I cant get that out of my head: the arrogance of it- "You're going to have to try something else" or "what you're doing isnt working". Mind your own business.
What would these losers have me do, return to my old lifestyle? I am sure they would love that as proof of the effectiveness of thier system to run bitches into the ground until they start behaving again.
The old squat got blown but it was unhealthy anyway. Two days ago someone left a box there with old sneakers, a book by Niezsche and LaVey's Satanic Bible.
Niezsche with the Satanic Bible was so cliche it was worse than a sit com..I took the Niezsche book becuz he had a brain and I tore up the 'bible' becuz LaVey was an idiot.
Oh yes, post McCarthy ism 1950's lets look like Lenin to freak everybody out. Dont forget the theatrics..and his close relationship with Aquino. And then one has to ask who his real employers were.
His daughter does not piss me off however for some reason, and I have seen her in interviews sujecting herself to being asked questions by biased, annoying talk show hosts. I often wondered if she does not purposely go along with such a thing just in order to become rebellious and contrary in the face of such people's attitudes. Why not just get someone who is totally neutral or even someone sympathetic? In these instances of course I find the interviewer annoying...but her and her werewolf husband are kind of scary. But not...totally unfamiliar to what has always been on our planet.
I just dont understand work a day Judeo Christian society having such a problem with thier existence...and if so then do something about it. The interviewer treated them both like children and was sort of scolding them for believing in such things.
Its like sensible adults in the normal reality dont want to admit such forces exist- which is stupid becuz as you can plainly see it only affords them ultimate power. Denial is great tool to hide behind.
What is annoying is though is that I looked through the copy of the 'bible' and noted that there wasnt a page in there that I know I had seen before. Perhaps I was tired from just getting up and missed it as I skimmed. The page I was looking for had a symbol on it..one that I recall did indeed have a charge to it and seemed to establish a spell in this dimension as it was in my possession- which of course would not be possible probably without all the techno tricks they can use now.
Its one of the weirdest parts of my story.
In the beginning of all this in that apartment I lived in it seems that some sect of Satanism decided to start getting cute with me..I was compelled at one point to go out and purchase a copy of that book which is bs becuz years ago I looked at it and knew it just was not for me. It seemed..uh, silly. Or somehow lacking in some sort of energy I require. Much of is read as if it were contrived or plagerized and it had a darkness to it that seemed fabricated. It wasnt 'evil' so much as it was..distant. vacant. Empty or lacking. It may be fine for some people to study but it just was not my thing. I was attracted moreso to Hermetics and something more complicated yet very simple- dark as well as light.
So it pisses me off along with every thing else that has happened that I was so influenced as to go and pick up a book that I knew years ago was not for me or not something I liked to read. THAT might be one of the most punishable offenses in all of this- dont fuck with books. There is something about books I take very seriously. I sleep with books for comfort and I have had dreams repeatedly of strange interesting places with books in them- and I am ALWAYS welcome to read or possess knowledge- no matter what else is going in my life.
So to have some sort of weird remote influence by forceful means get me to take a book into my possession or my home (temple) that I had Willfully decided decades ago was not part of my collections, is a definate indicator that somehting is very wrong and whats going on is NOT natural.
And its so insulting..LaVey? Now there is an indication that people believe you to be just white trash right there. The Church of Satan is not exactly high status in the long magickal history of humans is it? It was like being sent to the county jail to do time- just plain embarassing.
Hmmm, what do you think the Egyptians or the Babylonians would have thought of a carny con man from an era as contrived as 'The 60's'? Lacking in taste? Most certainly.
Death would have been preferable..anything is preferable to something that 'cheap'. And it wasnt even pulled off with the obvious sense of humor or weirdness that LaVey himself had a touch of obviously. It was so damn dramatic and oohhh, heavy. Oooo, SCARY. Fucking Halloween or some sh*t. Fucking embarassing really.
There is one thing you morons have to understand about eastern European people and Slavs- there is always an innate humor- a bizarre absurdity that comes with everything we do- its purpose may most likely be becuz being smart we can afford buffonery or so we like to think. Putting dead seriousness into something like LaVey's work just smacked of inauthenticity. Fools were up to something but I did not quite know the extent of it then.
Most laughable, and amazing as to how it was pulled off, was a dream sequence I woke up to that lasted throughout my morning hours of his daughter, who in 2004 or so in my strange experience, still had her dark hair, drew me in and it was being attempted to convince me that if I only would ask of her father I would recieve thinsg that I wished to have- but the whole thing was so....petty and I definately felt like more of a prisoner than I ever had in my life before. There was something very limited about my existence in this strange..er, 'place' or dimension. I wasnt going for it thats for sure.
The most amusing part of this con was the perception given that LaVey now resided in what we would call 'Hell' but he had his own little level of it- like an efficiency apartment or condo gift from Satan.
It must suck being put into a little dimension when I read recently that he was convinced he was going to reside next to Satan in Hell. Satan's condos. Interdimensional condo's for the metaphysical after life- get yours now.
I was not about to spend any life on earth or any of eternity with Anton LaVey in what metaphysically amounted to a creepy basement apartment so I fought these ideations and visions. This I believe was an early attempt at what TI's are experiencing now as 'remote influence'. And yes, I believe its either normal person's messing with tech or psychics messing with tech as amplifiers. It was all to false and contrived, and I believe I looked it up after wards years later and his daughter's hair had been blonde for some time.
Right there is a dead giveaway that its this system..this system seems to use the target's memories and imagination against them in whatever present program they are laying down on the person.
The only danger is if you buy into it or believe its real. And it cant possibly be mere mental illness as its onset is too quick and its far too complicated.
The other thing that was very theatrical was a plate breaking by itself when I was eating off of it...another trick most likely pulled off with either tech or someone with the power to do such things. I was a bit disturbed at that but I ignored it just like everything else. Its not outside the realm of possibility to pull off such a thing and it was a petty move just like all the other things whoever was behind this pulled off. Pulling a few magic tricks is not going to drive me insane or...what did they expect? That I would go to the cops and start telling them my dishes are breaking? Who gives a f*ck really?
My death and sex fantasies make all those shananigans look like the cheap parlor tricks that they are. Now THOSE are impressive.
