-Tech & other influence so powerful here that i post things i think r totally honest & @ 4am when awoken i immediately sense that whole world now surely
-percieves me as schizophrenic. I had more control when i slept outside in summer here. More gs, less tech in summer.
-But im more people connected now due 2 being weakened & sick. People that remember me seem 2 make it easier. Its sad however that the system has tortured me]
-Until i have now become self fulfilling prophecy. I now feel more out of it and less grounded than ever. I was much more anchored strong centered 2008 or so.
-I may have learned control and not 2 react 2 harassment but internaly its much worse now. It seems learning control was the thing that drove me 2 true
