this to activists.


If anything, this stupid rag for an ignorant public is misleading people with the perception that activists who dont take part in violent activity are supposed to be spared the consequences of going up against or questioning the system and authority.


Wednesday, October 17, 2012

The Women's Center Is So Targeted But Its one Of The Only Decent Options For Homeless Women Who Dont Want Ghetto Culture Or To Be Controlled By Staff

I like the rest i get at the WOMEN'S CENTER but i always feel interfaced there and watched/monitored on the third floor where one can sleep.


I usually end up self talking even ranting. Its good for reflection and its good for my writing but its not where i want to be exercising my unique creative processes.


Its another dead end just like everything Harvard touches...


Plus its hella haunted after hours which makes being left there very uncomfortable. 


There was a reason it was abandoned in 1971 when they squatted it for feminism and its definitely still only good for day use.


Could System Be Targeting Bush's Also

First of all I bet once  I leave the metro Boston area that bs will cease as will all the nonsense I get interfaced with. As location has a marked effect on my condition.


Secondly if that ideation in the last post isnt accurate then they are targeting the people they use in TIs ideas or paranoias or whatever, becuz if Targets believe such nonsense then they will feel the person in the ideation did such things for real and take it personally.


Second Time Given Ideations That I Can Never Visit TX Again

Great. Now i am getting this idea that I can't return to Texas becuz Barbara Bush doesn't like me.


Gee I didnt realize she owned the whole.of TX, including Austin.


Yeah this is the second time Ive been given the idea I cant go back to.Austin. That they will make.it 'difficult' if.I go thru there again.


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

EuroPeoples Should Deny All Influence From All Abrahamic Religions

http://www.bollyn.com/fearing-9-11-protests-netanyahu-cancels-us-visit/ Hey, as a blacklisted, wandering, nomadic outcast who's never really had a stable home I get it-the wanting to built a stable, safe place to call your own. I totally relate to wanting to implement racial and religious seperatist policies. I wish we Travelers and decent 'Homeless' could built such a place. An alternative to our host societies, a place to call our own. But we arent even allowed to have representation from within our communities. And the social worker types who handle us and represent us illegally force us to integrate with other homeless people who are severely mentally ill, drunks, crack addicts and unsavory without any character or of low intelligence and lack creativity. A large population of people who would have served as revolutionaries decades ago are now, by design, being kept down in the Homeless population here in America. No longer can people like us rise up and take action to create something alternative. The system now in place is so well informed, so readily aware of a potential leader coming up, that the Homeless Handlers always form coalitions before we can take grass roots action that are made up of them, not us or someone working for the system in our population is put into a position of responsiblity, not a true Homeless freedom fighter or revolutionary who will change the situstion. I of all people, can sympathize with Israel's motives at least the simple, basic ones. Safety, shelter, stability and family/kin/tribe. Yet displacing other people's is a problem. Its a very messy affair. You claim something is yours completely from so long ago. If only the Native Americans could do the same, eh? Yes, those war crimes are upsetting and wrong. Yet with what MY people have going on over here, its frustrating to see so many Americans concerned about foriegn affairs when there's a very unjust situation right under their noses. Israel and the Middle East are 'important'...and American homelessness is not. In part becuz the public only percieve America's Homeless issue as one of getting people housing or of curing mental illness/addiction.They dont even understand the human and civil rights issues- the legal issues that are present. The Homeless Industry and the government see to it that they never find out whats really going on. In this respect I wish the Middle East would just leave the rest of the world alone. In many respects: -Stop taking up so much attention and time from people who live outside that geographical area. -Stop allowing Middle Eastern religions, namely Abrahamic ones to rule, influence and command the minds of countless NON Middle Eastern people's world wide. If any people's have been enslaved without freedom for thousands of years, its Europeans, EuroAmericans and other populations of peoples of European descent. People protest that 'Whites' rule the world, but peoples of European descent are mostly under the influence of Abrahamic religions originating in the Middle East-giving all Middle Eastern peoples undue influence over our spiritual affairs thus our worldy ones as well. Btw-if you whine about people's of European extraction 'running the world' you are mistaken. There are numerous countries where power is dictated by other ethnic groups or races per say in their own regions namely. And if you want to create a powerful homebase well fine then. But then please proceed to pulling back all annoying, pushy Jewish activists who do things like dictate to Europeans and the like that Diversity is going to be thrust upon them as part of some new future WHEN ISRAEL AND JEWS PLAINLY HAVE THE OPPOSITE PLANS FOR THEIR OWN HOMELAND AND FUTURES. The Middle East and its religions could be accepted as part of Diversity in other areas of the world. Yet notice that wherever they are present they demand undue influence over their host country's peoples. From Christianity to Jewery and now Muslim extremists. Christianity has corrupted peoples world wide to the point of they identifying this MIDDLE EASTERN creation as part of their own identity, naturally. Thus the value of cult mind control and the campaigns of terror from the Catholic Church historically to force Europeans to mentally, emotionally and spiritually adhere to Christianity as part of their psyche for eternity it seems. Forever rendering Euro peoples easily handled, brainwashed, kept down and seperated from our power by birthright, from pagan heritage. If Israel wants to establish itself, especially through such means as Zionist terrorism, deception and coming on to Christians as some sort of brethren or spiritual originator via Christianity, then let them take 'home' with them all the decievers, the sabatouers, agents, operatives, manipulators and all undue influence that only serves to destroy and further enslave all NON Middle Eastern peoples. Its true that 'White' looking peoples can be found among various populations of the Middle East such as Afghanistan, Iran, Iraq etc. Interestingly, the current war efforts abraod are fast killing off those populations in great numbers. One wonders if these wars are about oil, land, politics alone...or is there something else? A ZIONIST OBSESSION WITH AT ONCE CLAIMING THROUGH WESTERN ACADEMIA THAT 'ARYANS' DO NOT EXIST BUT THROUGH WAR AND FOREIGN POLICY ENSURING THE LIGHT EYED, LIGHT HAIRED PEOPLES OF THESE ANCIENT CULTURES ARE DESTROYED, ENSLAVED AND WIPED OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH FOREVER? And at home, Jew inspired Liberal think, like Diversity and advertising to manipulate half asleep Christian EuroPeoples to race mix, not by individual choice but by design-the ethnic cleansing of the Middle East and beyond of so called 'Aryan' peoples? Perhaps they may want to wipe out any memory of other religions and belief systems that challenge thiers in historical significance, geographical location as well as can prove that the Judaism is a formely polytheistic religion that borrowed heavily from other religions of the ancient world in that region. Iraq is considered the cradle of civilization. All Ive seen over my lifetime and read about going on for decades before is the Jews and most Western cultures doing anything possible to destroy any remnance of ancient cultures, peoples or historical physical evidence of their existence. Islam does that very nicely as well. Its what existed in many Muslim areas BEFORE Islam thats important. Egypt, Iraq, Iran, north and East Africa etc. These three Abrahamic religions have destroyed countless cultures, peoples and historical structures of nominal importance so that now a great portion of the entire world is enslaved by these very destructive Big Three. The Jews want a homebase for their world wide operations of covert influence over other people's affairs. They should not be able to have both. Christianity has done enough to permanently damage the spirit of EuroPeoples everywhere. Enough is enough. Say no to a another thousand years of additional Abrahamic religious infleunce (such as Israel operating at full power, itself exclusionary, whilst dictating to EuroPeoples how to conduct our affairs) as well as the renewed threat of Muslim rule or influence. Be part of society yes. Take over-NO! Becuz if the NWO and 21st century is supposed to be about Equality, fairness and world peace the actions taken place historically only indicate more rule by terror, manipulation and brain washing....and yet more control from the Middle East over the rest of the world.