Plus there was something slightly creepy about a few episodes of Sea Lab on Adult Swim but that had degenerated from Gen X enjoying the revenge of destroying cheap 60's Hanna Barbara cartoons into something much more stupid and useless that wasnt fun anymore. We did it becuz in the 70's we were just shoved in front of the most fucked up shit you can imagine like The Banana Splits or that weird show with the kid with hte magic flute..now THAT was evil- while our parents just got stoned and neglected us. We were having a great time with cynicism and apathy getting revenge on them and grunge was worse than punk for them so that was great...we did it to be reactionary not to form a next generation of dumbasses who didnt care about anything. It was supposed to be done much tongue in cheek and alot of it was to scare Baby Boomers out of revenge for our crappy 70's childhoods and hten them running off into YUPpie land and recovery when Reagan woke them up from thier nappy naps and AIDS scared them off the dance floor. Your not supposed to fully BELIEVE it for f*ck's sake, damn. Now we have these following generations that are truly apathetic and thats also thanks to big pharma. I kinda wish we hadnt had any influence on the younger kids, but hell, we were trained very early on in life to believe nukes were going to take us out anyway so who carers?
The kids today tell me that growing up with Bush in office is thier version of nukes or that nuke affect--nobody does anything about corruption so 'why bother'? The system will always find something to perform this function on the young before they get a chance to come into youth and rebel or take power.
Weird crappy tv, plates breaking and LaVey's basement apartment in Hell- it doesnt really amount to full on Armageddon does it? And it was an absolute waste of tech and I cant imagine the money it took to provide those amusements for whoever was involved.
I think the purpose was some sort of attempted set up- Scott kept saying that this obviously very Celtic purple cloth wall hanging I had in my living room was Satanic. "He would squint and say "That looks very satanic". Scott is a former gay prostitute who does alot of jail terms for strong arm crimes he's dumb enough to get caught doing- personally I think his gay side likes the action of all those big strapping men in blue manhandling him. A cop told me once that many people they deal with regularly "get off on this kind of thing"..which is totally strange to me. Plus it is a waste of tax money. His levels of understanding crime are above mine but his ability to study esoteric subject matter is lacking and one sees that reflected in his lifestyle and the way he conducted himself. He was an idiot, his family of pervs are as well and their white trash status can leave me out thank you very much.
And to think he claims to be part Irish- but refers to ancient Celtic symbolism in such a way...I smell a traitor to the ancient ways.That might be his greatest crime of all. He also had a habit of exclusively befriending certain people that cannot be described at all as Irish but certainly as a 'tribe'. Like I said- a traitor to the ancient cultures.
The whole thing may have been to make me appear I was into cheap Satanism..the only indication of this would be a local homebum in Cambridge some years back who intimated that my listening to heavy metal or any such genre was akin to "people still hang onto it even after it destroys thier lives". Once again trying to make this out to be my doing via something I got associated with upon my own Will or that association with (cheesy) Satanic forces were what caused my misfortune.
Of course this reeks of giving all the power over TO such forces to begin with for any involvement in messing up my life or interfering where they should not have been able to...his attempts at deception were as pathetic as I have come to expect with the people we TI's now know as 'perps'.
Always a bit shy of completing thier masterpiece or thier mastery of deception, which of course is comparable to a paint by number piece- DaVinci I believe was far from one of Satan's butt boys.
And conventional Christianity is a reactionary meunevier for the weak Willed and the weary in battle, which I why I wont be swayed as that being an answer to my problems. Also when you have young kids saying shit in passing in malls like "Your god has abandoned you" or something similar its great to laugh at them inside and know that they are the one's obviously stupid enough to be brainwashed by thier country's mainstream culture that dictates such things. Like I said, many perps are only associated with part of a TI's story.
Am I too assume this is more Satanic white trash? Becuz that statement intimates that THEY have a different got. Its called the god of stupidity and they were definately born of his image. Lord Dumbass I calleth on the powers of Thee. Bestow on me your servant the power of buffoonary and render me ultimately moronic and lacking in all higher intelligence so that I may kick my own ass in the process by such feats and living in the USA and believing in a pop culture movement of psuedo Satanism, which of course the JUDEO Christian controlled meda would never allow me to seek the full force or fierceness of my ancestral beast within anyway as a means of unbreakable and constant social control.
DUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHH. So Mote it Be, like I saw on that LZ album I turned backwards, wow dude I am such an outlaw and a Satanic 'playa'.
Its a great ploy within psychological warfare however as it makes me feel totally embarassed, robbed of status, cheapened and taken out by stupid people just becuz they have smart mobs and work in a huge group. It really had destroyed my morale at one point, but years later you keep seeing how lacking they are and how it takes like many of them.
Unless of course the whole thing is a final laugh on the Target as I just revealed a shit load of info including my methods for dealing with problems as well as how much I know about occult subject matter or as my mother said to me during all this "I am very interested in the way your mind works"..so all this could be in the end to gain confession or information from the Target via a long drawn out campaign of trauma. In order to survive the TI must relive and handle those memories and then be rid of them..
which is strange considering that is what I was trying to do with the trauma that I already had memories of before all of this occured.
Its obvious that this whole ordeal is the make sure hte target never gets anywhere in life , that they can never use thier inner knowledge or secrets for thier own private life building but must reveal, for free in public, the info they could have used to built a life or a career for themselves. Its also a diversion ultimately. Instead of working on true art projects that could gain success and built a life for myself during the best years of my life I have been forced to suffer and be kept destitute while working very hard at producing work, which I do for free while living in the street and also I am throwing all my information out to the public as to rob myself of it permanently instead of use it to produce other artworks.
This system wants to deny hte TI any privacy or ability at having any secrecy which of course prevents them from ever having any power.
All the excuses amount to nothing- that the person must be deprogrammed and re-brainwashed in this way or its a necessary behavior modification program or they need to learn responsibility or they did something or are hiding info and this makes them dangerous so they must be forced to purge that info etc.
I recall when I had my tooth pulled on of the ghetto bitches involved in this who also works for St Francis house as staff was at the dentists office- she kept saying that all the pain I was going through and trauma getting the tooth pulled was becuz I needed to learn to grow up or something like that.
