“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” --Maya Angelou

Monday, January 10, 2011

Posts by text 1/10/2011-1/13/2011

Posts by mobile text. Each post is preceeded by a hyphen. These are from the 11th and the 13th. If yer interested...

-Y cant i post 2 blogger?
-2faced spineless shelter rats just showed their true colors @ st.Pats somerville. They r all so incredibly stupid except a few no wonder they need each other.
-U shud have felt the vibe @ on the rise 1 day when i squatted 2 get in2 a cabinet. So jealous u cud feel hatred like laser beam. Wich is y these kinds help...
-...Gs system either with silence or active assistance or denial.
-1 deformed girl is so spineless that she has in past intimated gs then intimatd any1 who thinks they r targeted is paranoid.
-A woman named fran is disruptive and bothering people obviously incompetant but staff seems 2 coddle her.She causes chaos so it creates control 4 them.
-She calls people 'evil' when they cough,sneeze with heavy speech impedement much of what she says is nonsensicle.I have vid of her acting insane outside.
-And if a lawyer wont take this or catholic charities wnt i will just expose 2 world vid,more human & civil rites abuses & y we hate shelters
-These private cmpanies involved in non profit r going 2 stop these human & civil rights abuses and mind games of control.
-Y do i get sukd in2 these henparties? Thinking i can make friends in a hen house...When i know i am more wolf than hen? These arent warriors-just women.
-I was teasing this woman fran who keeps fuking w me. Tauntd her saying i had sme blk metal from norway & that was real evil a surge of fear came from room...
-Either thse peices of grbage r fake christians who abuse people but still fear the dark side-- or they KNOW.They know de whole fukin gngstalkin setup from 2003
-Met alot of fake christians in this. I wonder just how many people know how much torture a t.I. Suffers but still supports the system?
-These people r prob 2 stupid 2 define torture properly. Or so callus that they dnt have the same deep capacity 2 feel 2 begin w.
-Ah jake's new friends and contacts. Do i really resemble cher that much and he the innocent blonde southern boy? Isnt she supposedly targetd 2? Schlund said so
-Looks like case of mistaken identity mthrfckers. Italian is not native..And revenge based on sme psychos old wounds & an all male pity party only goes so far
-And truth and info carefuly craftd make doomsday pay real well. Fite w yer minds as weapns. Mobs cant so Targets shud
-The story i have 2 tel is far from babbling.
-That fat bastard jake never wud have gotten so favord w out helpng 2 destroy me. drew that rich brat is prob enjoyng this 2. Fuk all the local & n.A. Rich kids
-I hear people brag about julie that fat spoilt brat. She got street cred out of this and that bitch mther of mine 2
-That fat sociopathic rich white trash is NOT going 2 have the last laff on this
-That bitch mother of mine better realize shes manipulatd and decievd me 4 the last time. As 4 julie the drunk i was trgeted long b4 tht fat bitch was in my life
-And these little ploys 2 get me 2 spil evrythng..Arrgnt law enfrcement that plays bth sides but wants control ovr the contry can piss off as well
-The staf here 2nite, my family, every1 involved has 2 control me bcuz every1 knows how badly treatd and abused ive been. Blame the victim
-What its not americans but foriegn terrorists? Muslims getting rid of immoral people? U aint getin it.ANY1 who wants 2 refrm or chnge me can royaly f-ck off.
-Chnese paying off africans 2 genocide whites in s.Africa can go f-ck thmselves...By the way come home 2 eu or usb. U dnt blong there u arent african
-Let the chinese and the africans have a party w their human rites abuses. Its what they have in common. We can only hope they eventualy turn on each other.
-Whites get out of south africa... Come home now. That is not yer natural home. Poor whites the rich whites always betray us..Poor whites outofAfrica.
-4 once dnt let the upper classes hand u over 2 their house slaves 4 genocide, cultural co opting or handling. Recal the power in ur dna. Reactivate it.
-Awaken from the judeo-christian hypnotic sleep. 1000 yrs plus of sleep. And come home
-I was bitching about the church destroying native euro cultures years ago so dnt credit any recent influences.
-As 4 the cops involved in this they r the saddest c*nts on earth so f-ck all of em who thot this shit was funny. Especialy d-14 1 officer told me outrite
-Pettitis gave them monthly stipend. Hope they choke on it...Literally
-Favor jake julie and my mother over me. Just bcuz they cud pay u supposedly. But realy this is abot shuting up a victim witness isnt it. Y did u make a joke out
-Of it so often? If it was busines? Y so arrogant @ geting away w killing people?
