Went to ER due to not being able to get anything done including doctor, still sick with cold. I have gotten caught in a cycle of it getting worse due to cold outside at night. I just needed some things refilled, cant take any pills due to allergic reactions another condition now which no one probably wants to believe. Only docs familiar with allergy and other related subjects understand how what happened to me with all the prior conditions like mycotoxicosis makes having such severe allergies after anaphylactic shock is possible.
I tried a new inhaler and I am very leary of anything new from food to meds becuz my allergic reactions are so sensitive that one off ingredient causes reaction. A bag of damn chips vinegar and salt the other day in Au Bon Pain started a reaction. There was nothing listed in the ingredients that should have caused that to occur. I have even had reactions from traveling through certain areas in truck rides across the US since Dec. The only thing that made sense was hay rolls in the mid West. But sometimes you just cant tell what it is.
The other day it was actually something in Au Bon Pain and I couldnt breath and started to have reaction symptoms so had to leave and go write someplace else. I do not imagine having to live on Benedryl to prevent full blown reactions nor do I imagine having to take extra Benedryl (and breaking the tabs to get the poweder into my mouth directly which seems to sqelch the reactions faster) when I have a reaction. Or having to brush my teeth if it was something in food, which surprisingly works pretty quickly. That is how dangerous this is. That Bactrim really f*cked me up bad.
I told that doctor in AZ that I had a history of heavy mold exposure that basically altered the way my body processes many things but especially mold based medicines like anti biotics. I would feel 'mold sick' again if I had to take antibiotics. I also had to live on anti fungals until of course now I dont dare take anything which is why many of my mold sickness symptoms have returned like bad days when it rains etc around a place with old buildings etc like Boston area. That along with me having liver disease for many years should have put her off of giving me some Sulfa drug that is notoriously contraversial to begin with. Its not just the skin eating reaciton that long term Bacrim patients get that is dangeruos. Many people have had the same reaction I have had to this drug. It should be handled with alot more care than it currently is.
Its interesting that when yer in pain, you cant get drugs for it if you are female, a former addict etc as a sort of 'profiling' doctors do. And in my case, the slander to try to frame me to make it look like Jake didnt get his own pain killers to sell and I had something to do with it, has made it impossible for me over the years to get painkillers if I needed them for a legit reason.
But yet a drug that has now put my life in even more danger health wise is given to me quite easily and now look at the results.
When people read my expose they are going to have to look at what they have done. The only thing this country can do and the large amount of people who have assisted crooked cops and other corrupt factions in destroying my life is to ignore me now they screwd up so badly, write me of as someone who doesnt matter if I am mistreated anyway or not belive my story as then they would have to take responsiblity for thier actions.
Wait until you read about the amount of abuse, and mistreatment that is totally illegal as well and people feel they are validated !! The people of this country believe that!! This is totally a country under mind control if I ever saw one. Its disgusting. How easily they are manipulated into beliving what the system wants them to believe. Now I know why there are factions in this world that other people find evil that have given me support and possibly assisted in saving my life: people cannot be trusted. Its just as Machievelli said- The hearts of men are black. I have a bit of sympathy for the genuine good people in what is going on to the country and our world but many people hurt me very badly and made my health and my situation even worse without realzing what they were doing is basically assisting in a campaign of psychological warfare and torture. They are THAT a stupid and easily manipulated. This country will believe anything. And look how hard people fought during Bush, just like the Brits did today. Nothing changed it didnt stop any of that mess from happening. So the sheep sense that there is a power in control who's ultimate WILL cannot be bent, so like good lemmings they go along with whatever agenda that power dictates regardless of law or what innocents get hurt.
I took one inhalation of the inhaler they had here which was different from what I use. Doc said it was the same drug so it didnt matter. I said are you sure its exactly the same. She responded with "I know yer not going to believe me if I tell you its the same". What is that supposed to mean? That is very illogical and intimates some defect of character or thinking on my part not that I am dealing with very sensitive allergies since anaphylaxis which she had seemed to understand.
Sure enough I had a throat closing reaction but not the weight on the chest and heart feeling that often accompanies it in more severe reactions. I took more Benedryl and afterwards it subsided, in waves or cycles as has been my common experience throughout. Actually that is how the reaction responded upon the original full blown anaphylaxis, it came and went until it was settled. So that shows it was genuine as well as it resembles the orginal event.
I told her about it on the way out and she said "Well it shouldnt its the same medication". And then I got those looks that she tried to make sure I didnt see. I am so tired of dealing with this new generation of assholes in medicine. I like the old white haired guys, they seem like craftsmen and they seem honest with you..many of them anyway not all. Some Harvard physics professor who has been socializing with the Harvard Sq kids when he's drunk lately told me that his generation is all about fooling and deceiving everyone, as in thier perception "everyone is doing it". We discussed growing up cyber and being more anti social in the physical realm as opposed to cyber world. Finally I felt I was talking to someone on my level...but also with these educated types, something about being locked into a system of discipline from acedamia leaves something lacking in them, something yearning to go outside the lines but not daring to do so. Something doubting, which I never want to have in me. He was only 25 and so this is normal when one is young also. Funny how we want to live and value life when we get closer to its ending with age.