This excuse has been used very prevelantly especially by the blacks involved in gang stalking. What I want to know is WHO THE FUCK GAVE THEM ANY AUTHORITY OVER A WHITE WOMAN AND WHO GAVE THEM ANY IDEA THAT THEY HAD SUCH AUTHORITY OR THAT THEY KNOW OR UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ABOUT WHITES TO BEGIN WITH. Who in the f*ck do they think they are? That is the other worst part of this--outsiders having any control over me at all. What do young stupid white kids or blacks know about ME anyway? They are certainly NOT my peers.
The perps who have been honet with me tell me that "They are jealous of you" is the real reason that I have been made to suffer so.
And if I ever find out who 'they' are or even any singled out members of 'they' I want revenge in a big way. Who ever told any of these people that they have dominion over ME?
That is a horrible mistake that has to be corrected, and I believe I have done some work on putting these people in thier proper place, in proper perspective but much more needs to be done.
The work is not finished as some things are still not in balance and are grossly out of place: DaVinci was not a peasant who bought into low magic folklore. They have painted themselves too large and its not in perspective- its not 'true'. Its gross idealization.
They need to be whited out and painted over until the picture is done properly and the balance is once again present. Espeicially that little green, scrawny green eyed serpent that should be under the feet of the female element- Isis if you will, in our world not wrapped around it running things. And tech gives them that advantage now which is why things are grossly unbalanced.
Chaos is one thing- that is a needed element in our world and dark experiences may force us to grow or wake up and see something we did not before. But all out heavy handed control from weaklings who have to hide in large groups...just spells out its time to cut down thier numbers. Get yer old swords out its time to cut up dragons...and these are not the few respectable ones that are dangerous nor are they the old wise ones we may learn from...these seem to be a creature that is on the whole pretty pathetic, weak, imatative and sniveling that are mere cells making up a larger organisim. They are a disease if you will.
Its time to cure.
Really I just pictured myself as a soul who had moved on from battles and much more diplomatic than that...its so old now. Its really boring. Its fun to f*ck with these idiots when I can but really on the whole I am quite tired of humanity and thier never ending same results time after time. Just writing how this works may be enough and those that like slavery are welcome to it, those that dont can learn how to counter a now psychocivilized society. Its all about your own Free Will, which really seems the greatest threat to whatever powers rule this country now. And I can tell that from the constant pathetic attempts to continue to get psych me into choosing either Satanism or Christianity as an identity.
Why so limited? Probably becuz both have male dieties and are monothestic. A king only will do and that fits in with how much bullshit sexism runs rampant right now as part of the rule of American culture.
You can worship John Wayne, Reagan, Kennedy, Satan, Jesus, Elvis or God kids its up to YOU...or so we want you to believe. As long as its a MALE and its singular.
I smell more bullshit....
And of course the results of me writing this may be that every idiot with any money or power in on this is pleased with himself. Its just one of those disgusting facts of the situation one must deal with..and its obvious purpose is more diversion. People must feel they have been given a piece of the TI or own them in some way, in order to ensure that they never reach thier power potential on thier own. The people who are given the illusion of authority over the target serve as links in the chains that keep them down. It would not surprise me if this goes on over generations with intergen targeted persons. The morons who feel they have some power over the family members must be retained for control over the target- but its obvious that its the power of the targeted person they fear most.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Boston will always be a culture of corruption..and spoiled brats
Gang stalking must be the ultimate expression of bratiness. A way of punishing someone that got in the way of you getting your own way even if it was illegal or wrong, immoral or unethical. Or ensuring that you GET your own way ultimately.
I am lying here at 230am just getting to sleep after finally figuring out how to arrange my tarp around a building. I have lots of people around me so I am not afraid of rape or robbery- besides I grew up with the concept of these things being common in northeast cities.
This is also a point I should touch on. To people not from NY or Boston the idea of being savvy about street crime is horrifying, to us its the way we have been raised for generations and it has never interferred with our enjoyment of life. What people should be worried about is how much corruption is at govt of all levels that no one is allowed to question due to it having been cleaned up in recent years so giving the impression that just becuz the old ways of doing things are not so prevelant, that there is no corruption these days. Perhaps certain states have changed the way they do things but for instance what about the US military or the Pentagon. Govt bodies like Senate or Congress ask them directly how they cannot account for millions of dollars and they give no answer.
What I have discovered is that people can only go so far whistleblowing and confronting until they get intimidated by the threat of being targeted. I now understand that anyone who understands how things really work knows that organized stalking and harassment exists as a system used to ensure silence about corruption. The public generally dont need to know as they are not privvy to sensitive information.
The sounds of jack hammers and a generator over at the MBTA 2nd station in Harvard Sq they are rebuilding is keeping me awake and I dont recall this sort of noise on other nights but I am not in this location every night either.The police and Fire were here earlier just for one slightly drunken older man who hit his head and only wanted a cab to take him home. After much fuss they finally got him into an ambulance.
I called the police with a city ordinance that says no noise 50 feet from the site after 7pm I believe, weekdays- with any emergency work exempt. http://www.cambridgema.gov/deptann.cfm?story_id=63
They immediately told me to call MBTA police to see if they were doing any emergency work, which is a clever way to pass the buck if indeed he knows the answer already.
I call transit police. They tell me to call Cambridge police as zoning is not thier problem. The beep that lets you know you are being recorded, after being warned already by the officer answering the phone, is indeed meant for intimidation as its too loud and I noted having to compete with it in order to be heard, the officer asking me to repeat myself.
A few times around being questioned "WHERE are they working?" having to compete with the loud beep is enough psych warfare to let me know this will take some digging into if I want to be serious about getting results. Its not on purpose, I just think the police here are really robots who are programmed to soley protect certain parties interests to the death.
She puts me on hold to ask if its emergency work. She returns and says no its not but someone told her they have been working at night for a while, which I assume is a way of trying to get around the fact that she just admitted outright that a city ordinance was being ignored, but certainly the claims of previous noisy nights MUST set a precedent. That was my answer.