Italy Arrested CIA Agents, Kidnappings and Dickhead Cheney's Top Assassin-All Tools Of The NWO

http://decryptedmatrix.com/live/italys-cia-terrorists-crackdown/


All those dead children in those photos. The other two stories especially about Dickhead Cheney.

Forget that general McWhatever...more dangerous are Cheney's spoonbender Psi Warriors.


Fuck world politics, fuck the United States and death to ALL Abrahamic religions world wide.


Then these money grubbing scum behind all this CANT HIDE THEIR OPERATIONS BEHIND RELIGIOUS DIFFERENCES as excuses and a front for war and terrorism.


The bastards work globally only for profit and protection. Anyone really believing in religion even as ethnic identity whos willing to die for it is just a pawn on the chess board.


Abandon their entire system and its lies.  Stop being a sucker for the military industrial complex, globalists, organized crime and other self interested money grubbing scum.


The Liberal's Racial Code Word Guide/The Best Side To Choose Is To Refuse All Options Now Being Offered

http://michellemalkin.com/2012/08/31/the-condensed-liberal-handbook-of-racial-code-words/


Hey liked the last post. But the Liberal Handbook Of Racial Codewords is pretty dead on actually. 


These types of anti-racist nazis are actually part of the problem not the solution. Ive been gang stalked, harassed, black listed and shunned in Cambridge and Boston worse than many other places in the USA.  Anyone pushing for an agenda THAT DOESNT LEAVE PEOPLE ALONE TO MAKE UP THEIR OWN MINDS OR FORM COMMUNITIES AND RELATIONSHIPS BY FREE ASSOCIATION AND HUMAN WILL should not be trusted.


The Liberal Elites are in on this just as much as the Conservatives or Neo Cons. Harvard??  Please...these elite institutions are corrupt. Many places here are either connected to intelligence agencies, the military (MIT) and/or have had documented involvement in projects like MK Ultra. According to many TIs, these activities havent ceased.


Pushing Diversity and race mixing as part of a social engineering agenda is as disgusting and suspect as the discouraging of such practices just decades ago.


The northeast is full of the kinds of narcissistic morons that the last post writes about. Just becuz they arent racist doesnt mean they arent classist or willing to go along with corruption.


The Left and Liberals use race as a weapon.


This is why many TIs who dont fall for picking a party or ideology but are sane, critical thinking, sensible Centralists end up being targeted into appearing or actually being racist, anti Israel /Jew etc.