-And yer friend john panderos that scumbag..Did he know about mind control programming or was he just a fat slob 2 bit pimp who mistook sme1 programmed 4 sme1
-Stupid? Or cud it b that not only r mind control survivors useful as barter 2 get out of truble but as diversions?
-Did i mention the country is crawling w people who know about this as totaly unfair & illegal but accept it anyway?
-I got told 2 turn my earfones down by that snooty blak bitch on staff as harasment bcuz it was after 930 but the lazy c*nts who stay here r making noise still.
-I cant wait 2 come in here an totaly ignore these a-holes frm now on. Middle class trash. 4 once its the whites and mixed staf here who suk. The blaks r
-Actually wel tempered and decent except 4 one who is as annoying as any stuk up whte girl & thnks no1 catches on 2 her racist crap.This is y overt hate is..
-Better than covert anytime. The worst is violence against innocents. Black people dnt suck-blak a-ssholes who use it as weapon suk.
-Its just my luck that a number of the assholes reside in cambridge and other parts of metro area. Hnestly, i feel beter in midle of roxbury than cambridge, ma
-People south of bostn know how 2 mind their own business. Cambridge does not.
-Gone...Whatever influence i was under 2nite just left me, just like that.I now feel nornal and balanced and wonder why was i acting out 4 hours like that 4?
-Doesnt surprise me- its 11:45pm. Its within the norm & predictable 11pm-1am time range 4 remote influence 2 cease.
-Now its ensurd i'll b good and tired 2morow and get little done
-Not had lot of time 2 get on cmputer lately. Posting here by text on shitty fone. Edit this and other blog when i can
-Must remember 2 post about strange occurrence 2nite. Also got cars beeping twice again going by shelter after try get in2 blog on friends fone.
-That tactic has been in use here since 1996 @ my familys home in waltham.Rite aftr ma got ''followed'' out of atending presdnts advisry comite on rdation xprmts
-My greatgranfathr from french canada built that house himself @ turn of centry. So much 4 american dream. They fckd w my ancestral home. Not cool
-And my mother herself thinks shes in control of her actions by sneakily being privy 2 whats going on. I only hope shes smart enuf 2 undrstand this
-All these different parties involved. Do they really know what or who they r working 4? The big picture. Every1 thinks they can fool me
-If it really was an investigation y wud my mother b privvy 2 information but then not assist me w that info? Y use oprtunity 2 destroy own kid?
-This is basics of trauma based mind control. They harass survivors til u work 4 them not 4 what is rite.
-The reason u have the boystown scandal etc is bcuz there r plenty of american citizens that help the system destroy victim witnesses.
-They believe in these things 4 the elite 2 keep them happy, as long as its not their kids
-Then the support behavior modification of victim witnesses 2 keep their society peaceful
-2day i went out of the 'remote influence' parameters. After porter sq on red line it seems. Last nite was horrible. This place is targetd or at least withn
-Parameters. Note there r never any shelters outside parameters in any city in usa. Hmeless shelters r camps 4 targeted individuals.
-Of course influence ceased noticably approx 22min ago. I lookd up @ clock..Guess what time it is? 11Pm-1am the remote influence ceases nationwide.
-In san diego its 1130pm to 530am it ceases. In st louis it varied wildly often stoping ded right @ 1am
-When yer being tortured so severely and it just cuts rite off, u tend 2 notice that
-No matter what their excuses r this is about a female having the ability 2 produce orgone- 2 much in their estimation. There was no danger in that except 2 the
-People who believe that is a threat. Its the only xplaination y a woman wud b cut down sexualy and healthwise under the guise of morale reform.
-...MORAL reform, while much more 'immoral' people around that female r not targeted or even given promotion. Its also the only explaination as 2 y people
-...Who have so much more in life than this female cud possibly b jealous of such a person.
-The more immoral people around such a targeted person who r not attacked in such ways in my case were actualy producing money 4 or working w said system...
-...Thus were more assets than threats.
-Per usual a snowstorm interrupts all the effects and i feel @ peace as i have not since 2003
-Its ironic that gs system keeps telling me 2 move on, bcuz its that system that makes it impossible 2 do so.
-It seems a teary confession is in opposed 2 a memoir or expose..If those r correct terms
-Get a lawyer.Is that the answer? But i keep getting diverted from that like everything else
-Its moments like this when things r normal i feel i am so sick of living like this. That my lifes been ruined by all this
-I understand now why its important 2 discredit me by driving me nuts..So that if ever i went in2 serious activism i couldnt get very far.