I did not dare call Cambridge back becuz I am not in the mood for more psych warfare. I did find calling them on this an amusing thing to do being that I am only an urban camper. After what the local cities and towns did to me I would get nothing but vengeful pleasure out of shutting down the MBTA for a noise ordinance- being just a 'homeless woman' sleeping in Harvard Sq. This is the same system of bullshit that put me out here, traveling across the USA anyway so why not?
The beauty in this is that now I know how it all works and I am already targeted there is little that can be done to stop me once I decide to go after someone now. More than ever I have nothing to lose.
The Big Dig is such an example of said corruption in this area. And those of us that are from here are appalled that outsiders didnt see it coming. We all knew someone who was put on the payroll for some job in the project. That is just what they do here. Also no one should act surprised becuz outsiders dont consider that we have an intellectual focus here in Boston- that usuallly provides analyisis of problems arising from local projects such as the Big Dig..and indeed that was provided.
I recall seeing a piece on tv about it where they had maps and graphs, comparing it to the similar tunnel in Britian and saying for one it wasnt built deep enough I believe...some big difference in construction where the Boston tunnel just wasnt going to work. And in the end that prediction, based on logic and science came true.
This area, in the past moreso than the dumbed down era we live in, due to its acedemic and intellectual base has provided much prediction and information that one would never recieve outside of a place like Boston- I now realize that generally the powers that be dont want the public being shown such things. Being from Boston area I just took it for granted that one always has the acedemic or expert side to things not the one born soley of business interests.
This would also explain why in this particular climate right now in the USA, why Boston has been so cleaned up and made impossible to live in for so many people- ultimately its the old saying about dictatorships: in order to take over you must get rid of the artists and intellectuals.
In this case in the very long term big picture, you must control the intellectual centers of a country- gut them really especially in places where the public are encouraged to be politically involved in as well as question thier governing bodies.
This explains why this area is so...managed lets say. It explains alot.A piece about corruption in Boston contruction:
http://www.boston.com/news/globe/ideas/articles/2006/07/23/a_usable_past/
"According to Dwyer, Ward viewed his work on the commission ``as his greatest accomplishment." Yet, in a sad personal twist to the story, when Ward's work was done there seemed to be no place for him in Boston. He moved to New York and struggled privately with depression. In 1985 he was found dead with a suicide note by his side."
The guy got targeted- that is exactly what is sounds like, blacklisting is almost spelled out for you: "no place for him in Boston".
I know the feeling. But unlike this guy I did not undstand what I was up against or that I was being interrogated for information. And the way I was destroyed as if I knew the risks involved..its just disguusting.
r
And why does it not surprise me that Romney wanted the comission destroyed? That sounds about right.
I felt a bit better after all this. Becuz now I can see that what I left behind, what I missed was a city that is greedy and run in such a way as to discourage honesty. If whistleblowers are routinely dealt with in this way as well as percieved as a threat to to a tight knit culture then I experienced what is NORMAL or this place- not something unusual..which also heldp me not take it all so personally.
Yes I want revenge for my personal situation but this IS the city to shunned from easily I suppose. I have to realize that all I cared for here never really was: it was always about this system and its supporters. The Boston I loved was a place that I loved becuz I was protected from these realities.
I am lying here at 230am just getting to sleep after finally figuring out how to arrange my tarp around a building. I have lots of people around me so I am not afraid of rape or robbery- besides I grew up with the concept of these things being common in northeast cities.
This is also a point I should touch on. To people not from NY or Boston the idea of being savvy about street crime is horrifying, to us its the way we have been raised for generations and it has never interferred with our enjoyment of life. What people should be worried about is how much corruption is at govt of all levels that no one is allowed to question due to it having been cleaned up in recent years so giving the impression that just becuz the old ways of doing things are not so prevelant, that there is no corruption these days. Perhaps certain states have changed the way they do things but for instance what about the US military or the Pentagon. Govt bodies like Senate or Congress ask them directly how they cannot account for millions of dollars and they give no answer.
What I have discovered is that people can only go so far whistleblowing and confronting until they get intimidated by the threat of being targeted. I now understand that anyone who understands how things really work knows that organized stalking and harassment exists as a system used to ensure silence about corruption. The public generally dont need to know as they are not privvy to sensitive information.
The sounds of jack hammers and a generator over at the MBTA 2nd station in Harvard Sq they are rebuilding is keeping me awake and I dont recall this sort of noise on other nights but I am not in this location every night either.The police and Fire were here earlier just for one slightly drunken older man who hit his head and only wanted a cab to take him home. After much fuss they finally got him into an ambulance.
I called the police with a city ordinance that says no noise 50 feet from the site after 7pm I believe, weekdays- with any emergency work exempt. http://www.cambridgema.gov/deptann.cfm?story_id=63
They immediately told me to call MBTA police to see if they were doing any emergency work, which is a clever way to pass the buck if indeed he knows the answer already.
I call transit police. They tell me to call Cambridge police as zoning is not thier problem. The beep that lets you know you are being recorded, after being warned already by the officer answering the phone, is indeed meant for intimidation as its too loud and I noted having to compete with it in order to be heard, the officer asking me to repeat myself.
A few times around being questioned "WHERE are they working?" having to compete with the loud beep is enough psych warfare to let me know this will take some digging into if I want to be serious about getting results. Its not on purpose, I just think the police here are really robots who are programmed to soley protect certain parties interests to the death.
She puts me on hold to ask if its emergency work. She returns and says no its not but someone told her they have been working at night for a while, which I assume is a way of trying to get around the fact that she just admitted outright that a city ordinance was being ignored, but certainly the claims of previous noisy nights MUST set a precedent. That was my answer.
I did not dare call Cambridge back becuz I am not in the mood for more psych warfare. I did find calling them on this an amusing thing to do being that I am only an urban camper. After what the local cities and towns did to me I would get nothing but vengeful pleasure out of shutting down the MBTA for a noise ordinance- being just a 'homeless woman' sleeping in Harvard Sq. This is the same system of bullshit that put me out here, traveling across the USA anyway so why not?
The beauty in this is that now I know how it all works and I am already targeted there is little that can be done to stop me once I decide to go after someone now. More than ever I have nothing to lose.