Mel Gibson is so obviously targeted.  Myself and others who go up against the military industrial complex and its related interests get the same program with the same results.


They WANT people to become terrorists, Neo Nazis, White or Black Supremacists-extremists.


It marginalizes us and takes away from us our original nature and way of thinking thats truly about making peace or living in a world thats balanced and sane.


Perhaps Mel Gibson had Catholic beliefs that were strict but so do Jews. And theres often someone from Israel present at board meetings in Hollywood to ensure content isnt harmful to Israel.


Its how good people are at hiding their agenda from the public and how strong they are in numbers and power to intimidate the public from taking interest in exactly what they are up to.


I noticed long ago that PATRIOTS AND ANARCHISTS in the USA were often operatives, agents and their clashes seemed only to cause diversions.


Just like the 'gang stalking' system seems to harass someone like me into choosing Satanism OR Christianity but nothing else, it seems that the system prefers people to choose a group to belong to such as political party, ideology etc.


There is no winning team or side thats right. Critically thinking, sane, sensible people with a true sense of justice who want a functioning, balanced, fair system are the winners. And we are a great threat to America and its system of waste, chaos and dysfunction.


FEMA Camps For Fools-If It Were Possible To Lock Away The Morons

http://www.veteranstoday.com/2012/09/01/fema-camps-for-fools-locking-away-the-morons/


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Ymca Huntington boston under big construction using this system in building/malecentric America

Yesterday, YMCA on Huntington in Boston.


Workmen doing constructon. Always feel interfaced there. In morning get harassed by older ladies attending classes there.  "Its like when u get in trouble for something and have to keep paying for it from now on." And being fake nice to me "i feel bad u have to sit in front of the shower to get dressed." I thought women  like that went out with the 1950s.  Its like that movie The Women with really old ladies jn the YMCA ladies locker room.


I actually caught some light skinned dark lady washing and messing around the sink a long time but looking and watching/listening to me in my shower stall. I often can sense people spying nowadwys  and sure enough she was doing just that. She hung her head shamefully when i caught her.


The locker room always gets very busy after i get there.  Women in there usually young clean cut women are always watching me and i am often made to feel uncomfortable but its mild. Yet constant enough to be effective in keeping me down psychologically.


When the male workmen came in yesterday to do something in the roof of women's locker room, THE INTERFACE STOPPED.


I felt a very positive vibe, very connected to them, their trade and the malecetricism that goes with it.


I realized that America will always be about supporting malecentric businesses like pro sports, military, constructon etc AND IS USING THESE TECHNOLOGIES IN ORDER TO ENSURE FEMININE INFLUENCES DONT INTERFERE like female grpups, professions or even the arts.


And getting outnof the country is the only way to be safe and thrive.


Monday, October 8, 2012

On The Joseph Kennedy Jr/Raytheon Post (sorry about spacing I will fix tomorrow..uuugghhh new blogger interface YOU SUCK)

I came by this story by way of trying to still figure out what the real deal was with Ted Kennedy. The timing of his joining FFCH and doing that video about MK Ultra was way to convenient. And he could have been bought off long ago either FOR Chappaquiddick by being set up, framed etc or possibly he could have murdered Mary Jo who formerly worked with Bobby and perhaps knew too much- thus maybe saving his own life and perhaps gaining the favor of some powerful people thus guaranteeing his life and career in future. http://prevarication.net/2010/01/mary-jo-kopechne-chappaquiddick-and-the-real-cover-up/

If this was the case, then he could have been working with the disinfo system that is so obviously part of Freedom From Covert Harassment around 2007,8 etc. Then again, he may have not known what FFCH was really about and genuinely wanted to help.

Its hard to tell with people from my own area. Catholics, the elite, criminals...they are so damn good here at deception. So good and conning, all with those angelic Irish faces. Those rugged Italian faces, supposedly honest and hard working but connected with dirty money. The mob guys make sure they act as sweeeet asss piiieeee. Its disgusting. After years away from this place, I see right through it and its gross. You can plainly see the bad guy within whos just a wrong move away from coming out (yes, YOUR wrong move that might offend him or her). I am genuinely sick of the north east's bullshit.

Yet, he died of cancer, shortly after getting involved in what seemed like my campaign. Like my grandfather he died while I was away.
 I recall seeing it on a paper in Berkeley CA wandering in Brokeland (Berkeley-Oakland) leaving a squat house wondering where to go next. That no longer mattered when I saw that front page. You always wonder if you are guilty for someone's death in this. I know they have murdered people trying to MAKE me feel guilty but that will never happen. THATS ON THEM. But when you doubt someone's efforts and distrust them such as I did with Kennedy, it always makes you feel bad that perhaps you should have trusted them.