I am so sick of that look from people like her. That stupid denial. I had a surgeon who dealt with my endo and gyn stuff who used to do the same sh*t and it was just as ridiculous: "My scars hurt from my old surgeries". Doc: "Well, they shouldnt". Me: "but they do, isnt there anything like another surgery or another treatment? Physical therapy something?". Doc: "If we open you up again its more adhesions and damage. They shouldnt be bothering you." Me:" but they do". Doc: "But they shoudlnt".. and on and on like a f*cking tennis match. This is the same guy who wanted to still in this day and age try to push reverse menstruation as the cause of endometriosis when its well known its an auto immune disease and obviously connected to radiation exposure due to my mother and I being the only ones that have it. Its very possible anyway. But I am not suppose to be smart enough to know that to these f*cks.
These people have a multi million dollar a years industry and you can see that they avoid certain areas like the plague to keep it that way or not offend anyone like anything to do with human experimentation, academia etc.
Its not the exact same medicine is it? One says made in Ireland and the other says made in England. The one made in Ireland lists its other ingredients for delivery of the albuterol, the new one from England I was given does NOT. This may mean some difference also a different facility, manufaturing plant. I dont know what variations make me have reaction but this is not THE EXACT same medication. And she has years of college to know what the process should be to deduct that as well.
The least people like her could do is be sympathetic and calm the patient and say that its possible some difference in manufacturing is to blame and just go get it filled somewhere by the company you normally use. That would be the sane and civil thing to do. But like I pointed out earlier our world isnt about sanity anymore. Its like Satans generation has arrived straight from the Gates that Bush opened up during he and his bastard administration. They believe in decieving people as the norm. Hmmmm. Doesnt sound too good does it. The problem is that people are getting into medicine that dont belong there. Its no longer craft its a corporate industry and that makes the EMPLOYEES very different from craft. Also she works in a hospital that services alot of poor as well as rich and I am sure that accounts for her attitude as well. The War on the Poor has very subtle parts to it and this is one of them I have noted in the last 20 years. Just blow off people's concerns dont address them. Toughen people up so they dont expect as much. Which is a way of managing a population you are exploiting.
She also refered to my traveling and sleeping outside as 'so cool' when she should damn well have the training and being a woman as well to know something could be behind this lifestyle that meets the eye. She should at least have taken the way I live into consideration as being rough and factored into it the allergy condition which makes it alot more stressful.But no, its easier to act like I am merely happy go lucky. Its business you know, a big big corporate business and no one has time for details and there is always the next meatbag around the corner to deal with.
Granted its an ER and she must deal with much more severe things than this so perhaps its her nature to be more focused on more serious conditions that patients might be in.
There comes a point where you see so much shit trying to be an activist with subject matter no one wants to deal with and you get so victimized that you just KNOW after a while that no matter what attitude people put up to block you, you are right. There is no denial you cannot break through at this stage. Yer so half dead and robbed of life that you cannot afford to care what ignorant people think.
I recall when my mother started out trying to do activism for the radiation human experimentation she didnt really know how to do it yet and out of desperation (and probably living with being targeted and not being conshus of it) she wrote this pathetic hand written letter and made me take it into a doctor when I saw them for something, I forget perhaps endo related. It basically said something about her being a human experimentee but it was strange that with her obsession for perfect professional letter writing that she would have given me such a piece of shit like that to present. Its part of her abusive nature to humiliate people so I think subconsciously she was doing just that. Shes much more 'satanic' in her nature than I ever was.
The two young doctors read it together and just laughed at it. I knew that in order to beat a power structure you had to come at them on a level either they respected as familiar to the world they come from or from some other place that they couldnt reach, like for instance just not dealing with peon newly grad residents and going to much more experienced docs who are aware of issues like human experimentation, experts from other countries that are aware of the US's very nasty habits. The worst people in the world to look to for responsiblity are middle management which these guys at this level in a scam this big are just drones in the damn hive. There is some exotic doc somewhere, some scientist from someplace like Vienna or Switzerland or India, where such things are accepted due to spiritual outlook or a more sophisticated outlook. America, especially with how many middle class to upper middle little f*cks get into medicine, and especially to impress their parents or do what they want them to do- there is no way you are dealing with people who are going to comprehend what you are doing nor do they matter as going up against the US govt and military and CIA and other bastard factions of murderous, political and greedy a-holes, one would need an authority so heavy, that it crushes them just a bit so they know that its equal in weight to thier power and authority. If those little shills were worth anything as activists, they wouldnt be employed in corporate hospital A or B so easily.
They come off an assembly line and there is nothing unique about them. Average Americans that lower class Americans are supposed to bow before in this totally bullshit class system in the US. The idea that a doc or lawyer or a professional of any kind has some sort of edge over someone who talented or highly intelligent is its worst mistake, which is where they get dissidents like me. Think Euro like yer Ancestors and America is the falsely created fantasy it is. The missing capstone on the pyramid IS the loss of ancient wisdom.
And dont you worry these bastards have plenty of bullshit to replace it so that you'll have all kinds of lies, misconceptions and manufactured gods to worship in place of what yer ancestors knew and held dear.
Welcome to the USA. It did NOT have to be this way. The true terrorists are from within and they have been at this since WWII if not before, rotting America from the inside.
America did not have to become destroyed as it is now.
It will be interesting to see what new form and shape the bastards are going to end up with when they finish playing with thier NWO playset..then of course get bored like boys always do and have some more wars or settle Mars and then start a war with earth or some sh*t. But they WILL get bored and be compelled to build something new again. Amusing isnt it?