The Big Dig is such an example of said corruption in this area. And those of us that are from here are appalled that outsiders didnt see it coming. We all knew someone who was put on the payroll for some job in the project. That is just what they do here. Also no one should act surprised becuz outsiders dont consider that we have an intellectual focus here in Boston- that usuallly provides analyisis of problems arising from local projects such as the Big Dig..and indeed that was provided.
I recall seeing a piece on tv about it where they had maps and graphs, comparing it to the similar tunnel in Britian and saying for one it wasnt built deep enough I believe...some big difference in construction where the Boston tunnel just wasnt going to work. And in the end that prediction, based on logic and science came true.
This area, in the past moreso than the dumbed down era we live in, due to its acedemic and intellectual base has provided much prediction and information that one would never recieve outside of a place like Boston- I now realize that generally the powers that be dont want the public being shown such things. Being from Boston area I just took it for granted that one always has the acedemic or expert side to things not the one born soley of business interests.
This would also explain why in this particular climate right now in the USA, why Boston has been so cleaned up and made impossible to live in for so many people- ultimately its the old saying about dictatorships: in order to take over you must get rid of the artists and intellectuals.
In this case in the very long term big picture, you must control the intellectual centers of a country- gut them really especially in places where the public are encouraged to be politically involved in as well as question thier governing bodies.
This explains why this area is so...managed lets say. It explains alot.A piece about corruption in Boston contruction:
http://www.boston.com/news/globe/ideas/articles/2006/07/23/a_usable_past/
"According to Dwyer, Ward viewed his work on the commission ``as his greatest accomplishment." Yet, in a sad personal twist to the story, when Ward's work was done there seemed to be no place for him in Boston. He moved to New York and struggled privately with depression. In 1985 he was found dead with a suicide note by his side."
The guy got targeted- that is exactly what is sounds like, blacklisting is almost spelled out for you: "no place for him in Boston".
I know the feeling. But unlike this guy I did not undstand what I was up against or that I was being interrogated for information. And the way I was destroyed as if I knew the risks involved..its just disguusting.
r
And why does it not surprise me that Romney wanted the comission destroyed? That sounds about right.
I felt a bit better after all this. Becuz now I can see that what I left behind, what I missed was a city that is greedy and run in such a way as to discourage honesty. If whistleblowers are routinely dealt with in this way as well as percieved as a threat to to a tight knit culture then I experienced what is NORMAL or this place- not something unusual..which also heldp me not take it all so personally.
Yes I want revenge for my personal situation but this IS the city to shunned from easily I suppose. I have to realize that all I cared for here never really was: it was always about this system and its supporters. The Boston I loved was a place that I loved becuz I was protected from these realities.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
More ideations, Boston commons, computer woes
I feel better today. Mysteriously that unknown account in my computer with the serial number I didnt get to post it, is now gone from the properties on files and folders. The computer is still a mess as far as files go with me having to take ownership which sholdnt be happening.
Went into Boston today and the blacks were allright. Only one woman from when i was heavily targeted was at all acting out upon seeing me. All the young kids and anyone who didnt know me when all that happened was fine with me today. I guess only Central Sq Cambridge sucks really hard for race issues, in my case anyway.
got fed and fell asleep. I have to sleep when I am tired not do the pushing myself thing or always be in 'soldier on' mode. I slept for a bit to the point where my body could then feel how truly tired I was. When yer over the line yer tired but you dont know you are. Yer not relaxed enough.
Of course I am never really relaxed with daily subtle gang stalking here as well as the other effects. Of course I felt all anxiety, unsureness and lack of my natural confidence in the city of my birth lift just like that tonight- was in Harv Sq train station cleaning up juice broken glass in bag. Guess what time it was? I looked and was 12:16 am. Its the same every night and per usual its approx times. IT seems to vary around the USA with some places being 11:30 pm and others exactly 12 midnight. This has been going on for years. Its disgusting really that a behavior modification program can go on nationwide, either for individuals who are targeted specifically or a whole nation, and no one notices. Imagine if you didnt know what the f*ck was going on? It must be so limited- your perceptions.
Of course with TI's the smear people keep up a constant wall of the idea that the person is mentally ill and such sentiments as 'schizophrenics see things we dont'..well are you saying that anyone who sees things or sees through bullshit is mentally ill? Cuz I aint sitting out on hte street talking to air or a light post believing there is someone really there.
Ahy time I have ever exhibited eccentric behavior it was either a coping skill or it was from being terrorized by this system and my mother has the radiation experimentee documentation to prove we are connected to MK Ultra. I also had discussed my coping skill weirdness with my therapists for years as well. No one thought I was crazy until these bastards came after me. If ever they produce doctored documents- really good fakes that have a prior date on them that say anything about me being deemed mentally ill in that manner mentioned above before the bastards came after me I will first laugh my ass off then carbon test or do whatever I have to do to counter it. Like start talking about people's bizarre personal lives that you CANNOT afford to have exposed- you morons.
THe whole thing is so...sloppy. But it works and the only reason it does work is remote influence from 6 am to 12 midnight. Without that part of the system the public would have never allowed half the shit to happen that has and laughed at the pathetic attempts at oppression.
But this tech will mess you up and good. It sucks being a wilting flower every f*cking day and then at 12 midnight or so my true strength returns and everything appears normal again--its such a waste. And its obvious that alot of the slap in the face is based on the idea that its 12 midnight so what you gonna do with it now?
Got harassment today pan handling in Boston but I did ok in a short amount of time. The stuff just rolls off me now here. To me its just another city to travel through. Lots of ideations that at least I will learn to appreciate every penny due to being kept in poverty. Which is bs becuz I have been kept in poverty for the most part all my life. Its disgusting what they will try to make you believe to minimize all the physical and emotional damages. I could have learned to appreciate working as a councilor and starting to make decent money more than I ever had in my life. I didnt need all this damage to learn the value of money. Those are more excuses they try to brainwash the victim with. ITS ALL CULT MIND CONTROL. EVERY THING THIS SYSTEM DOES IS IN THE INTEREST OF BRAINWASHING THE TARGET AS WELL AS AN ENTIRE NATION INTO TOTAL SUBMISSION AND SUBSERVIENCE. ITS THE ENSLAVEMENT OF MANKIND UNDER THE GUISE OF 'WORLD PEACE' OR SOME SUCH VAGUE BUNCH OF BULLSHIT. I NOTICE THAT THE ULTRA ELITE DONT NEED AS MANY LIFE LESSONS AS POSSIBLE EFFECTIVE DISSIDENTS DO. ISNT THAT INTERESTING THAT YOUR MORAL CHARACTER DEPENDS SOLEY ON HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE- MORE BRAINWASHING INTO COMPLIANCE.