Also I had this Pink Floyd song on my blog for years for my family. The entire song from ANIMALS that basically I dedicated to my family, my friends and the community. I believe it was something about animals- three different kinds. Pigs, dogs and something. In it venom is let loose on all these scumbags who obviously messed with Floyd or its members in various ways. One thing bothered me though was that one of the hated characters was described as "an old man/dying of cancer". Floyd was rubbing it in that this person was going to pay for his years of abuse of power by dying alone with cancer. That always bothered me. You have to remember, the incident I wrote about where in Buffalo NY, a man jumped from a building to his death and it seemed as if the system has a way of hacking into people with THETA programming to redirect that 'energy' if you will, to influence another person to act. I know its true, becuz part of me recalls that happening. Lets say, the part that isnt so human or nice. I assume this is why its important to do brain damage to the Survivor, to prevent us from being hacked and used in this manner. Whats odd is that it seems some form of tech is used to hack the human mind, to utilize its psychic abilities against the owner's Will. If a person has THETA, and is an assasin, they should not recall doing such things except under hypnosis or as a recalled memory. I had no recollection of doing such things before in my life. Other than the strange ability to curse people if they crossed me genuinely but I always thought that was just an oddity. Or some sort of Irish thing or something from the Europe- you know how women are witchy in these cultures as part of our pagan past. Its never admitted to openly though unless one embraces paganism.

So, that choice of music then he dies in that manner. And I ignored his efforts completely- but I know I had to. Becuz no one could be trusted at that time. If he was being genuine, he was being stupid so I left it alone. And if the perps wanted to do more spiritual and emotional damage with that as psych warfare, they succeeded. Which still doesnt matter becuz I DID MY JOB. I held my activism or whatever this is first and not personal feelings. Always when you get into the Kennedy's you can immerse yourself in something that seems like a mystery but never reveals its secrets. But its obvious they are there. The coincidences, circumstances.



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And in a family photo once again, a future president IS FEATURED STANDING DEAD CENTER IN THE GROUP, APPEARING SEPERATED FROM EVERYONE ELSE AS IF STANDING IN A DIVINE LIGHT. Ive found pics like this of Ford, Obama, Hitler and Kennedy. Its eerie. And what of the two on the sides who died, Kathleen and Joe Jr (whom this article was about linked above)? Did they die for reasons of necessity? To create the right circumstances or did they know too much about the family and perhaps seemed of a less predatory or compliant character than thier siblings and couldnt be trusted? Its odd...just looking at them in this pic they actually look like weak links among the family members. Joe's image is even fuzzy, weak. JFK's defined and clear. As if he and Kathleen would 'fade' out of the picture eventually in time.

I know people are lying now, just by listening to them. I used to know by way of being innocent enough to simply listen to my guidance system or just 'know'. Now I know, becuz I know how evil people can be, conscouisly. I see things now, in faces, circumstances and in photographs. I used to look at someone and know they were going to die. Old people were just as it goes but seeing children illuminated was not easy, yet, that was also Nature's will and way. Now I cant tell such things blissfully unconscious but I know by circumstances. I know by feel as a human being not a spirit.

 The damage this system does is to take away any and all innocence you have and damn you to a life fully conscious here on earth. To destroy all the things you had that kept you sane while you 'knew' things about time, space, places and people. Harvard Sq is especially difficult. There are so many places there where Revolutionary struggles still have energy hanging around. Corners, streets, houses. One apartment building on the way to my sleep spot is so black, such a void, that to go by it one can feel it sucks the moving and life energy from the space its in and it drains me just to pass by it. Almost EVERY TIME I PASS BY IT. Before I was equipped with self defense mechanisms so I would ignore such a presence or be able to 'ace' it spiritually and control its effect on me. This system doesnt save people's souls, it doesnt redeem people it doesnt turn Satanic children into Godly ones. It only ensures that WOMEN especially, cant be magickians. It ensures that people who have power cant have command of that power and cant protect themselves- we can now only live as victims of our surroundings.

Anyone who thinks that this isnt to benefit the worst factions of beings and people here on earth to help further the NWO is self delusional or a liar. If you are Christian or whatever you are and think GOD told you to be part of gang stalking a Target or you did it for Cause Stalking you have been used. The only people who want to ensure that the good guys cant counter their magickal prowess are the bad guys. The dark forces that are behind creating the NWO and enslaving mankind. But to YOUR deceived minds, you hear 'god' telling you to help destroy me or other Targets. Some idiot actually tried to suggest that my mother believes that God told her to do this to me.

THAT, I know from experience with that woman is either a cover from that very evil part of her that makes her do these things or she's exercising her sick sense of humor by thinking up things she knows stupid people will believe then laughing at them behind thier backs. My mother hates the public. She's hissed at me that she doesnt care about people. This is a woman who used to read book after book about serial killers. When asked why she claimed it was that she wanted to know one when she met one. After being a bartender in Allston for ten years with a brother who worked for the mob you'd figure she'd realize she's probably more likely to have met one back then in her youth than now. Or that she'd always be savvy enough to know one.
I knew the real reason was that she was studying them, and partially admiring them. And slowly I had to watch her years later put all she'd learned to use.
 After years of being kept from a good life, after years of being harassed, controlled, coddled yet abused and kept down this system starts to take a toll on the human spirit. MOST PEOPLE LOOSE THIER HUMANITY. Literally. You have no idea what a suffering, sad, sick person my mother has become. But she was not always this way- they made her this way. I had to watch her fall into being that creature. And for her to succumb to the behavior modification program that I am also in. You can read in my posts how I am starting to lose it to racism and religious hatred. I have a nice healthy hatred for fourth wave immigrants now too. But unlike my mother I react more like my father, I travel and keep things fresh instead of allowing them to make me sour to one environment's surroundings- I just leave and travel. MY FATHER HAS TRAVELED ACCORDING TO HIS SISTER TO VARIOUS PARTS OF EUROPE MOSTLY EASTERN EUROPE which I cant figure out, though he is polish and Lithuanian. He probably gets messed with over there too.

