“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” --Maya Angelou

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

The Ideations To Move To NY Are Really Bad Lately

Here we go again. Strong ideations to again go on a wild.goose chase in search of a new home base that I know by now will end up in disaster and I will come right back to Boston.

Vegas keeps coming up.  Now its NYC that wont stop being marketed in my head. Its so clear that Im not just getting flashing visions I am having longer running moments of seeing areas in NY and even tastes and smells. Wtf?

Im not GOING to NyC . I understand that NY according to my genetics, personality and even astrocartography is much more harmonious and better for me than Boston. I get it.  I knew that 20 years ago when I visited and it was just easier and there were more cool Italians not the uptight kind like here and more people with dark eyes and hair who just generally looked like me and the energy suited my high spiritedness better.

In order to be in Boston Ive basically had to resort to playing dead its so incredibly bad here now since the old guard isnt in power and its these horrid YUPpies and the other usual people who take care of the area for the elite.

Its become nothing but miserable since 2006.

However NYC is not an option. Its very dangerous. I know nothing about NY and have no experience there. I hear its just as miserable there now if u don't have money. Its not what it used to be just like Boston.

Why would I go there? Its also Hipster overload. What am I going to do with that?

And Ive experienced entire blocks that have such negative evil energy that it literally blew me off the sidewalk.
I tend to start acting crazy in NYC also prob becuz of all the electromagnetic pollution.

I get gang stalked just walking to the store from the bus station as if I was Osama Bin Ladin himself.

I dont need that sh#t. Blacks there kill bus drivers who hit their cars after they are the ones who cut them off in traffic. Its in the news. I dont have the connections nor the ability to meet people anymore. I used to but now its just gang stalkers every inch of this country.

Its like someone decided Im old now so there's no point in letting me be cool anymore and be involved in scenes.

My being rejected only since the stresses of the past two years have made me look 'old' is very suspicious.

Im not going to be controlled by this system or by this society. The point of activism of this kind and traveling has been to become free of control not be recontrolled again simply becuz I now can no longer live off my looks.

I keep getting the impressions theres more sympathetic people in NYC or that theres activists like me and communities I can exist in and have a more satisfying life.

Even that I would be given better healthcare becuz I dont trust the hospitals here but am hoping the one I have continues to do the right thing. Even though Ive had some practitioners that dont.

Why NY? I shud have gone to another country in my 20s but its too late now. I could try it but it would be probably just as miserable due to the NWO destroying any place decent anyone can go who doesn't want to be a mindless walking corpse living under mind control buying into NWO politics and buying things endlessly as a meaning of life.

I know Bostons purpose for me is simplu to keep destroying me and destroy what's left of my life energy.  Thats all they probably ever had in mind for and others like me-their sick human sacrifices to make the area and the US keep flourishing.

Boston is evil and the good it balanced out with has been taken away-buried-destroyed. They call that old school nowadays.

Total oppression of everyone except the money those serving the .money or following the money.

Its a total slave state.

Buy why would I not fight my original enslavement in the place where it started?

There's only one place to slay the dragon- in its own lair.

All I meet now are decievers anyway. I am kept surrounded constantly and am unable to reach decent or sane people at this point.

Like NY is going to be any better.

They are hoping that I feel that my situation really sank when Menino died and left office. I know I felt a change when Cuomo died.

Boston feels like a foriegn land sometimes with all these strangers walking around in it. It seems like its soul has been cut out.

Why should I leave? Pretty much as of 2012 or 13 Im being treated like a dead woman walking anyway. Like im totally discredited, like I dont matter and Im hated and dispised by everyone.

I dont have anyone left and I get harassed every minute everywhere I go.

Why go to NYC?  Its going to be no better there and its more dangerous and miserable.

The only thing I sensed there last time I took a truck ride through was that someone was there in power who was amused by how much gall I had and nerve to keep doing what I am doing.  That just means that whoever is in power wants me tjere to play ganes with me becuz I would be a fun and sporting subject.

Ive been doing this too long and I am fully aware that we are often treated as toys by the elite or their cronies.

We are treated just as black slaves were. Torture or games for sport fun or to gain metaohysical energies from us.

I have a book to write. I dont have time for this country's bullshit..

Most people are done wth me anyway becuz Ive lost my looks so Im essentially alone and on my own anyway.

Im not going to NYC. That wpuld be very ill advised. Anything on the west coast is asking for more radiation exposure whi h is what helped age me in the first place.

Its been time to lewve the US but without money where can you go that hasnt been fucked by the NWO?
I doubt if Switzerland wants me and that seems like one of the only sane places left.

Im also being pushed to live in Austin TX permanently due to my recent shift to racial awareness, self defense and more conservative views (brought on by endless years of abuse from largely black and Latino gang stalking groups mostly African and African American). So I finalky get hip to the reality of COINTELPRO having turned what remained of truly free blacks or anyone really dissident into compliant house slaves and spies as one can study blacks have always served the purpose of in this country and I HAVE TO BE BANISHED FROM MY HOMETOWN AND HOME BASE becuz I realized it was nothing short of a massive racial conspiracy??  Not only nationally but internationally? (Mass immigration into EU).
There are targeted African Americans and there are decent people. Its just a large part of that demographic around the country but specifically in key cities like Boston are totally dedicated to the NWO war and occupation on humanity so they can gain ultimate power in the new world order.
(Laughs) Im not going to ignore this just becuz its unpleasant or inconvenient to people. My activism has turned this way and this is the route of  discovery.

The truth is not my problem. Obviously once again it is society's problem. Oh well.

Im not going ro Austin TX to live with pollution, deadly firey heat and snakes and a complete lack of intelletualism or an ocean just becuz I am now a threat to the NWO..not just the United States.

I get harassed there too its just that I seem to get less mind control there and actually get things done.

Im resolving the issues with my home state and then I may move abroad. Thats final.  Im sick of these new fucks in power and a million idiotic brainwashed 20 somethings trying to pry me from whats mine.

Why dont YOU go back where you came from?

Nyc is out.  Im being pushed which means that area is desperate for someone with an energy output like mine to be in that location. They want to take something i have from me.

I think NYC has taken from us all here in the US lomg enough since 9-11 and beyond.
Cuomos son last I read has been pushing the insurance people to pay off the claim from the 1% er Zionist who owned the buildings from 9-11.

With that kind of power opposing me....what could I POSSIBLY gain?

Freedom? Better health care? Actual real friends who share my outlook on life in America (who arent do nothing idiots?

Resources to write my book uninterrupted by a thousand gang stalkers a day making it impossible to utilize them?

I highly doubt if NY is going to have those things for me. I might check it out next spring....but im not running down there before winter. No...way.