FIGHT.
First I notice this kid go by and say in broken English "Take de medication" and he had 'Instanbul' on the back of his black t-shirt, and if its part of a message I dont get it. It was hysterical actually becuz the way it was pulled off was weak. He was scared you could tell. Then alot of attempts at getting to me in general. I am just a traveler and htis is just another nowhere town. Hello and Goodbye.
People were good about money though, either cuz they know who I am or they dont see me out there pumping the area everyday for crack or booze.
But there was plenty of ideations: from the one I just mentioned to lots of different people keeping me in thier thoughts and cheering for me, one of two instances of why dont I go home to my grandmother's house and alot of thoughts of my ex Jake thinking of me, somehow knowing I am out here either first hand seeing me or through others watching and informing him and finally the lovely illusion created that he wants to get back together with me.
I just disregard all this bullshit every time it starts up intensely like this and ESPECIALLY when its accompanied by ANY kind of tactics or theatres in person from live human gang stalking perps. Why would those thoughts be real if they had to be enforced by being terrorized? Its called trauma based mind control: they provide the ongoing trauma and the other end of it provides the suggestion. Its so damn obvious.
Does anyone actually believe that Jake would approach me after what he knows he did? After his part in this? He probably doesnt even know I am alive except if some of his contacts laugh at me and tell him I am on the street or some shit. I know the kind of f*ckers he sold out too and Boston is very nasty. It was nasty when my mother had to fight all those little catty bitches at Kens and its still bitchy and nasty. The northeast is nasty and vindictive with a sick sense of humor about people being victims of crime. Its a sickness you only get peace from after you travel and get the f*ck out of this over priveledged hole. This place is like existing in the nicest sewer in the USA, rats and all.
A f*ckin luxury sewer is all this place is when you know whats past Harvard, Children's Hospital and Fenway Park.
I just ignore it. There is definately a vested interest in feminizing me, emasculating me and turning me into the good little wife type. And having thoughts like that is just the formula to produce those results eventually.
This is why they have to have the target's intimates just drop them all at once and traumatize them so. It creates a memory of the person that has no closure to it, leaving it up to the system to manipulate those images in the targeted person's imagination.
Really this a battle of Wills and the Will over one's imagination. The way they can create fx are terrifying and that is what I personally want stopped. Then Big Pharma gets up in it and makes money off of people targeted with these technologies. Its disgusting really. And the way the program operates is unique here to anywhere else in the USA.
Its like they want me to start contacting all these people from my past. NO fuckin way. That is never going to happen. The story of what happened and how this started is going to touch enough people I am hoping, I dont need to contact anyone in person. Can you imagine what the perps would get out of that? Its just the perfect outcome too. Becoming that crazy.
They really torture you into being heartwrenched over what you've lost and they make sure they rip it from you during the indoctrination process, which is the heavy handed fist stages of 24/7 harassment that includes becoming totally isolated by this system and betrayed by the people around you.
I know it sounds crazy but if you had people as rotten around you as I did me, its easy to imagine people like that selling someone out. ANd that is exactly what went down. Its ridiculous really.
I fell asleep in the park on my tarp during some show with lots of people around. Felt good. I could feel perps stopping and looking and they had the typical judgemental controlling, domineering spoiled brat mind set like I shouldnt be sleeping, etc- anything to make me uncomfortable. You can really feel how much they hate you. After many years of this you can spot thier energy easily even through the confusion and fog of being targeted with other forces. They really fucking hate the TI and whats more creepy is the way it feels to me that they feel a certain control over the person. That is probably the greatest reason why people eventually go postal. NO ONE can tolerate feeling like an abused animal in a cage for that many years. Which of course is what they want which is why yer being tortured. To make one act out in some way.
But ask yourself this before you do something like that: Why should YOU act out overtly when they got thier results from you COVERTLY? WHY are you being reactionary? Its the result they are trying to produce- then yer really controlled.
At the train station all these dumb asses in Aerosmith shirts were there, probably becuz they played somewhere I am guessing. But the crowd was decidedly odd and hte dead giveaway was someone in the crowd made sure they said loudly across the tracks something pertaining to me waking up from my nap. Well good morning or you finally woke up something along those lines, which of course = 'We were watching you sleeping' or 'we know where you are and what you do at all times- we have control and we have power over you'. Like Santa Clause right? It lends a certain creepiness to that childhood song: "He sees you when you're sleeping, he knows when you're awake" and of course he seems to have some dominion over moral judgements, but thats only if we give a shit about recieving presents which either we dont consider in our actions throughout the year or we know that we'll get presents anyway. The thing with gang stalking is that due to it being a horrible brainwashing and cult mind control system- you dont get any presents or gifts, yer kept tired, destitute and off balance all the time and in doubt.
Once again I post that THIS SYSTEM WORKS BECUZ IT IS COVERT. AND MODERN PSYCHIATRY COVERS FOR THESE EXPERIMENTS OR BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION PROGRAMS BY DENYING ALL PROBABILITY OR POSSIBILITY OF SUCH A THING BEING REALISTIC IN OUR DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY.
In my case they thought it would be easy due to my father showing the same symptoms- but my discovering my mother's status as a human experimentee documented as connected to MK Ultra and subprojects changes all that permanently. And I did not put that together until it was too late really. And there was no internet years ago either.
For all we know this is some experiment in itself for the future of man in some other environement. Becuz no one seems to be stopping it from happening here and now in a country where its against the law to do what they are doing to people who are targeted.