Just like in East Germany if you had a rebellious nature that cant be controlled like whichever parent you are more like who was a danger to the system in place, YOU WOULD BE TARGETED JUST LIKE THAT PARENT. Which is why my situation is so like Danny's. Which is also why its so easy to claim he's schizo, so am I, and its simply genetic.
Which laughably they so tried to intimate in the beginning of this going 24/7 but after years of my resistance they slowly knocked it down to Aspberger's, then to trying to convince me of being BiPolar with directed conversations on buses as of just a year or two ago lol. Hysterical. It just goes to show that if you DONT NEGOTIATE WITH TERRORISTS THEY HAVE TO MAKE THE MOVES OR LOWER THIER DEMANDS. Still they can go f*ck themselves.

I had to WATCH OVER YEARS that woman loose herself to this program. She used to be human. She used to have a soul in her eyes. She used to be her own person. And that was only intermittent I could see that in her- when she wasnt staring off into space kneading a meatloaf at the kitchen table, obviously PTSDing her ass off going through years of memories in her head, trying to deal with the stress of this system's demands on her as well as raise a child as well as her own issues- and we all know the truth: her own internal programming. I dont care if my own family is after me or whatever they are doing. I know damn well they are firstly none too bright and secondly they are very weak when it comes to breaking this ridiculous bond created by having one monster pedo predator parent and another manipulative very Catholic mother. The kids are gonna pick someone to be the saint and my grandmother played it very well. Like I posted before- expert in central control of the family. I dont trust her, I dont trust my dad's family certainly (Secret Service work for Kennedy? So, what about those claims they are also involved in Mafia? Another reason to be suspect of Kennedy's moves.)
 My paternal side. Ive seen them pull things before that were sneaky, manipulative and full of malice. I dont fuckin trust them for shit. If they wanted to help me all those years they would have contacted me. They always acted like they knew what was up with my mother's family. Or they were just..sneaky and up to something somehow. Do you see now why I would rather be back with my sleazy friends and my old lover again? At least I knew what they were going to pull and how selfish they were and what backstabbing they were capable of. When people who share your DNA make themselves seem more akin to some crazy, surreal aliens on planet X compared to treating you like a real human being, its better to be around the sleaze bags you know and can control who DONT have the same DNA. That really hurts when people who look like you genetically and have the physical bond of sharing the same flesh do those things. They are extremely dangerous compared to just friends. Whatever Jake or Julie were doing was a joke compared to the sneaking around and mysterious nonsense my families have always been up to. Or having to watch my mother twist into such a sick person. I'll get this system for that too. She was potentially a beautiful person.

 I used to tell her to become an advocate if she wanted to change things so damn badly and stop talking about it. She'd reply just like Julie "I cant". Julie would say of staying in the business "I have to". Both of them so tethered. Whats the worst these jerks can do, kill you? Destroy your life? Drive you nuts? So what? FREEDOM AND EXERCISING YOUR WILL IS WORTH REBELLING. Its as if this system believes everyone who's from a 'bad' family (ie- cant afford to pay off big to cover thier crimes) deserves to be in thier debt and employ for generations. Piss off. They really believe they own us all. Well, they can certainly try.