-I hate the women in this shelter.Stupid boring gheto lovin trash which usualy takes over in any shelter arond boston anyway. Having babies of course is
-Their greatest accomplishment as it is w a great percentage of american women
-The women from ethiopia, haiti and nigeria are a constant joy 4 me here. They r a joy 2 listen 2 and behold as they gather 2 talk in native languages
-They remind me there r other places 2 go in the world. Looking @ them i can feel the hot sun and see their land in my mind
-Glancing @ the local white and blak trash playing cards all i can feel is darkness & imprisonment
-Making fun of people acting ignorant & hi-skool 1 can c y the state has their children: their only great accomplishments.
-There r a few decent ones of course they r outnumbered by the ignorant mob.
-I think worse than the blaks that usualy overpower a scene in a city adjacent 2 metro bostn like this- r the whites who gossip and cause disharmony usualy
-Help form the core group of assh-les in this enviroment. Do they get credit 4 diversity then? Lol
-There has got 2 b a place built 4 quality people doing smething worthy not just waiting 4 housing or getting clean. This is y people sleep outside. Better peeple
-Many shelter people sit around on the states dime acting out arogantly.Those same people cud not make it on the road or sleeping outside
-1 has 2 folow certain rules outside like getting along w people in order 2 survive, self sufficientcy, and comunication 4 survival.Not this weakness
-Things i cud sue 4 if there was a way: -my hep c has gone untreated and been xasperated by being chased around the country 4 years -endometriosis not managed
-And causing more damage -scars from surgeries worsened more adhesions due 2 carrying bakpak and constant run around U.S.A -damage 2 my urethra which seems
-2 b from my constantly carrying a 70 lb bakpak cross country. -being unable 2 take care of my mycotoxisis and that condition doing further damage especialy
-The xcruciating headaches etc
-sex pistols 'pretty vacant'. Is this the song 4 most shelter rats? Maybe 2 sophisticated. Either yer ez 2 make fun of or if not then u think yer better than
-Barb pettiti allegedly went arond saying i didnt deserve the money from the moldy apartment.Which i got harassed 2 sign out of court anyway..Despite docemented
-Evidence 2 the contrary. Olnik got busted 4 that low incme scam in n.Y.C recently. Imagine what the price is going 2 b if i suicide.Hahahahaha
-So many people helped with this railroad job. No wonder now they r trying 2 keep me alive! The metaphysical cost alone shud destroy all parties who were
-Involved. I often want 2 suicide just 4 comfort of knowing that when i go-i drag all parties involved down with me
-The gang stalking system hands u over 2 a whole nation it seems. Even b4 the 24-7 harasment 2003, blaks were refering 2 me as cinderella and leting me know they
-Knew who i was. Why must blaks have so much 2 do with this? It makes me want 2 vomit
-If its not them its whites in white areas. But blaks r much more cruel and wise ass & mocking about it
-I recall this old blak artist i modeled 4 in newton during the height of harrassment.Didnt realize til later he was in on it heavily
-He had this painting of a blak superhero he was working on. So much scum from newton in on this. Rich scum
-What exactly was done 2 get obama in anyway?
-I am sure thats part of this crowds getting off on this. Me recounting it as if i just discovered what went on. That will make them all feel even more powerful
-Also i dnt have sex anymre due 2 all the damage from traveling and not being able 2 seek medical care. So that leads 2 much deconditioning especialy not
-Stimulating the immune system
-There is so much more 2 tel. When the whole truth is released in2 the world i hope the whole it rips in their universe
-Thats not karma for being in adult entertainment thats jealousy along with sme faction being afraid of any female who can produce too much energy in this way
-Remember the culture is being geared 2 destroy conshusness and enslave mankind in this way the most
-2 minimize the energy of music and all arts as well as the energies man produces naturaly
-People dnt realize the price i am willing 2 pay 4 revenge.Its endless what i will sacrifice. Lone shooters r bullshit ametures.
-Y not just use telling the truth?
-Brand every1 4 life the way they did 2 me.
-Its e-z 2 understand people freaking out in the u.S.A. Americans in large numbers r sneaky dishonest immoral greedy people who hide behind moralizing,gossip
-And religion. They live 2 avoid consequences and being honest w themselves. Displacment and projection are their two greatest friends 1/13/11 1:14 AM
-I know how 2 describe gs: its as if a massive number of people known 2 u & mostly unknown 2 u swoop down on u 4 years and then totally ignore u. This serves to
-Permanently traumatize the target. Especially severing them from their old lives.
-Its no surprise the police have a major hand in this as only they are capable of such criminal behavior and violent military like attak while
-Maintaining a facade of being civilian public servants.