The people on the train were nervous and really only served to make me feel anxious or bad about my situation. This serves to keep the target ISOLATED. Everything they seem to be doing now at least in my case is just management due to how broken down I am and receptive to brainwashing via tech or suggestions. I fix that though ever time I travel to a different area. Its the only way to preserve your true Self and avoid allowing the environment to define you, and if your targeted, the environment around you will always be a false on- a covert behavior modification program operating in public spaces.
The basis of this is the idea that they can reach you anywhere. But thats not true. They cant reach you it seems wherever there is no cell or wireless reception.
Usually if you spend any amount of time in such places you will find the in person gang stalking to be so heavy it reminds one of the intensity level of torture during Bush, which was designed really to beat us within an inch of our lives or make us feel that way.
ANd this system even the covert system that no one admits exists, which DOES exist alongside the overt systems of torture being used past and present- has its faction in this country that approves of it. Usually its people who really hate a world where molested children or exploited people actually get help or justice or slaves gain self determination or power over thier own lives.
One guy from down south- not the cool Nashville kind but that creepy Moral Majority kind who are perverts but appear uptight and church going on the surface- he advocated what he called "putting the fear a God into em" as a way of making children behave or people behave in general. Beating a child within an inch of thier lives once was suggested. It really is parellel with the torture that is done to TI's.
ANd I am no liberal- I believe in spankings sometimes for kids. But not outright beatings all the time or torture. THAT is designed to have someone be compliant with other abuses going on and its obvious- its what tyrants do to silence people. NOt good for improving the person.
ANd I am not a child and niether are most other TI's.
Went into Boston today and the blacks were allright. Only one woman from when i was heavily targeted was at all acting out upon seeing me. All the young kids and anyone who didnt know me when all that happened was fine with me today. I guess only Central Sq Cambridge sucks really hard for race issues, in my case anyway.
got fed and fell asleep. I have to sleep when I am tired not do the pushing myself thing or always be in 'soldier on' mode. I slept for a bit to the point where my body could then feel how truly tired I was. When yer over the line yer tired but you dont know you are. Yer not relaxed enough.
Of course I am never really relaxed with daily subtle gang stalking here as well as the other effects. Of course I felt all anxiety, unsureness and lack of my natural confidence in the city of my birth lift just like that tonight- was in Harv Sq train station cleaning up juice broken glass in bag. Guess what time it was? I looked and was 12:16 am. Its the same every night and per usual its approx times. IT seems to vary around the USA with some places being 11:30 pm and others exactly 12 midnight. This has been going on for years. Its disgusting really that a behavior modification program can go on nationwide, either for individuals who are targeted specifically or a whole nation, and no one notices. Imagine if you didnt know what the f*ck was going on? It must be so limited- your perceptions.
Of course with TI's the smear people keep up a constant wall of the idea that the person is mentally ill and such sentiments as 'schizophrenics see things we dont'..well are you saying that anyone who sees things or sees through bullshit is mentally ill? Cuz I aint sitting out on hte street talking to air or a light post believing there is someone really there.
Ahy time I have ever exhibited eccentric behavior it was either a coping skill or it was from being terrorized by this system and my mother has the radiation experimentee documentation to prove we are connected to MK Ultra. I also had discussed my coping skill weirdness with my therapists for years as well. No one thought I was crazy until these bastards came after me. If ever they produce doctored documents- really good fakes that have a prior date on them that say anything about me being deemed mentally ill in that manner mentioned above before the bastards came after me I will first laugh my ass off then carbon test or do whatever I have to do to counter it. Like start talking about people's bizarre personal lives that you CANNOT afford to have exposed- you morons.
THe whole thing is so...sloppy. But it works and the only reason it does work is remote influence from 6 am to 12 midnight. Without that part of the system the public would have never allowed half the shit to happen that has and laughed at the pathetic attempts at oppression.
But this tech will mess you up and good. It sucks being a wilting flower every f*cking day and then at 12 midnight or so my true strength returns and everything appears normal again--its such a waste. And its obvious that alot of the slap in the face is based on the idea that its 12 midnight so what you gonna do with it now?
Got harassment today pan handling in Boston but I did ok in a short amount of time. The stuff just rolls off me now here. To me its just another city to travel through. Lots of ideations that at least I will learn to appreciate every penny due to being kept in poverty. Which is bs becuz I have been kept in poverty for the most part all my life. Its disgusting what they will try to make you believe to minimize all the physical and emotional damages. I could have learned to appreciate working as a councilor and starting to make decent money more than I ever had in my life. I didnt need all this damage to learn the value of money. Those are more excuses they try to brainwash the victim with. ITS ALL CULT MIND CONTROL. EVERY THING THIS SYSTEM DOES IS IN THE INTEREST OF BRAINWASHING THE TARGET AS WELL AS AN ENTIRE NATION INTO TOTAL SUBMISSION AND SUBSERVIENCE. ITS THE ENSLAVEMENT OF MANKIND UNDER THE GUISE OF 'WORLD PEACE' OR SOME SUCH VAGUE BUNCH OF BULLSHIT. I NOTICE THAT THE ULTRA ELITE DONT NEED AS MANY LIFE LESSONS AS POSSIBLE EFFECTIVE DISSIDENTS DO. ISNT THAT INTERESTING THAT YOUR MORAL CHARACTER DEPENDS SOLEY ON HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE- MORE BRAINWASHING INTO COMPLIANCE.
FIGHT.
First I notice this kid go by and say in broken English "Take de medication" and he had 'Instanbul' on the back of his black t-shirt, and if its part of a message I dont get it. It was hysterical actually becuz the way it was pulled off was weak. He was scared you could tell. Then alot of attempts at getting to me in general. I am just a traveler and htis is just another nowhere town. Hello and Goodbye.
People were good about money though, either cuz they know who I am or they dont see me out there pumping the area everyday for crack or booze.
But there was plenty of ideations: from the one I just mentioned to lots of different people keeping me in thier thoughts and cheering for me, one of two instances of why dont I go home to my grandmother's house and alot of thoughts of my ex Jake thinking of me, somehow knowing I am out here either first hand seeing me or through others watching and informing him and finally the lovely illusion created that he wants to get back together with me.