And you dont have to become a Christian either- in fact I think its a very reactionary, suspect move. When you've got perps coming up to you first asking "Where's your God now?" (snicker) and sporting t-shirts with Satanic logos (which they as agents obviously opened up recently due to the folds still in the shirt-duuuhhh), then years later its getting bombarded with Jesus content and Christian crap, and people coming up to you on the sidewalk going by saying "If only you would become a Christian!"...but wait! I thought you were godless Satanists!! WA HAPPENED????? LMFAO. Then of course recently the whole Jew encounter where after hearing me listening to Va playing a song Angel Tears, some Israeli song I happen to like, they start approaching me with some guy with a slightly foriegn accent advising me (almost threatening me with) becoming a Jew becuz "all the greatest women in Jewish history werent Jewish, they were converts!" Are you getting a laugh out of this?
 WHAT THEY FUCK DOES ANY OF THAT HAVE TO DO WITH DARPA, 9-11 AND RAYTHEON AND OTHER MILITARY CONTRACTORS BEING IN ON NOT ONLY 9-11 BUT OBVIOUSLY THE NWO AND ALONG WITH ACADEMIA, USING MK ULTRA AND ALL ITS FINDINGS IN THIER GOALS to control populations world wide- to rule the world. Its all diversion and behavior modification??!!! To ensure that those of us who are here to fight cant, thats why.
 Remember, its to neutralize an enemy. And even though we are the good guys, on the right side of this- when you go up against a major powers and authority if you simply are against thier agenda you are a terrorist. You are an enemy. Note how I use thier advice against them. Bush told us not to give in psychologically to terrorism. Well, I didnt go shopping lol, but I did take part of his advice. Isnt it interesting what a rebel Bush the younger is anyway. He has done more to out this system than anybody- he even gives advice on how to counter it, along with alot of bullshit (go shopping) so you have to know whats valuable and whats not. If he wasnt so overtly obnoxious would anyone have known or be as offended by what was going on? I think Bush has alot of resistance internally or some at least and alot of guilt about being part of this as his family has been for generations. He can be as evil as he wants but Ive seen that guy, once before this all went 24/7 on tv, walking up to his mother and father to greet them publicly. There is something wrong with that family. I dont care what people say or what they claim or how good they make it look. Bush the younger seems to actually possess some sort of humanity whereas his parents fully go along with the agenda as, whatever creatures they are. Perhaps they are simply products of thier time- a time that is now up in the world and its politics. He was apprehensive about shaking his father's hand and his mother had this incredible sense of..denial in her spirit and body language. I can see her shunning anything that might have gone wrong at any time in that family. Recently I saw some video of one of the grandkids, the girls there, crying, with Bush the elder crying and everyone CRYING...it was ridiculous. One of the girls said "Why are we such CRYERS??!". Do you really want to know why? If you ever started to know why, you would cease to exist. You'd be either killed or driven nuts and committed or discredited and sent far out of the spotlight of that family. I had to grow up with that for years. I hate those lies and the stupidity of asking why. Its becuz there is a pain so great that you do not see that you are not accounting for within you that is expressing itself through this life, that seems so simple that you think is all there is to you. The Bush's put on such a great facade. I really want to believe it. I do, I want to be just like them. Their kind of people's lives looks so much easier, so attractive....so much more damn suited to my tastes than this. But then, that would be buying into a deception- and all the years of work up til I got targeted 24/7 was all about being free of that. I wont stop now, no matter how bleak everything looks. Its hard becuz, part of me sympathizes with the elite. I cant stand the proles. I cant stand the nobodies and the common scum that get to make fun of me. That think they know whats going on or DO and are part of it to make money off of me. I agree they are stupid have no morals and are largely of bad character and low intelligence. Part of me especially in youth hated them so severely, I would do anything to be away from them. Like party and stay up all night just to not have to be part of thier 'day world'. Even now it horrible and they are horrible. I suppose wealthy people are working during the day but in my position its not they I would have been around. It wouldnt have been possible anyway. But I see there are good people among the total idiots out here. There are wolves among the sheep like me, like us that are smart, cunning and deserve to know whats going on. There are people who genuinely are intelligent enough to know something is off and they ask why the country could do such things- and why isnt anybody doing anything about it? Its impossible to just leave the people that are out here unprotected to just suffer this when they want answers. Its not fair. They arent like the others, they arent stupid, totally greedy, self absorbed jerks who believe what they are told or are stupid but self assured- in order to get what they want from authority. And as it works out they are probably the only people who are going to pay attention to my writing or my final product anyways- I know all the scum will simply go along with this or people who are too stupid to care whats actually going on. Its wrong that so many people have died and had thier lives ruined so that DARPA and Raytheon and all these families and companies can keep making money off of the cult of death known as the military industrial complex. And ultimately, as in the real world, in the spirit world, youve got spiritual policemen. Its why myself and so many other people who this has happened to relate so much with St Michael. And I am not Christian. It just comes up naturally. I noticed in a police station once a statue of St Michael The cops must use this as some patron Saint. Ive never been one of those people whos a wanna be cop so dont even try to say I am trying to pretend to be one. I may suffer a bit of Stockholm Syndrome or results of years of behavior modification due to having the cops as such a part of the intimidation and content in my program but I did not originally begin as such. My mother was always the one hanging out with people we now call First Responders. I couldnt STAND her seeking out male authority like that- I thought it was weak. I always wanted to cling to strong, intellectual females- usually rich kids gone bad but still doing something to bring them power. Strong communicators like me. The short of it is that even though Ive heard many Satanists claim there are no rules- there are. YOU CANT USE TECHNOLOGIES TO ENSLAVE MANKIND. If that were the case it would have been that easy by nature and natural design on this planet, not by being technomancers. If this planet were supposed to be ruled by such people as are trying to rule it now it would have been DESIGNED that way from its inception. The dark forces are supposed to challenge and perhaps strengthen man, and to take out the weakest ones. Not rule over ever human being as if its THIER domain. Everything that dark forces can do to humans in deceiving them traditionally and historically is how its supposed to be. Its NOT supposed to be as easy as using cell towers or chem trails or obsessing them with technologies which then train them like mindless monkeys. There is this theory I keep getting from what seems like the Masonic factions in this: that soon the planet will be uninhabitable or that its time for man to move on to space or other worlds etc. To do this man must be controlled and the primitive urges that he used to survive here on earth must be removed from his nature or controlled. Even hybridising him with technologies. Yet, its all by THIER design. Its also all about removing man from his state of self containment into this hive with all other humans in humanity. Humans have to Will, no choice, no individuality. Its nothing but an empty promise and a golden cage. Why must torture and torment be used as methods of controlling society? Constant, normalized torture. They are trying to breed the humanity OUT OF HUMANS is what they are trying to do. They are playing god and deciding by what designs humans will become formed to. THEY DECIDE. Not us. In this process we lose our spirits and perhaps whatever it is that we have deemed our souls. It seems more likely that the elite involved in this want only to create slaves for thier worlds abroad in space just as they have always done here on earth. These ideas are probably going to be received as Christian in nature. Yet what was man before Christianity? Whatever he was through the ages that survived and thrived is NOT what they are creating or allowing to exist in the NWO.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Today speaking to someone made me think of when i wud b with my maternal grandmother. Once she said to me "Thats the truest thing you've ever said"...as if I lied about everything all the time. Ok so addicts lie when they are active. So what? Her son was active for years. Way worse than I. Her daughter my mother was an outright liar and trying to be manipulative. So why was I always so horrible?


I heard from someone early on in this that my family's cruelty to me was infamous.


So why would anyone not believe me? My mother's family were always shunning me and degrading me, always keeping me down and trying to make me think I wasnt smart.


If my grandfather was such a monster to his children and my uncle worked for the mob in some violent capacity then why am I such a bad person in comparison?


My grandmother actually was the cause of alot of the unrest and deceptions among members of my family.  She was the one who had central control. Who would lie, cover and manipulate people.  She was the one who was controlling that family. And she knew what her husband did to her children and still she coddled him and encouraged her children to do so.


Why was everything disbelieved that i would say or claim when in fact the people in that family of bad character were my uncle, my grandfather? My aunt was a prostitute for years...yet she never got labeled, targeted or mistreated. My mother is obviously a child abuser and has claimed privately to have been associated with a crime organization- "the syndicate" she said.


Yet my grandmother is the person most resembling someone involved in spying. Having such a talent for central control over many people and for diplomacy is no small feat.


She coddled my grandfather despite his crimes against her children yet Ive heard her saying derogatory, snobbish things in reference to him, as in bragging about her position in the US Marines with her working with generals in her position and my grandfather just being a fighter out on the field. "To someone like him, that was, you know, impressive....".


Someone like him?? A country boy from a Europeans house servants in New Orleans who used to live near a bayou, who called Cajuns his friends. Her New England Yankee snobbery was apparent, yet this man she put above her own children.


I know my maternal family. Ive always known they were fucked up, self deluded, illogical and compartmentalized. Of course when I would see through this and counter it with my tendency towards having my father's DNA which was totally foreign to them, they would of course squelch any logic or rebellion (or common sense) by shooting out quickly and sternly that I now sounded like my father. 


Just becuz u work for Italians breaking legs or have babies with one doesnt give you the insight and abilty think as one. And Eastern European people arent stupid, they actually excell in the sciences and politics. Especially rebelling and not giving in, at any cost, against authority.


So why is it as the prettiest, most talented, smartest person by DNA and life experience in that family, am I the one living on the street for years on end, discredited and now becoming ill physically?


Becuz its taken a major effort of literally thousands of people involved in a covert network spanning the USA, part of the conspiracy started here at home, to even destroy me to just this point.


And people want to believe my maternal family and not me. Becuz some faction in power has helped that family cover their asses and engineered it so that they win and I lose even though I had more power and resources within me than they all have as a family unit.


Who protects this scum? Their precious syndicate? This would fit in well with the kinds of people and locations in which i get harassed. And that perhaps organized crime and intelligence services do indeed work together, as shown by the Iran Contra scandal.


Ive been told by kids Ive met travelling who u can tell are in on this, though they feel much worse about the situation than perps who are overt or strangers do. They have said that what will become of me is that I will become a controversial writer.  That is all I am going to be able to accomplish with my life, when I had so much more to me than that?


With my health deteriorating I now  more clearly percieve the loss of my faculties, all I had going for me and the loss of years.


Rebecca in St Louis MO told me that I come from a family of jealous women anyway. As if this is some rationale for the horrible experiences I have had.


How does a family sell a child out to human experimentation? Or programming? This 'syndicate' spoken of?  What doesnt make sense is this same woman who thought she was such a badass, my mother, seemed to not know the full scope of her being a radiation experimentee as connected to MK Ultra when her status as military experimentee was discovered by her.


People at the Dept Of Energy led her like a child (very common in her case) and then, when she was going to join the class action lawsuit, dropped it outright, claiming she was "followed". She even said "I was followed" in the manner of a child caught doing something wrong but with a tad of her sick sadistic scense of humour. How controlled by authority ARE these people? Doesnt justice account for anything or countering the abuse of power??


Then she equates my being gang stalked with harassment from the syndicate. She had me in the car alone during early Bush years when this went 24-7.


"When I was working with the syndicate, I always took the harassment to mean 'know your place, bitch'".

First of all it really shows she was beaten down by male authority in early childhood, it also shows a creepy identification with the aggressor(s). I'd heard her talk like an abusive male many times before.