I just disregard all this bullshit every time it starts up intensely like this and ESPECIALLY when its accompanied by ANY kind of tactics or theatres in person from live human gang stalking perps. Why would those thoughts be real if they had to be enforced by being terrorized? Its called trauma based mind control: they provide the ongoing trauma and the other end of it provides the suggestion. Its so damn obvious.
Does anyone actually believe that Jake would approach me after what he knows he did? After his part in this? He probably doesnt even know I am alive except if some of his contacts laugh at me and tell him I am on the street or some shit. I know the kind of f*ckers he sold out too and Boston is very nasty. It was nasty when my mother had to fight all those little catty bitches at Kens and its still bitchy and nasty. The northeast is nasty and vindictive with a sick sense of humor about people being victims of crime. Its a sickness you only get peace from after you travel and get the f*ck out of this over priveledged hole. This place is like existing in the nicest sewer in the USA, rats and all.
A f*ckin luxury sewer is all this place is when you know whats past Harvard, Children's Hospital and Fenway Park.
I just ignore it. There is definately a vested interest in feminizing me, emasculating me and turning me into the good little wife type. And having thoughts like that is just the formula to produce those results eventually.
This is why they have to have the target's intimates just drop them all at once and traumatize them so. It creates a memory of the person that has no closure to it, leaving it up to the system to manipulate those images in the targeted person's imagination.
Really this a battle of Wills and the Will over one's imagination. The way they can create fx are terrifying and that is what I personally want stopped. Then Big Pharma gets up in it and makes money off of people targeted with these technologies. Its disgusting really. And the way the program operates is unique here to anywhere else in the USA.
Its like they want me to start contacting all these people from my past. NO fuckin way. That is never going to happen. The story of what happened and how this started is going to touch enough people I am hoping, I dont need to contact anyone in person. Can you imagine what the perps would get out of that? Its just the perfect outcome too. Becoming that crazy.
They really torture you into being heartwrenched over what you've lost and they make sure they rip it from you during the indoctrination process, which is the heavy handed fist stages of 24/7 harassment that includes becoming totally isolated by this system and betrayed by the people around you.
I know it sounds crazy but if you had people as rotten around you as I did me, its easy to imagine people like that selling someone out. ANd that is exactly what went down. Its ridiculous really.
I fell asleep in the park on my tarp during some show with lots of people around. Felt good. I could feel perps stopping and looking and they had the typical judgemental controlling, domineering spoiled brat mind set like I shouldnt be sleeping, etc- anything to make me uncomfortable. You can really feel how much they hate you. After many years of this you can spot thier energy easily even through the confusion and fog of being targeted with other forces. They really fucking hate the TI and whats more creepy is the way it feels to me that they feel a certain control over the person. That is probably the greatest reason why people eventually go postal. NO ONE can tolerate feeling like an abused animal in a cage for that many years. Which of course is what they want which is why yer being tortured. To make one act out in some way.
But ask yourself this before you do something like that: Why should YOU act out overtly when they got thier results from you COVERTLY? WHY are you being reactionary? Its the result they are trying to produce- then yer really controlled.
At the train station all these dumb asses in Aerosmith shirts were there, probably becuz they played somewhere I am guessing. But the crowd was decidedly odd and hte dead giveaway was someone in the crowd made sure they said loudly across the tracks something pertaining to me waking up from my nap. Well good morning or you finally woke up something along those lines, which of course = 'We were watching you sleeping' or 'we know where you are and what you do at all times- we have control and we have power over you'. Like Santa Clause right? It lends a certain creepiness to that childhood song: "He sees you when you're sleeping, he knows when you're awake" and of course he seems to have some dominion over moral judgements, but thats only if we give a shit about recieving presents which either we dont consider in our actions throughout the year or we know that we'll get presents anyway. The thing with gang stalking is that due to it being a horrible brainwashing and cult mind control system- you dont get any presents or gifts, yer kept tired, destitute and off balance all the time and in doubt.
Once again I post that THIS SYSTEM WORKS BECUZ IT IS COVERT. AND MODERN PSYCHIATRY COVERS FOR THESE EXPERIMENTS OR BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION PROGRAMS BY DENYING ALL PROBABILITY OR POSSIBILITY OF SUCH A THING BEING REALISTIC IN OUR DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY.
In my case they thought it would be easy due to my father showing the same symptoms- but my discovering my mother's status as a human experimentee documented as connected to MK Ultra and subprojects changes all that permanently. And I did not put that together until it was too late really. And there was no internet years ago either.
For all we know this is some experiment in itself for the future of man in some other environement. Becuz no one seems to be stopping it from happening here and now in a country where its against the law to do what they are doing to people who are targeted.
The people on the train were nervous and really only served to make me feel anxious or bad about my situation. This serves to keep the target ISOLATED. Everything they seem to be doing now at least in my case is just management due to how broken down I am and receptive to brainwashing via tech or suggestions. I fix that though ever time I travel to a different area. Its the only way to preserve your true Self and avoid allowing the environment to define you, and if your targeted, the environment around you will always be a false on- a covert behavior modification program operating in public spaces.
The basis of this is the idea that they can reach you anywhere. But thats not true. They cant reach you it seems wherever there is no cell or wireless reception.
Usually if you spend any amount of time in such places you will find the in person gang stalking to be so heavy it reminds one of the intensity level of torture during Bush, which was designed really to beat us within an inch of our lives or make us feel that way.
ANd this system even the covert system that no one admits exists, which DOES exist alongside the overt systems of torture being used past and present- has its faction in this country that approves of it. Usually its people who really hate a world where molested children or exploited people actually get help or justice or slaves gain self determination or power over thier own lives.
One guy from down south- not the cool Nashville kind but that creepy Moral Majority kind who are perverts but appear uptight and church going on the surface- he advocated what he called "putting the fear a God into em" as a way of making children behave or people behave in general. Beating a child within an inch of thier lives once was suggested. It really is parellel with the torture that is done to TI's.
ANd I am no liberal- I believe in spankings sometimes for kids. But not outright beatings all the time or torture. THAT is designed to have someone be compliant with other abuses going on and its obvious- its what tyrants do to silence people. NOt good for improving the person.
ANd I am not a child and niether are most other TI's.
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