Since when does the syndicate get an entire perp group into a Greyhound bus in the Southwest, gas a Target through the air vent in the ceiling then experiment on them??? Then gas the person again to awaken them.


It seemed like me knowing my place wouldnt have saved me from this fate anyway.


Its possible she is so compartmentalized and controlled that she genuinely cannot make the connections or make sense of the situation.


When I have plates breaking by themselves in my apartment and Satanic content, specifically that connected to the Church Of Satan, not other factions invading my apartment in Brighton, there is something a bit bigger going on than some mafia bs.


Ive had multiple people intimate that its mafia based and that the entire campaign of Satanism etc is just illusion to freak me out.


Some homeless scum in Barbara McGuinness once made fun of me by saying "...and she would actually believe it too." Of all the stuff people try to put out there. Yet these are usually low lifes from homeless populations here in MA around Boston. 


I actually dont believe things that I know are meant to freak me out but Ive seen things and lived though things much more extreme than the bullshit that MA locals try to mindf*ck me with. In real life. Usually in places far from MA like the midwest or southwest. Also what I experienced in my apartment though it really happened,  much of the content was obviously from druggings or the use of the tech so documented by the TI community. Or, Cheney's 'Spoonbenders', the psychic agents who work for the elite, or government Ive never clarified which.


This is far bigger than something local.  Actually i can imagine foreign investors who own us now or organized crime would do something like this to people.


I suppose looking at the situation now, Ive become aware of the situation in its entirety becuz I am.more intelligent, multitalented, Willful and conscientious.


My other maternal family members could never come this far. Still, its hard to keep from wanting revenge. They certainly deserve it.


But whats the point of beating subservient dogs? Who only know how to cower at their master's feet?


People side with my maternal family becuz we as Americans have become a country of wimps, too controlled, scared and weak to stand up for our country and its orignal culture against the real foriegn invaders-corporations. And people like Bush and Co whove committed so many war crimes against Americans.


My family represents your average compliant,wimpy American who cant stand up to corruption, who sides with dirty cops just becuz they have badges-for their own profit and protection.


I get called trouble maker. My mothers family gets to have great lives.


Yet Ive not yet begun to cause trouble btw.


And my family, by my position now in this I see-were always inferior to me in talent, looks, intelligence and most of all, guts.


So I in a way have come to my proper place, as oil rises in water. Its better.than 'knowing your place'. Especially as dictated by a malecentric bunch of dirty murdering criminals WHO ARE ALLOWED TO EXIST by the true powers that be.


I still want revenge for the damages done by MA s


Mit no loss anyways

Its impossible to get anything done at MIT I now realize.


They have the computer access i need but the mold in the Rogers Bld as well as the materials they r using for construction on the dome effect my health to adversely. Causes bad sinus hearaches. That turn into bigger headaches.

Cant take medicines remember due to allergies-no pain relievers, nothing.


Aside from that, the remote influence there is just ridiculous. Its Sysco Systems all over the building-might as well forget about getting anything done.


And in the architecture library i always feel monitored to the point of distraction, from my left side as if something behind me and to my left watching.


The Engineering library  is a bit better. But also there i always get off the focus of wby i came to use computers.


Saturday, October 6, 2012

Advising A New TI Brings Back Old Tactics To My Sleep Spot

Been alot of beeping going by my sleepspot making it hard to get constant deep sleep.


There was a woman i met supposedly a TI who i gave alot of my advice to.

I figure ir helps if shes genuine, doesnt matter if shes just mentally ill and if shes an info gatherer etc then the system already knows anyway.


I am starting to really see that any place thats at all connected to the mental health system is not trustworthy.


Gotta remember that they actively cover for this system- keeping Targets down and unethical human experimentation.


It could b becuz the women's center in Cambridge has always seemed  monitored anyway.


Its some beeping but its alot of beeping twice like in the old days.


Often Impatient people Beep at the light But not this often or consistently


Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Hit hard and constant lately in boston/Cambridge

Hit hard last few days with interface. Constant, typical of this location.


Lots of using famous people's approval or disapproval of my actions or even thoughts to cause behavior modification. The Truman Show theme or reality is used.


Becuz how wud these people see me or know what i am doing? ESPECIALLY THINKING.


A psychic or mind reading reality show, huh?


What nonsense.


Again, this only happens within metro boston/Cambridge city limits and never on Sundays, holidays or after approx 12 midnight to approx 6am.


Monday, October 1, 2012

Is this becuz of that townie from Watertown David Trischitta who's daddy was a cop who got pulled into all this mess becuz of my and my ex's carelessness? Well, he shouldnt have been renting out an illegal living space anyways. And i used to get fucked with in that job by perps anyways.


Once again the little network around here can go to hell.


U all fucked me over in favor of the real criminals who could pay off. EVERYONE IS GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT THEY HELPED DO TO DESTROY MY LIFE.


FUCK U AND ALL YOUR CONNECTIONS AND TOWNIE FRIENDS. MA thinks it can b as crooked as it wants and get away with scapegoating people.


U r gonna get yours.